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NightGlider Shimmer
Healing slowly..... And there might be times I show my real face
NightGlider Shimmer
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I would
I don't care what other people call you. You still matter to me. And I still want to be your friend.
hug
I'm sorry you're going through such a terrible time. I wish I could help, but there's nothing much I can do. You're right, I'm not a friend because I really don't know you that well. However, that doesn't mean I don't care about you as a person.
I'm not going to talk you down, you clearly stated I can. I don't think blades are the answer, and I'm sure others would say that too, but you'll do whatever you want to do anyway.
You need major help. Self harming as your 'punishment' is a horrible way to think! So you called someone accidentally during church, well it is their problem if they forgot to turn their phone off! You did nothing wrong and you need to understand that. You say only one person cared for you, then why do you have so many people following you and comforting you in your time of need? When you are happy, they cheer. When you are dad, they try their best to comfort you.
Also, you both broke up. Yeah it may be sad to begin with, but everyone has a break up! My mom's first boyfriend left her at the movie theater for peat sakes! And did that stop her from ever finding love? NO! So it shouldn't stop you either.
Seriously, see a therapist. I'm saying this because I do not want to see another person going down this road again. Also, from someone who had to see multiple therapists in my lifetime, they do help! It may be awkward at first, but they will help you.
Okay then while you are ignoring I will just make a list on how. Your punishment is not really a punishment and how you could fix the problem but probably wont because you dont really care.
Number one: Who was the victim.
Clearly your choice here is not the time you call but your love interest. Especially if this was the result. Then I doubt it was real love to begin with. Feel free to respond in the next two minutes or I shall continue.
3930244 it was real love to us both for almost two years even talking about our future together you'll never underastand
Wow. If imwasnt so out of it right now is know what to say.
Fuking doctor put me on thorzine.
3930257 if it was real he will forgive you. Well he may not after this stunt.
3930470 get lost don't ever talk to me again or do ever talk about him that way ever again Ivan is the most caring and forgive person I've even know and yes he has forgiven me after he realised he was taking his anger out on me that he had for himself. And after my four hour long anxiety attack that made me pass out five times he felt so bad he promised to never do it again unless he was unhappy with the relationship. So don't you dare ever. EVER. Say he wouldn't forgive me. If he can forgive me for the lying I did two years ago then he can forgive me for an accident and we are still together now. So go don't talk to me in less you chose to apologise for the way you just talked to me.
3930288 what?
3930210 HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO YELL PEOPLE. I dontv need a fucking theripest I'm fine on my own I'm never going to kill myself over a break up people don't understand my cuts stop my ranting and pain they really do they are just a hold down until I find something different to help. For now its the blades I'm working on a way to use different rubber bands on my skin to snap myself with instead of cutting but I can't find the right kind I'm still looking. But I don't new a therapist . thank you though for caring I really do appreciate it my friend
3930205 thank you for the supoert I apriciate it
3930201 Yes *hugs*
3930193 thanks lightning I apriceat your friendship and support
3930191 thank you for your trust but if you knew my past trust me you wouldn't be happy to know me
3931696 that was what I was trying to get you to see. What you never seem to realize just like he took his anger out on you. You was doing to your friends. You would not reply. That is like saying I will ignore you whole time. I had to get you mad so you would finally open your eyes. Allow me to introduce myself. I am of the gentlecolt police. My reason to live is to help bronies and pegasusters. My methods may seem harsh but few can deny they work.
3931709 I do I have :P
3931704 Sorry..
If you can't find a right rubber band, maybe pinch yourself or run your skin over hot water?
3932104 I'm 15 and live with depretion my whole life think about your method before you use it pleas go away.
3933597 I do the hot water thing in the shower for three seconds and I cant physically pinch ,myself for some reason
3933661 I know all about depression and alot of people have to deal with it. Now stop pushing people away so they can help. Though I should not care... I do and I can't leave those in need.
3933881 well I'm asking you to go away
3934330 If that I the kind of person you wish to be than I will leave. I will tell the others I asked to check on you to leave you alone as well.
3934555 I'm saying you leave me alone in general. I don't like your methods its the way my family does things to and I don't want any part of my family when I'm older and it pisses me off when people use my weaknesses against me.
