A State of Affairs. · 8:59pm Feb 6th, 2016
Well. It's been a while, hasn't it? It does appear that I am, in fact, not dead. I know, I was surprised to learn this as well. I can't even really make any kind of excuse to explain my absence, other than this:
Mental illness sucks.
I mean, it really sucks.
I know it's really hard for most people to understand the concept of actually living under the crushing weight of severe anxiety, and that's probably why so many of these same people believe that people like me are just making it up to get out of doing stuff. And if you believe that, then there is probably nothing I can ever really do to dissuade you of that line of thinking. So if you really want to blame me for my illness, I can't really stop you.
But that itself is simply a symptom of a much larger problem affecting our society, one that is far beyond the scope of this humble author and whether or not he... does... things...
My poor attempt at humour aside, I can't really apologize for what I've done, so I most likely will not try, in part because many of you might not believe it, or that I might never believe I've made it up to you. But such is the natural catch/22 of anxiety disorders. Damned if you do, damned if you don't.
So basically why I'm writing this is to tell you that I DO plan on finishing Twilight's Secret, Celestia's Obsession, it might just take a while. And I think if we're all still here then we're going to be here for a while. But I do understand that simple promises such as this often seem empty, so I am offering something you can sink your teeth into. I'm am currently in the process of writing a Slice of Life story entitled The Seven Mares You Meet In Heaven. The Outline is done, and I can definitively state that it will be in most all possibilities a total of nine chapters, though the actual word count is as of yet unknown. I know it is quite a departure from what I've written before, but hopefully it is my style of writing that keeps people kinda-sorta-maybe paying attention to me, rather than the content. Though I have yet to put fingers to keys as it were, this is a story I am working on, and should be done sometime in the near future.
Anyways, if anyone actually takes the time to read this, I'll be happy. If they read and don't judge, I'll be even happier. Either way, all of you have a wonderful New Year, and to many more years of Pony.
Hey, you do this as a hobby, so please, don't obsess over pleasing us, especially if it's straining your emotions. Write what you enjoy.
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Funny you should mention obsessing, as I do have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
I'm assuming the aggressively accusatory tone of this post is either a form of preemptive self-defense or the natural result of having had to listen to too many morons who think they know everything about mental illness, when they, in fact, know jack squat?
In either case, no sweat. Take whatever time you need and work on whichever project that gets your creative juices flowing. It's all good.
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A little from column A, a little from Column B.
Don't sweet man I'll be here but don't rush Just enjoy writing and what you love to do anxiety is no joke i have it to I've had complete and utter emotional brake downs to the point of being completely Depressed and get the claustrophobic feeling like the whole world is closing in on me that's the only way i can describe the feeling IT IS NOT FUN and its not something to laugh at so take the time you need to do what you want to do this story is here and i'm still following it even if I am eagerly waiting for an update I'll be here and wait longer if need be it's a good story.
I figure it's almost always the author that I stay for. I've seen some pretty interesting conepts that I just couldn't stick with because the writing was bad, but oters where I wondered why I kept reading even though the topic was not something that should keep my attention.
To draw equivalencies with music, a great musician can make almost anything sound good.
Here's to hoping you're able to do stuff over the coming weeks and months.
I just like this story and appreciate that you updated its on your well being. I've got anxiety as well but from my knowledge yours is above mine...
Hang in there. This story is worth the wait so I'm sticking around.
Maestro, buddy, look at me. Take your time. This is a hobby, take as much time as you feel you need to. We can wait.
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Thank you very much. What you said actually means a lot to me.
I have to agree with everyone else Maestro. I just found your work, and have to say, I'm loving it. And honestly? I'd rather not see a new chapter, and instead know you're doing alright instead of the opposite. So, here's hoping you have a good evening/morning/afternoon/day.
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Thank you. The support has honestly been overwhelming.
Yo dude, just read your update. Thanks for that by the way, some authors don't leave their readers any updates, so that is pretty nice. Just wanted to say I don't know what your going through but I know about how severe anxiety can get, and how it can effect peoples' lives. So I hope you are doing okay and that you get better. Or at least have it better controlled and less debilitating. I know some of that crap never goes away, which is unfortunate.
P.S. If I sound cold or distant in this post, it's not because I don't care. I just don't know how to comfort people.
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Thank you. You didn't sound cold at all, and I appreciate the sentiment.