RIP Sophie · 10:04pm Apr 8th, 2014
I cried when I saw the news today. I had a good friend on this her profile was called Clumsy Celestia. Her real name was Sophie and she seemed to have had a hard life. I saw her post this is a few forums she made...
(This is what she posted on the forums)I don't even know why I making this damn forum, I guess I just want badly to talk to someone.
My name is Sophie, I never knew my father . My mum said she didn't know who my father was!
So I have been raised by her alone, but she always goes out and parties all night, sometimes she doesn't come back for about a day, sometimes a week. But I had grown accustomed to looking after myself.
When I started school I got teased a lot because I was always scruffy looking and my mum had got me a second hand unicorn that was way to big for me. I didn't have any friends at all, I spent all my lunch times alone sitting reading a book.
I don't know when it started, I think it was sometime in p5 that I must have had enough, because I started to cut myself. It was then in p6 when I was changing for PE that a girl called Zara noticed I had scars all up my legs and arms so she told the teacher.
My mother was informed and when I got home that day she screamed at me for hours and hours, then she stormed out of the house.
She didn't come back until a week later, she didn't even explain where she had went she just handed me a form and walked off. She had booked me a therapy session once a week.
The therapy worked great for the next year.The therapist was a lovely woman who understood me and made me feel better.
But once I got into secondary school everything went wrong, the girl Zara from primary school told everybody on the first day that I cut myself and I was a freak that shouldn't be spoken to. She started to bully me everyday and get everybody in first year to despise me. As the year progressed her bullying became worse until one day her and a group of friends followed me home and beat me up. I started to cut myself again after that, my therapist suddenly seemed to not understand me anymore, always telling me it would be alright and I should just ignore them!
Instead I went into school and attacked Zara, I cut her with my knife until she was bleeding badly. I don't know why I did I it, I feel so bad and if your reading this Zara I'm so sorry.
The police got involved and in the end the decision was made I would be put into a 'reforming centre' I know that that was just the nice term for an insane asylum.
I stayed there for three years until last year when I was let out. My mother doesn't treat me the same anymore, I'm treated like a young child by everyone.
I found out about my little pony a few months ago, it is the only thing that gets me through everyday.
But lately everything is starting to crumble again, I'm not allowed to go back to school yet. So I spend every day alone. My mother barely talks to me always acting like I'm invisible or something. And last night I cut myself again.
I don't want to be sent back to that horrible 'reforming centre'. I just want to end my life, I could easily hang myself tonight and there is nothing in this world to stop me.
If you sat and read all of this then thank you for spending time to hear my story, I have kept this all hidden for so long and it feels nice to let it all out.(end)
Me and a few other people tried to help her to be happy. But sadly she started to tell us how her life was getting worse again. Then last night she posted a forum saying she as hanging herself.
I wasn't 100% sure I believed her, but this morning I saw it on the news "A 15 years old girl called Sophie Emerson was found hung in her room last night," then it said about how she had been a mental patient and things.
I know most of you don't know her, but please pay your respect to a dear friend of mine.
Here is her Page
How horrifying...
you should't feel sorry.
if you cut her, maybe she can finally see you?
next time you see her, explain to her that she had it coming.
killing yourself only letting her win.
Just forget the people of school, they simply are not worth it, if it is how they like it to be.
You can enjoy the ponies, they will never judge you.
if it return to how it was, just stay at home, read the books, do the tasks and studdy on your own.
tell the teacher you need solitude, and like to take the tests away from the kids?
I am so sorry.
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Thank you all for caring about her
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No problem.
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…I…I'm s-so…so s-s-sorry...
I give both you and her my condolences
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1992774 at least she, and everyone like her can live on in our hearts.
I don't even know what to say. I find it sad that some people can't take it, but......In a way, I don't blame them either. I've had a few times where I considered suicide, but that was mostly out of anger. I've never tried, and never plan on it. but being Bipolar with anxiety and depression can take it's toll.
I understand why she did it, and I fell sorry for her. I'm sorry you had a friend do this
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R.I.P., Sophie Emerson.
I currently have a friend who has depression, and would've killed herself if I hadn't talked her through it
Terribly sorry to hear about this. I've lost quite a few good friends through the years. Some through drunk driving accidents, a couple through stupid crap they were trying to do in order to impress someone, and one friend took his life because his girl walked out on him. It's sad, and it's terrible. I'm truly sorry.
I'm sorry, thank you for letting us know.
I will pay my respect, In a few minutes. But for you I'm really sorry you had to go through such an experience my heart goes out to you both.
Sophie
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1992814 do you know where the news artical is
Oh my.....Just........Just... Im just speechless. I cant even bear the thought of someone hanging themselves, or any suicide deaths for that matter. I am dreadfully sorry for your loss, hopefully the memory of Sophie Emerson will remain with us for decades to come.
Why. I only got around to look at her forum post 4 hours after she announced she was going to die. I would make this longer, but...I don't even know how to explain it...
Ho-ly hell. I need that news article ASAP.
I only spoke with her once but I felt I should pay my respects.
I pray that she has found peace.
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I dunno, I heard about it on the news. Maybe if you look it up it will be on google or something.
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I searched for Sophie Emerson and teen suicide and I didn't find anything. Ah well, it's likely not to show up or just be in the news of where you live. I'll still live regardless.
1995502 I think she lived in England somewhere, I live in Ireland so it should be on the news sometime where you live,
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Hmm. I live in the US.
I'm sorry for your loss
I'm in the US and can't find any trace of a report. Google doesn't have a bead on everything though. If you can find out if there is a weblink to a local report on it, that would be great. Thanks for keeping us informed.
I'm sorry to hear that
I will keep her on my thoughts.