No More Excuses. · 9:21pm Aug 1st, 2015
I highly recommend you read this one. It's got some important information and a few lessons I think everyone should hear at least once.
Hi everyone. What's it been? Two-ish months? That's pretty awful, even for me. I'm going to apologize here, as is the norm in my posts. But I'm not going to give you some long-winded, vague, and half-assed excuses in the next part. The time for that is over, that's not me anymore.
I've told some of you I'd do things other than my writing (sorry to the three or so of you, again) and some of you have been wondering what the hell is going on with my writing (Masks and Pony Pony Pony. Oh god, I'm still sitting on chapter 8 of pony pony pony).
The short answer is: I'm kind of a terrible person, and probably shouldn't have made it seem like you could count on me for anything.
But I actually have good news too: I'm not the person I was. I'm not exactly not a terrible person, but I am at least better.
I'd like to tell you my new outlook and personality came from a lot of soul-searching and introspection and realizing I was unhappy with myself.
That's not how it happened.
I've always been unhappy with myself and I still am, that's not to say I have low self-esteem (well, sometimes), but mostly that I knew and know I could always be better.
The new outlook, ironically, came about through my procrastination. While avoiding work on my stories, avoiding people I'd promised something to, and avoiding an entire other forum I recently became a part of I was watching Netflix. And I mean a lot of Netflix.
I didn't stumble on my epiphany quickly either, I finished Futurama, watched the first three seasons of Breaking Bad (just finished 4 actually) started Scrubs, and then I accidentally came across my new favorite show (sorry Daredevil).
Bojack Horseman.
I know right? That stupid looking animated series about the horse-man in Hollywood? Yeah. That's the one. I started watching it expecting an irreverent comedy starring some wonderful people (seriously, like 100% A-List celebrities in the entire thing, Will Arnett, Aaron Paul, Amy Sedaris, Allison Brie, Paul F Tompkins, hell they got Daniel Radcliffe in season 2).
This is not what I got.
The show starts off kind of weak I'll be honest. You've got to power through the first few episodes, but somewhere around episode 6 or so things take a turn. Things get... depressing honestly, kind of bleak. But I can't stop watching, I love these characters, I want them to succeed and the overall tone is generally hopeful.
Anyways this post isn't supposed to be singing the praise of the show. I'll probably write that later.
The point is, season 2 came out about a week ago and was great. And, immediately following a massive downhill emotional drop there was this brilliant uphill climb that resulted in a very very nice conclusion (can't wait for season 3).
But it ends on this note:
(These were embedded but they disappeared, sorry.)
And I almost cried. That was big, I don't cry over much.
But here I was, emotionally drained, both sad, worried, hopeful, and amazed; and here was this, explaining what I currently believe to be the one sure truth about life.
No matter how hard things are now, they get easier. Every day they'll get a little easier. But you have to do it every day, that's the hard part.
And that's what it took. I'm a whole new me. My outlook and personality haven't changed all that much, but I'm not the old me. I've been running every day, I went back to the piano, I'm working harder, and I'm back to writing.
And so I'm here to stay. I'm procrastinating less and working harder than ever before. I hope you stick around, it's gonna be a hell of a ride.
If you've read this far, thank you. This post was important to me, and I'm glad to know someone else read the whole thing.
I should start running...
(Oh, I'm Aurora, by the way. Changed my name and image)
3288381 I had a feeling, you've got this name on Steam. It did throw me off for a few minutes when I first saw it though.