Crawling back · 6:34am Jul 17th, 2016
Okay, so, a few people have requested to know what's happened to me recently. And honestly, I shouldn't be surprised. I've basically been nigh-on radio silent for a few months now, with my last update suggesting that my grandmother was in less-than-good condition. Frankly, it was unfair of me to let this place sit so long.
So here's my update. Unfortunately I wish I had better news.
When I say this, rest assured that nothing has happened to my Gramma. My grandmother is fine, and made a full recovery, though she still claims she feels weak from time to time.
No, the problem lies with me and the fact that, I am ashamed to say, that I've gotten nearly no writing done these past few months. And believe me, I'm MORE frustrated with that fact than you are. The fact is, for whatever reason, I'm just not deriving as much enjoyment out of writing as I used to, and I have no idea why. And it pisses me the fuck off because deep down, it's like, I know it's one of my favorite things to do, but at the same time, whenever I sit down to actually DO it, I find myself so incredibly unmotivated and uninspired and frustrated with it that I can't bring myself to write more than a sentence or two. And believe me, that makes me angry as hell. I have my suspicions as to why this might be, but they're very private matters and I wish to leave it at that.
Nothing is cancelled as of yet. I still intend to finish what I started. But If I'm going to do that I need to figure something out. Some way to properly motivate myself and get back into the groove. Because as I am, I'm not getting jack shit done.
In other news, I actually have a job now. Like a real job. A paying job. A full time job. One that requires me to be at a place 8 hours a day starting at 9 in the morning. One of those "real jobs" your parents keep asking you about and when you're going to get. That might be another reason why I'm not so keen on writing at the moment, because I haven't adjusted to this new status quo yet. We'll see about changing that in the future, but this job is so new that it can't be the ONLY thing holding me back. This ultra-writers-block has been going on for too long at that point.
Anyway, I'll try to be more present. I'm not LEAVING. I've still been lurking around the site, occasionally commenting on stories, and I still love reading fanfics and stuff, but I'm just having trouble getting myself to write my own. I'm sorry I don't have better news. Believe me, I hate myself for this.
Okay, thanks
. Then we know how things are standing with you. I hope, for both our and your sake, that you get yourself out of this writer- block funk soon. Getting angry at something one loves to do does not sound like fun.
Good to hear from you. You may need to relax a little, though. Trying to force inspiration never ends well, and there's no need to beat yourself up over an uncooperative muse. It'll come when it comes.
I'm not sure if I've said this to you before, but whatever. Don't feel obligated in any way to finish your work if you don't want to. We all do this as a hobby for free. Unfinished stuff is common in the fanfiction community for that reason.
Glad to hear your grandmother is okay.
As for your writer's block, one thing I've noticed is that whenever I have the entire outline for a story planned in my head before I start writing, I usually have more motivation to keep writing it than if I hadn't planned it all out. I dunno if that'll help you; just throwing ideas out there.
What's your full time job, may I ask?
Good to hear from you again. It's been so long it has gotten rather Dusty in here. You might want a Janitor to clean up a bit.
4097543 I can only hope that it isn't a factory job. If so, then goodbye freetime.
4097890 *rimshot* *rimshot*
Surprisingly enough, being a janitor isn't resulting in much free time for myself. Might as well be a full time job at this rate.
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Thanks. It's really not fun at all.
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On the one hand, there's a part of me that wants to think that way, but on the other, when your muse is being uncooperative for months on end, it becomes outrageously frustrating. I keep reading these articles and interviews about "Discipline vs. Motivation" and how motivation is fickle and discipline is the key to getting stuff done. I've tried to start up a disciplined writing regimen, but the problem is that every time I try and force myself to write, I hate what I've written, I hate the very ACT of writing, and I hate myself for not getting into it :T
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True, but I know from experience how disappointing it is to have a story you follow get cancelled and remain unfinished. Even more than that, though, I know I'd be disappointing myself.
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Unfortunately, one of the stories I keep trying to write is Applebloom, which I have a very expansive outline for...
Also, Research Assistant.
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I can think of one good place to start: Stop hating yourself.
I could use that Luna episode from Season 5 as an example, but I know you don't don't watch the show anymore, so it wouldn't really help. The point is, all that negativity isn't helping you, man. I'm not saying be absolutely shameless about it, but don't let that guilt rule you. I'm still rooting for you along with your other followers. I hope you feel better.
Edit: Also, thanks for the update. I was hoping to hear something soon, even if it's not the best news.
4098502 Dusty the Royal Jonitor
Please keep doing Super Smash Bros!