State of Affairs · 8:59pm Dec 24th, 2013
Okay, first up, I need to address everyone following Twilight's Bird Feeder. Sorry for the long delay, the chapter should be out in the next couple of days.
That said, my sense of motivation is all over the place right now. I know I said I'd try to stick to TBF until it was done, but I just can't keep that promise right now. It's not being cancelled or anything, but I'm just going to be writing whatever I have the motivation to actually do for a while.
I know most of you aren't actually following me personally, so everything below the break is only for anyone who cares about what's been going on, and why there's been such a long delay between chapters.
Don't read past this if you aren't interested in my personal affairs.
So, long story short, my last few weeks have sucked immensely. I was sick for nearly three weeks straight with assorted illnesses which, as one might imagine, was not conducive to writing. Combined with that, this month has really turned out to be a massive financial disaster for my family and I. I thought that I had a way out of this all lined up last month, only for that to fall through while wasting more money, and nearly four weeks worth of time that I could have used to look for another opportunity. Shit keeps breaking left and right causing a constant stream of issues. A flat tire here, kitchen sink's garbage disposal there, cabinet door broke off its hinges and fell on someone's head, battery in our family's business vehicle broke, etc. Never mind the busted filling I've had for months that I can't afford to get fixed, or even afford to update the Rx on my glasses. Bills and bills just piling up, and after a full year's worth of shitty luck and slow business our family business is going to have to shut down; except we can't afford to until I can somehow find a new job, so we have to eat another month's worth of expenses we can't afford to pay just for the possibility that we make enough that I can pay my rent for January.
I am stressed. So very, very stressed. This year has managed to put me back on anti-depression meds that I haven't needed for eight years. And thank whatever the fuck you believe in for that, or I'd very likely be considering killing myself right now. No, I'm not doing particularly well. Haven't been for a long time and it's all just slowly eating away at me. I can count the number of people I have any regular conversations with on four fingers, and two of 'em are my parents. Can't afford to see anyone I know, they all live in another city. Can't afford to hang out with anyone because I can barely put enough gas in my car to get to work. Thank nerds for the internet, or I'd be utterly insane from lack of proper social contact for the last three years. My life is a slow motion train wreck that started thirteen years ago, and I currently have not one single prospect in my future.
Cheers, to the "Happiest Time of the Year!"
Currently Writing: Twilight's Bird Feeder ch5
Next project: Whatever the fuck I feel like writing.
Wow. And I thought I had it bad currently. That sounds just awful.
Here's to hoping the New Year brings with it good luck and promising opportunities.
Best wishes and Happy Holidays!
I've been there. Remember that we're all here for you, and good luck.
Aww man... I feel for ya. That sounds like a very long string of bad luck. Umm... I know it probably won't help much, but if you want to vent at all or just talk my pm box is always open.
Well, cheers mate, and don't worry... things WILL get better soon.
I need to invent a way to hug people over the internet...
Ouch. Hope things look up for you soon.
Awww.... no...