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chris the cynic


Someone who doesn't know how to describe herself, is always struggling with debilitating depression, and won't stop hanging onto the hope that happy endings are possible.

Aug
4th
2022

I still exist. · 3:59am August 4th

Today, which is August 3rd for the benefit of those of you in markedly different time zones from me, is my birthday, so it seems like a good day to point out that I'm not dead yet.

To answer the perennial question: none of my stories have been cancelled and I do still intend to finish all of them. Intentions don't count for all that much, though, especially when my depression has been as bad as it's been.

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Sep
10th
2020

Living is like drowning · 3:15pm Sep 10th, 2020

Living is like drowning. At least I think it is. I've never actually been drowning. Unless I have, but I've lost it in the haze that is my memories.

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Jul
6th
2020

A list of proposed fics with one word titles · 6:57pm Jul 6th, 2020

The list started after someone quoted the sentence:

Single-word titles have to work exceptionally hard to stand out.

which happens to be from a post by Dave Bryant. What follows is inspired by the one sentence in isolation, not the whole post from whence it came.


I shall now propose fics with single word titles. Why? No good reason.

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Mar
22nd
2020

If you can, please help (dog got hit by car; emergency care is expensive) · 10:12pm Mar 22nd, 2020

(For the story of what happened, go to the previous post.)

Provided nothing unexpected happens, Chloe will recover, which is great, and the final total for the cost of her care will be $7,454.11 to $9,702.30, which is less great.

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Mar
21st
2020

The dog I live with was hit by a car · 12:29am Mar 21st, 2020

I took her in because her owner was going to put her down if I didn't. That's seriously how it happened. I was given a choice: either I let her stay at my house, or the dog is being put down. No shelter (which would probably lead to her being put down but might not) no, "I'm going to call other people if you say, 'No,'", just that I take the dog, or the dog dies.

I live a fucked up life. Let it be known.

So it was that Chloe came to live here.

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Feb
28th
2020

Still Alive (and an update on where various stories stand) · 6:53pm Feb 28th, 2020

Figured that I'd check in. Things are bad. Things have always been bad. Things had already been notably bad for six months before I became a member here. They've only gotten worse since then.

At this point the best I can say about where I'm at is, "I'm not suicidal yet," which isn't nearly as positive as it sounds because in days gone by I would have never imagined it might be necessary to tack a "yet" onto the end of the sentence, and now I feel it is.

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Dec
3rd
2019

My sister got run over; my mental health still sucks. · 2:48am Dec 3rd, 2019

Last Tuesday (so a week ago tomorrow) my sister got run over by her own truck. The short version is that her three year old put the truck in neutral. I don't have all the details of the long version.

[About to describe injuries. Not in any gory detail, or anything, but if you're squeamish you might want to steer clear anyway.]

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Oct
9th
2019

Various bits of Fractured Friendship are available via my Patreon · 11:37am Oct 9th, 2019

The Silver Spoon part of Fractured Friendship is a good solid half of why I'm even writing the story. Silver Spoon doesn't appear in Fractured Friendship yet. She won't until, at least, Chapter Four. If that. Even then it'll probably take a while for the role she's playing to become apparent.

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Sep
22nd
2019

More depression stuff; what will, hopefully, be the near future for "No longer Necessary" · 3:02am Sep 22nd, 2019

Story time. True story instead of amazing technicolor dream teenager story, unfortunately.

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Sep
18th
2019

I have attempted to place canonical Equestrian history in chronological order. · 6:33pm Sep 18th, 2019

This is not the order I think things should go in. It's the order, to the best of my ability to determine it, that things must go in (regardless of whether or not I like it.) It functions on simple pairwise determinations of the form "Ok, X needs to have happened before Y."

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