"If I desire to possess everything, does that not make everything mine by right?"
Hello. I still, inexplicably, get attention here. Not sure why. I don't go on Fimfiction, or write ponyfics anymore--I do however, write original fiction, yay!--or really do anything pony related. Don't consider myself a brony, though ponies are always cute, and stuff.
I won't go into the details. But this account is essentially going to become abandoned after today.
My story, Path of Fomalhaut will be getting transferred over to a new account, so for you guys, don't be confused if the author suddenly has a different name and two hundred less followers.
They just changed their UI again and it looks bloody horrible. 
Ugh, why does Youtube keep doing this?
Not being written at 6AM, but I am tired, hungry, upset, and unmedicated. So it's close enough to my usual conditions for analysis blogs.
Tell Trixie~
I was originally going to say 'childhood to adulthood' but of course, a fair number of you guys are still kids or teenagers. 
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Yes, for better overall, but it's a thin line.
Since I discovered ponies, my life has improved.
Since a few years back, my life has improved.
And I've made more friends in the past couple years.
I think this life is pretty good. So far.
Yes, and for the worst
.
I'd be dead if I didn't change my ways so yup yup.
I've changed a lot. For better in some areas, worse in others.
No, I don't feel like saying more than that, unfortunately.
Dear god yes. I've gone through pain, loss, humiliation, happiness, delusion, depression, anxiety attacks and disease, and it's weathered me to a more experienced individual. But being only 17, I know I haven't even scratched the surface of life, and I'm not sure if that excites me or scares me.
Meh, I've gotten better in some areas, worse in others. My life is a constant win-lose scenario.
For the better. There's still so much more in life, though. I'll have to see if that remains true.
Writing inflates my ego
Depends on what specific part you look at me.
Overall? Definitely have changed for better.
Really, over the years I've become more sarcastic.
So, yes, I feel like I've become better over the years.
yes. how?
I am definitely more happy with myself then I was as a kid or teenager. I have become more confident, outgoing, and more thick skinned. I use to have a bit of a temper problem but things like that usually get better with maturity.
I am no better, but no worse, when everything is boiled down and stripped away. Though I admit after discovering this whole pony thing, I am happier sometimes.
I think it would be more rare for a person not to have changed over the years. But yes, I know I have changed some. I used to be sheltered and naive throughout most of high school, I was a coward about many things. However I believe this was due to lack of life experiences since it took no great epiphany to gain what skills and knowledge I have accumulated.
Though I am quite a boring person most of the time, so what I've done within my life and the things I've learned that have changed me over the years probably do not amount to much compared to other people.
I have most definitely changed.
Whether for better or for worse, I am unsure.
Only a couple of years ago, I was really optimistic about everything and kind of had my own little reality where everything was fine and dandy.
In recent years, I have taken a much more realistic view on the world. I see the shit that comes out of it, I see the poor conditions some people live in, I notice the retards my generation has turned out.
I like to think I have changed for the better as I am now a lot more understanding of the world and how it, and society, works and operates.
I've changed quite a bit in the past few months, in the past year, in the past two years. I just seem to be constantly changing. I look back between now and almost any time and think to myself "I'm different." But it's almost definitely for the better that I've changed. Or at least it was. I used to have some addictions (not substance ones, I've never had drugs) and I got over them but I almost seem to be slipping again. So I changed for the better, seem to be slipping again, but I'm still always changing and for the better, and I'm still a total badass
I think I've changed a lot. A bit for better, a bit for worse. For better, I've made a few more friends and have gotten better about the important things (family, schoolwork, or some sh
t). I'm still the same Pinkie-Shy, partying when I want to but usually pretty calm and reserved. Honesty's better, generosity's still a work-in-progress, still Derpin', still 20% stranger (to be completely honest, I'm only saying things about myself that the emoticons are reminding me of).
But for worse, I'm still really dramatic about things that don't need it, and I still tend to get sick out of nowhere, and won't get better for at least a month, which drastically impales my schoolwork every year, because I'll get it at least 1.5 times a year, and usually only during school. I'm loud when it's unnecessary, and quiet when I should speak up. I'm completely obsessed with "dark" or "suicidal" topics, because I've been on both sides of the situation. I often tend to drift toward dark things in the hopes of scaring myself to the point of heart-stopping (couldn't sleep last night because of Creepypasta articles I'd read involving tiny human eyes photoshopped on cartoon characters that act like Asian water monitors [chew its head till it stops squirming, and giant lizards, if you don't understand {Ed, Edd, N Eddy, episode 34 theory}], moaning in the night by giant unknown black shapes, and Children Of The Night), yet often scared my "innocent" side to the point where I couldn't sleep at night. I'll believe in maybe a few conspiracies, but mostly disprove them, but no matter how many I approve or disapprove, I'll still be afraid of the possibility it's true, and the IMpossibility of it happening to me.
I'm also very afraid of human eyes on cartoon characters, so I fear the Annoying Orange quite a bit.
So, in short:
Thank you.
Once a little boy, now a young man; the representative mosaic of my life thus far may yet resemble a clouded reflection of things past, present, and those that are yet to be.
In the beginning, my curiosity festered--like you would expect of any tyke or lad, but the world had too much to give, yet so little to say.
For years, I wandered and pondered amidst the flow of time.
So long it was that I simply let free, and looked at the world for what it was—a place of being; a place of doing; but a place of wonder, more than anything else.
