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chris the cynic


Someone who doesn't know how to describe herself, is always struggling with debilitating depression, and won't stop hanging onto the hope that happy endings are possible.

Mar
22nd
2020

If you can, please help (dog got hit by car; emergency care is expensive) · 10:12pm March 22nd

(For the story of what happened, go to the previous post.)

Provided nothing unexpected happens, Chloe will recover, which is great, and the final total for the cost of her care will be $7,454.11 to $9,702.30, which is less great.

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Mar
21st
2020

The dog I live with was hit by a car · 12:29am March 21st

I took her in because her owner was going to put her down if I didn't. That's seriously how it happened. I was given a choice: either I let her stay at my house, or the dog is being put down. No shelter (which would probably lead to her being put down but might not) no, "I'm going to call other people if you say, 'No,'", just that I take the dog, or the dog dies.

I live a fucked up life. Let it be known.

So it was that Chloe came to live here.

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Feb
28th
2020

Still Alive (and an update on where various stories stand) · 6:53pm February 28th

Figured that I'd check in. Things are bad. Things have always been bad. Things had already been notably bad for six months before I became a member here. They've only gotten worse since then.

At this point the best I can say about where I'm at is, "I'm not suicidal yet," which isn't nearly as positive as it sounds because in days gone by I would have never imagined it might be necessary to tack a "yet" onto the end of the sentence, and now I feel it is.

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Dec
3rd
2019

My sister got run over; my mental health still sucks. · 2:48am Dec 3rd, 2019

Last Tuesday (so a week ago tomorrow) my sister got run over by her own truck. The short version is that her three year old put the truck in neutral. I don't have all the details of the long version.

[About to describe injuries. Not in any gory detail, or anything, but if you're squeamish you might want to steer clear anyway.]

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Oct
9th
2019

Various bits of Fractured Friendship are available via my Patreon · 11:37am Oct 9th, 2019

The Silver Spoon part of Fractured Friendship is a good solid half of why I'm even writing the story. Silver Spoon doesn't appear in Fractured Friendship yet. She won't until, at least, Chapter Four. If that. Even then it'll probably take a while for the role she's playing to become apparent.

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Sep
22nd
2019

More depression stuff; what will, hopefully, be the near future for "No longer Necessary" · 3:02am Sep 22nd, 2019

Story time. True story instead of amazing technicolor dream teenager story, unfortunately.

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Sep
18th
2019

I have attempted to place canonical Equestrian history in chronological order. · 6:33pm Sep 18th, 2019

This is not the order I think things should go in. It's the order, to the best of my ability to determine it, that things must go in (regardless of whether or not I like it.) It functions on simple pairwise determinations of the form "Ok, X needs to have happened before Y."

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Sep
13th
2019

The state of CHS and such in No longer Necessary · 7:33pm Sep 13th, 2019

The technical term for the viewpoint used in No longer Necessary is "third person limited" of the "deep" sort. How you combine those words depends on precisely whose version of the terminology you're using. I first encountered the term as "third person limited, deep penetration" but I have feeling that would get some puerile giggles, others call it "deep third person limited", or even "third person deep" without the

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Sep
4th
2019

Things are going better . . . and worse. But mostly better. · 11:04pm Sep 4th, 2019

Given that the entire time I've been here I've been in a massive depressive slump that's been killing my creativity, anyone can be forgiven for not picking up on this, but here's the thing: I tend to write novel length things. Well, I tend to try to write novel length things, and then something sets off my depression, the bottom drops out from under me, and all is weeping and gnashing of teeth.

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Apr
12th
2019

Where I think the other Sunset Shimmer is, the short version. · 7:12pm Apr 12th, 2019

Anyone who tried to read through my previous post on the topic likely noticed what an absolute mess it was. At the time I wasn't in the sort of mental state that allowed for either the control to not go all over the place, or the editing needed to turn an "all over the place" result into something that was readable.

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