Updates (Origins-Selune Darkeye) ((MUST READ)) · 1:27pm Aug 3rd, 2015
This is a very serious blog and as I'm writing it I'm worried it's going to sound like I'm being a whiny bitch. But I'm going to do this regardless. Proceed at your own risk.
I didn't do as good as I hoped to do this semester. I did pass some lessons, but some I scraped the passing grade. I do have to say that sometimes it was so hot I couldn't study in my own house but I do have to admit I wasn't exactly wanting it enough... I wanted the exams to finally end, so I can free myself from them even temporarily. This was a delusion... BUT Let me start at the beginning. As I entered university life I thought things were going to be calmer. I was let loose without restraint and without exercising restraint upon a life of laziness that I wouldn't even attempt to get out of for the next 3 years.
While it isn't as bad as it sounds it's still really bad. I was a lazy prick and I'm not ashamed to admit my mistakes as I do in many cases. Ever since two years ago I've started an extensive attempt to resume my reading habits with the continued support of my parents. Despite their support, financial or otherwise... I do feel that they do their mistakes and contribute upon a situation that's completely demotivational for me. I sometimes feel like I've lost the spark within me, the passion to go on.
I seem to work well under pressure. Or maybe it seems that I've been used to working that way and can't seem to pull myself together voluntarily. It seems my recent origin story of Selune proves that to me. I had the idea all along in my head, but it seems that the pressure of a deadline of a contest motivated/forced me to write things down.
I don't exactly know how to organize myself. Despite that I'm not giving up, and I'm no longer waiting for a break like I did with my previous writings. I'm going to write through the semester if I have to, even through exams if I can do it without neglecting my studies.
I realized that waiting for the right time is bullshit. There's never gonna be a time when I'm going to be totally relaxed, or ready to write, and the more I postpone it the more this demotivation is gonna stay where it is.
There are however some things that I need to consider. My mother has been pushing me to basically write for money. While I'm not the guy that has terrible self esteem I think my mother partly believes that I am good enough ((idea wise? I don't know...)) to make money out of what I enjoy. While I understand that is something to consider and I am certain that I could try this out here's the thing.
I know jack shit in this sector. No I don't mean in writing. I mean I know jack shit in the Patreon sector and generally in the sector of paid writing. I'd like to think I've read a lot of fics but it seems that I need to read even more. It's going to take dedication, determination, and a good pc ((because let's face it the one I have in university is a scrapbox)).
So what do I want from you guys? I want you god-damn honest feedback on the matter of me creating a patreon account and starting to write for money. I promise honest to god that I will keep writing with the same mind I have been writing already which means writing for the sake of having fun together with my audience ((without becoming the audience's bitch)).
I will definitely need an editor since English isn't my mother language and I'm Greek.
Now what does this mean for this fic? Well first of all let me tell you a few things about Selune Darkeye herself.
She was created 3 years ago approximately for the purposes of a Skype RP. She was inspired by Pythia the Greek Seer ((sometimes they were many but all were named Pythia)) and how she was drugged to give enigmatic predictions of the future. She had a tragic backstory I won't get into, but let's just say that the way Thane Krios lived in Mass Effect seemed like a paradise compared to her life. She had a bad backstory but the main cause was my roleplay partner that insisted that if I didn't have drama to talk about in her story then she wasn't interesting. Like the gullible fool I was back then I agreed. There was powerplay, who wins the most, and lots of ERP that got tiring over the course of the RP. But in the end I changed her. I decided that it was time I moved on, and made her a little bit less "dark powered". She was revised/nerfed twice.
What I ended up now is what I believe "quality". Yes her story has drama, but it's not overbearing, it's not weighing upon her like an angst-y cross. Compared to most black and red OCs no matter the quality she has a happy personality, a playful one and looks towards the future with a smile.
As you may have read in this fic her original coat was white, and she was a strong "bond" with Terra Lionmane. Let me ask you a thing about each.
1)Should I eventually have her undergo some kind of test/transformation and become white once again((with maybe a few black markings?))? Or should I keep her that way? I don't think it's necessary to do this, but if it serves a purpose and develops her character that would be cool to see no?
2)As for this I will quote one of my comments in the fic itself.
to be honest I haven't thought much about their relationship. It sorta felt weird to me to ship them with characters I created myself because I sorta feel my OC are like "children" of mine so that would be... fictional incest? Dunno.
In any case I will not deny the opportunity for that to happen. In all honesty the editor was kinda ironic about me cockblocking this couple ((1/4 through the story he said "When are those two gonna do the do?" And sarcastically raged when the crew cockblocked them and when I originally had mentioned in the end that Selune considered him a friend)). I'm not the one however to deny shipping fuel ((makes stuff interesting)) and if it serves a purpose story-wise or the couple is fitting enough then I will do it.
There is no current story project that focuses on that. No story "demands" per say for them to be a couple. Plus I wouldn't like to be the one to lock them as a couple and deny someone else to possibly pair them with their OCs.
In any case these two OCs will be used in future fanfics and possibly roleplays so nothing is determined yet.
I don't want to cut off the opportunity of some of you to pair either of my OCs with yours. And as said above... shipping fuel ftw!
In all seriousness I didn't want to cut this opportunity. I like having creative freedom.
This fic has a sequel about Terra Lionmane and his phoenix Fenix located here:http://www.fimfiction.net/story/264017/fiery-friendship where Selune also has a raven named Akane.
This fic also shares timelines with:http://www.fimfiction.net/story/232781/a-quest-for-knowledge where Selune and Terra will continue their story.
Tch, it's your character, your decision.
Nevertheless I would perhaps make it a small arc, but at the end the black comes back, maybe as motivation, or maybe because I like character-developement but hate it when they look completely different from now to then. If I would have watched Doctor Who I might think different, but so far I didn't, so... don't listen to me, it is your character. It is a representation of a part of you, and if it is just your imagination it represents.
About 2)...
I don't really ship characters that aren't being shipped in the story, but if I would I usually ship them with another character who might not be shipped. So, aslong as you don't ship one of the both, they are safe from me, don't worry
Gotta go there then
3291360 Like a temporary transformation? I dig that.
Also I didnt understand the shipping part. There is also a blogpost about the story you might need to check out.