Well shit. · 2:59am May 3rd, 2016
So you guys as I said in my last blog post I'm 15 years old. Well not only have I found sanctuary in blades but I found something even better. It even makes me cut less. Makes me happy, makes me forget all the worlds bull shit around me. And that my friends is drugs. Yep a 15 year old girl as inosent as could be a year ago has turned into a drug addict. I got into trouble already I owe people money, I owe people so pay back... Some people owe me some money, which I'm planing on getting tonight or else they went going to have a good night. Weed, crack, meth anything to get me high I'll do it if I'm depressed as shit which is every day 24/7 cuz of all the shit that's been going on at school. Ha what's funny is I'm the one doing drugs she's the one who's faking her cuts for attention and to get me in trouble who's more likely to die in this situation..... Yeah that's right but the admi is tractors and counclers are still taking her side even though I show to school every day stoned as fuck.
Well besides using drugs I will sometimes consolt in the night sky its a bit better but it doesn't always work. But I wouldn't worry about me, just giving you guyes an update on shit. Like I always do.
What...
Come again...?
*hugs* You don't need drugs, and you don't need to cut yourself. You're stronger than the need for either of those things. If you need someone to talk to, you have friends here who are more than willing to listen. Myself included.
3915060 hard to feel loved or cared about when the one person who loved and cared about me just dumped me cuz of my own actions
3915000 I'm sorry big brother
3914992 it just seemed to work and it clicked
3915089 PM pls
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(Hugs tight)
Please... don't do this to yourself...
Oh my God...... okay I'm here to tell you RIGHT NOW? Those drugs aren't going to help you for long.
3915083 *pats your back* Because they to are afraid, they don't know how to help you. And in that fear they made the situation worse. Don't blame them for their inexperience, and don't feel bad that you made this choice.
So long as you are willing to take the help, and you are willing to better yourself. That is what is important right now. I know you can do better, I know you are a strong and wonderful person.
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You need counseling. Now. This will not end well unless you do. You're really hurting yourself.
Please see someone. Get clean. Get some help with your self-harm. We care about you, and we want to see you get better.
Drugs kill people NightGlider. They kill them and make them not alive anymore. And you're too wonderful to die, I just know it.
There is help available. Talk to a doctor (like just a normal one) and they'll get you in touch with the people you need. 
I have no idea what I can and should say, but I honestly prefer cutting over this atleast if wont fuck you up permanently.
Why do even all that?
3915103 I already promised my boyfriend that I would try and stop if we were going to stay together he was getting sick of me texting him while I was high
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It was to hard to come up with a different response for everyone so just so everyone knows I'm ok I promised my boyfriend I would try to quit getting high if me and him were going to be and stay together he was betting sick of me texting him stoned.
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We love you, little sis.
3915591 I'm VERY proud that you're gonna quit.
3915591 *hugs* It's great that you are willing to take that first step. I hope that things get better for you.
3915591 That's great!
You have someone to guide you! Let him be your rock. I'll bet he'd be willing to go to counseling with you, for emotional support. And we'll be supporting you, too.
Seek help to beat this
I believe in you cann
Boss
3915591 Professional help though. Will you get it?
3917830 no because I'm fine
3925276 It's literally scientifically impossible to quit drugs without professional help
3925533 it is for me
3925533 and link me to the arrival that says that pleas I'd like to read it and see how much bull that unprofecinal writer must have written
its not imposibul to quite without profecinalmhelp its. REALLY not. Especially when I'm in high school and don't wanna be expelled.
3929737 oh, so you don't want to tell anyone. Okay that's cool. Well every 0rofessuonal in the psychology and neuroscience field says so. So does anyone whose ever quit drugs. And you will have the RIGHT to finish school whether anyone wants you to or not. And colleges aren’t allowed to reject people if they did drugs in the past or anything. You will definitely not be able to finish college or hold down a job that pays an acceptable salary of you don't quit though. Tell a DOCTOR, not anyone who's at school., and they can tell you what to do.
3930781 I have quit already dude I'm different than all those other people I'm able to stop doing something if I know its really bad especially when I first start it. I hadn't even been doing it for a week. More like five days and yes I can her expelled and rejected from colleges in the state of Kansas at some schools for a drug history but its very ground apon so its never done depending on the offence and no one knows I did drugs besides my BF and you guys I'm fine really I've quite. FOR GOOD
3931688 Okay. Good job.
If you ever need anything we're all here. Also if you DO end up needing professional help go to college in Canada they're not allowed to reject you based on drug history here.