And here we are again... · 7:53pm Apr 4th, 2014
A final essay to be written, three stories to be continued and me being out of the loop on project, and pure fucking silence.
I fucking hate writting
No serously, I fucking hate it. Its taken me a while to realize it, but I know now, I really hate writing. Its not just writing for school.
Recently I came to question why I was doing this. Why am I busting my ass to make sure I have time to write some action stories for a pony fanfiction site. Merely constructing a plot is taking all my mental copassity, Writing cannon characters is the most frustrating thing I've ever had to do, and on top of that I CAN NEVER GET ANY OF MY ORIGINAL IDEAS ON THE FUCKING PAGE!!
You know what else? I'm sick of this site. Well, I cant blame the site as much as people. Dont take this offensively, but I get incredibly fucking angry when a chapter goes up and no one responds to it. No rebutals, inquires, just pure...Fucking...Silence. I hate not hearing anyone anymore. The last chapter I put up? The only comment that wasn't from a friend, who I have pester to read the stories, was some other chessgame writer who thought I stole his fucking idea. Really?! Like we're the only two people on this GODFORSAKEN site who makes fire-people stories? Yes, that must be the fucking case.
Oh, oh, then theres fucking Sanguinem. Just getting to the fucking kitty-born is a fucking nightmare of wading through episodes of MLP to find what actually sounds like the character. You know what? Fuck it. If I ever go through with that story, shit is going to sound stupid. Ponies are going to be talking about drugs, prostitution, and I'm going to make NO fucking illusions about improvising locations. I dont watch the show, I dont care about the show, so if I have to make up locations, I fucking will. And if you have problem with that, I'll say it simply, go fuck yourself.
I'll be honest, I held off on reading the last chapter of Smokeless Flame for a few days and when I finally read it I just couldn't think of anything to say.(Hell, when I found it I thought it was an early April Fool's gag.) Whenever I tried to think of a comment my mind kept going blank, so I just didn't say anything. In fact, I was lucky to even notice the last chapter because I've gotten myself bogged down with so many damn stories that I need to catch up on it was almost off my feed when I checked it.
The only thing I can tell you is to write when you feel like it. If it gets to the point where it feels like work instead of a hobby (which it seems it has) then you need to try and find a way for you to enjoy it again.
I've written one story so far and I've put off doing any work on it for almost a year because I stopped enjoying working on it, so I lost my drive to keep the story going, which is a shame because I really enjoyed doing it and was proud of what I accomplished.(Oh damn it all, I'm rambling again.)
Point is, writing is a labor of love. Take that for what you will.
(Christ Alive, that sounds cheesy.)
1982397 thanks for replying. even if you screamed "eat a bag of diks" i would have still smiled.
1982582 No prob.
Here Hear, or however it goes.
How much truble could I get in if I said. I was alway told, if you don't have something nice to say, say nother at all?
It sort of well writen, but it not a subject that I like. I almost seems like you have sort of hell gods getting mad over who got the biggest....flame?
that just the way it seem to me.
1987435 If I had to shorten the description, I'd say "girl goes to get something and gets caught up in more bullshit then needed." But yours is still pretty close.
Dude, it's alright. My 1 story that is up is in need of such a rewrite; but, I havn't gotten to it because its almost a chore. Write when you feel like it, and if need be, take a break. Clear you head and don't feel so pressured. If people really want your story they can wait.
As for the silence issue... I can't say much for certain. You cant force people to comment, but you can leave the option for constructive criticism and just their opinions in general. Not saying to pander to your readers though. Just to get different views on the same thing.
2047134 Was going through 1 of my "episodes" when I wrote this.
Not really a issue at this point, I know my limits and the limits of people. I just tend to forget more often than I remember.