Moving On · 2:18am Sep 27th, 2017
Hey everyone.
I'll cut right to the chase: this will be my final blog post. I'm leaving. For good.
Yeah, I know I've said that in the past, usually when I was in the middle of an immature meltdown, but this time the circumstances are much, much different.
For once in my life, I am content. Happy? Maybe that's too strong a word for right now, but content? Yeah. I'm healthier, physically and mentally. I'm going back to college. I've got a decent job. I'm in love. Things are actually going well. And I've cut all ties with the dark, depressive, cancerous online past that once defined me.
All ties but one.
This site.
I don't write anymore. Maybe I will down the line, but for right now, my writing days are over. I don't like any of the stories on here, not even my own. Hell, I don't even like the idea of pony-fiction in the first place. For me, this site was never about writing: it was a forum, a soapbox for me to air out my dirty laundry and spew my poison to anyone that happened to be online at the time, with no regard for the people I hurt or the damage I caused. All the drama, all the backlash, everything I said and did...
I know nothing will change the past. But I've been cutting ties with stuff that has been anchoring me to that past, especially on social media, in order for me to move forward and maybe, just maybe, become a better person.
Fimfiction is the last tie I need to sever. I love you guys and I have plenty of good memories about this place, but...the bad memories are too much. I can't come back here without thinking of all the trouble I caused and how much I hurt myself and others.
So I'm not coming back to this site. At all. I'd delete my account if I could, but I can't. I won't delete my stories, even though I really feel like I should. I won't delete any other blog posts or anything like that.
And I won't forget the people who stood with me through it all. I owe you guys more than I think I'll ever be able to pay.
Some of you have alternate ways of contacting me. As for the rest of you...have a good life. Make the best of it. If you're young, don't make the same shitty mistakes that I made. And thank you, once more, to the people that stayed. Thank you so much.
This is BaroqueNexus, signing off.
Good luck!
You can. Just ask a mod to do it for you. Try to find Vengeful Spirit's old account, and you won't be able to.
Adios my man! I'll soon see you on the other side!
aight see ya
You deserve to be happy.
Goodbye, and we'll miss you!
Very unfortunate that you feel you must cut ties with this place. But you've gotta do what makes you happy in the end.
I'm glad you're not deleting your stories...I'll always remember "The Pony In My Pocket."
It was one of the good early ones.
God speed and good luck, buddy.