3933330 I love those animations. (Your avatar)
3935780 Tis A game Actually *Hugs*
3935784 oh cool I didn't know that
3935845 lol it's a gud game
3934555 *sighs* look I'm sorry for my actions but you have to understand some things are more triggering than others maybe before you do your "methods" of getting people to talk make sure you ask around how their mental state is or how they respond to things like that. What you did was very triggering for me and it takes a lot for people on hear to make me triggered by something. Just pleas next time make sure you know what that oerso does and doesn't like before you do it. My anger and depression are not things to be used against me and they can worsen any situation I am in because I do have a very hard life. I know you hear that from a lot of kids and might think oh yeah kids say that all the time well I'm not the avrige "kid" I'm your average kid who acts and talks like a adult now when I need to. And have maturity and responsibility of three dogs when my family's not around which is a lot. I even started helping out older people who struggle to keep my anger in check and to train myself to not get angry. Also helping with dogs to gain leadership and skills for the future whenever I can before or after school. I even babysit to learn how to properly disaplin and punish and reword behaviors in a adult parent like way like time outs or no candy that day ( I never spank yuck never). But yes I'm no avrige kid. I'm a kid most adults who I know treat with respect and pride. So pleas before you do something make sure you know what your doing first.
3936527 I new what I was doing. I took a course in psychology. What I was using the method of reverse psychology. In a method to that was to trigger further pain because you was not responding to anyone else's method. I understand depression more then you know. I suffers depression. My mother suffered depression, my sister has depression. My best friend he suffers from suicidal depression. That is top tear right there. The point being is you was locking people out. No matter what kind of problem it is. It is not the answer and never considered a punishment. Unless you punishing others for your wrong. What it do causes others to worry about. Makes others doubts your feelings toward them. You method was only a good way to spread your depression to others. I will digress I have no further point to make on the subject. I just hope you seen the error of your ways. Next time if something like this happens. You pull your friends closer not push them away. Then I can help you in a gentleman's nature. Good day to you.
3936527 Before you think I enjoy this method. I dont sometimes to help someone. Well someone else has to be the bad guy. I wish you and your BF the best. Hopefully this kind of thing wont happen again.
3936696 my BF is Willow the wisp or Dark willow he was your friend. And again I know all about depression to go ask him trust me ....he knows all of it. Suicidal is the biggest chunk of it like 80% suicidal 20% medical. I egfen bought bandages on amazon to help me if I need them. But again if someone is depressed don't make them more depressed by triggering them thatle make them want to kill themselves more. And DONT talk down to me like I don't u derstand I understand it perfectly there's not a word in the dictionary that describes me in one word. I understand things that most dont . for a kid that's a lot. I have ADHD that means my emotions incress when I don't want them to that means I'm depressed24/7 even when I'm happy I'm still depressed. Medications never worked so I've relayed on my dream of hapoyness with my boyfriend when were old enough to keep me going. I know him better than you probably do. I know when he's mad at me or at himself or his family. If he's mad at me he doesn't even look at his phone at my messages and that scares the fuck out of me and I get mad cuz I know what he does when he's alone but its not what I do and I'm not at liberty to give that away. When he's mad at himself he gets mad at me and doesn't respond but looks at my messages I can tell when his icon shows up or when the messages says seen. When he's mad at his family he rants to me and I comfort him in the end. In the end of each on we still love each other and stay a strong devoted couple so one day we can meet in person. And I push people away for a reosne. My who life I've always been shown by other people that I'm not worth their time or I'm not worth anything by being bullyed and never given a second chance. So I lied to get the attention I wanted and that turned out horabul. And I was alon again and then dundudon I meet willow the wisp age15 to my 13. He turned my word from broken glass that was dust into a glass heart that he hjolds together and he voued that he would never let it fall into the wrong hands or let it fall into darkness I told him my feels for him a week after we meet and been together ever since October 21, 2014. But that's when things threw me off I thought he would reject me like a broken toy. But he didn't he (rp) kisses dmy cheek and said he liked me too. And to this day I always feel the need to push everything I love away because I have someone like him because for 13 years of my life I was told I'd never find love in anyone that I'd never find hope in loves eyes. That I never deserved things of happyness. So I pushed everyone who loved me away my frinds, family everyone. And emagion after 13 years of being called worthless....you finaly find someone who loves you for you. Some who looks beyond my skin and race or culcher and sees my heart before my face. Thats why I push everyone away.
3936749 That is not the way to fix it. Push to much you will lose anyone. I know you remind me of me. So much it is scary but someone slapped me hard enough in the face I got a wake call and root canal. Then I found love and lost. Then love found me now I am try to save people like me. Like you from losing the love they have and possibly a few teeth. PS I was not talking down to you I was explaining my actions in full. So there is no miss understanding.
3936901 Ha I guess I can get the slap in the face as a wake up call
and that was from him and for him it takes a lot for him to slap me (threw rp of course). Hell it takes like a shit of a lot just to piss him really off in mean I've pissed him off but never over the edge off. But oh hell he's pushed me helps off the edge it doesn't take much.
3937103 That is dandy but I am not talking about a RP...
3937246 I know but I still felt like real life because bing slapped in rp is like being slapped with reality especially when its from him.