As my own theory of mind set in, thoughts of empathy and sadness became routine, but I was still preoccupied with the joys of being young, so they mattered little in that regard.
But as I grew further, the air lost its sense of wonder; its air of secrecy, and I began my journey anew.
It was at this snippet in time that the world finally revealed itself to mine eyes as not such a tome of secrets --- moreover, a place to seek answers.
Either for questions known or not, they all have a story to tell.
That is, as long as you're willing to look; to be inspired in the face of adversity; to go beyond.
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To answer your question—"for better or worse"—I can only say that which is true to my sense of honesty.
My life has interchanged in ways that I never could've imagined.
A small portion of my past doings certainly may have bent to primal temptations, but--all in all--I'd like to think that my life's journey in the name of truth has shifted for the better.
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For better... because if i had not changed... THEN I'D BE RULING THE WORLD WITH AN IRON FIST AND BE A FEMALE THIS WORLD GANNON WITHOUT THE TRIFORCE OF POWER
Seriously.
Little Me + Weapons of Mass Destruction/ Triforce/ Majora's Mask/ Pinkie's Party Cannon= Well, lets just say... There is no reality anymore.
I've been weird ever since I was a child.
I tell myeslf I'm a good person, but I think it's a lie.
At first glance, I like childhood me the most, but even then I had already lost my innocence.
As an early teenager I was exposed to even more things I wish I never saw/heard.
Nowadays? I hate myself for changing in to the thing I hate most, a hypocrite.
I think over the past few years, I've gotten to understand myself and others better. I don't think I've changed for the better, necessarily, but I'm a happier, more social person.
I think I have changed a ton. Up until I was about 15, I would do nothing but play games, read, spend money, and sleep. I didn't care about learning, I didn't care about preparing much for the future, and I didn't even have a solid career in mind. That all changed when
the fire nation attackedI discovered MLP.Since finding this community, I have become obsessed with gaining all the knowledge I can, working hard towards my future, and I rarely play games or even read fiction anymore.
Well, I've gone from good to horrible to awesome.
I was an average kid, I guess. Horrible with sports (something to be afraid of when you live in Brazil; land of the stupid. And soccer, of course!) but had some friends (even though they were mostly backstabbing shits, the lot of 'em). When teen years started kicking in, I, instead of growing a lot, became the fat boy everyone makes fun of. This probably lead to my social distancing from other people (I was literally alone) and my hatred by them was so big that I took upon... stupid ideas. Long story short, I became a neonazi. Yeah, I'm very, VERY ashamed to admit it, but I was. Hated everything non-white and non-heterosexual.
I was an asshole. Feel free to say it, I will not hold it against you. But one thing I didn't do is hit anyone. I didn't actively searched fights or anything like it. I was mostly a loner asshole with too much pent up anger.
Things got bad at school too: I would've failed the year if my parents hadn't moved me to a different school. That is where I met my first girlfriend, a girl with borderline personality disorder. She really helped me come to terms with myself and others around me and everything in my life began to turn for the better. Relationships with my family improved. I got motivated enough to study. I quit this neonazi shit and began to think for myself, seeing that there is nothing wrong with being born with a different color or with an appreciation for the same gender. I even got to experiment bisexuality too, and it turns out that I liked it. I'm still more into girls than guys, but I'm open for new interesting things.
Then I got on med school and things were fine for a while. Family problems regarding my two lazy-ass brothers held me back, though, and I ended up failing a semester (pediatrics, to be precise). It even ended my relationship with my now-ex, but we are still very close friends! It's not like studies allow me to pursue a relationship anyway... But now I'm finally picking up the pieces and, slowly, trying to abandon more and more aspects of my asshole-ish self (mainly the urge that almost overcomes me when someone says something stupid, and I feel the physical need to talk them down). I'll graduate in exactly two years from now. I'll try to move out from Brazil, placing my bets on the beautiful land of Canada. Once there (or even before I go), I will specialize in psychiatry and I hope to help as much people as I can.
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Just curious, which province of Canada are you interested in moving to?
1429549 Well, since I don't know a lick of French, Quebec is out of the question. I have e-friends on Ontario and Alberta, so they could be options too. When I went to a "international scholarship" congress, I spoke to a very nice lady from Minetoba. She explained to me that the entire province has about 700 thousand people; less than the city I currently live in (São Paulo). This and also the fact that Minetoba seems to be a four-season province, which tickled my fancy, as down here I only have the summer and winter to go by.
I also spoke to another nice lady that was a Brazilian who, lucky me, was a graduated medical student who studied in Canada (also in Minetoba). She gave me several wonderful tips and told me that, while the process of acquiring a studying permit for over a year (the minimum needed for getting a working permit) takes an awfully long time (5 years, if I remember correctly), with my qualifications I'd find myself employed in 20 minutes or less.
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I'm pretty sure everywhere in Canada is four seasons and relatively unpopulated--Except Ontario.
I've been to Alberta, it's a very nice place. My only recommendation is that if you move there, you invest in some windshield wipers in the summer. Bugs... just... all over the bloody thing.
In any case! I'm over in lovely British Columbia. I'll take the H1 to visit ya sometime if you like, once you come over.
1431886 I might just take on that offer.
If I manage not to die down here first, that is.
1432588 Aye, I hear it can be a bit dangerous down there.
Stay safe!