The next few days were spent in hurried preparation as my father abruptly announced that he planned to visit Phoenix, Arizona to attend the wedding of one of his nephews, so, naturally, it fell to me to ensure his luggage was prepared, book tickets, have his clothes drycleaned, and whatnot. This kept me occupied for a while.

He confused me so thoroughly with all his screaming and maniacal behavior that I quite forgot to take as many pictures as I should have.

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The next day I went out after work and bought some fresh vegetables to make potato curry with.

The first thing one needs is a large pot. I cook for the entire household, so multiple servings are necessary.

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1:29 AM
Day 6 of the First Month of the Imperial Calendar.
Rebel Alliance Intelligence Officer
Нью-Йорк (NEW YORK) Oblast (Empire State)
The American Empire

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I also spent half a week or more recovering from my whole ordeal.

While my body was detoxifying, I spent a great deal of time shaking and feeling nauseous and suffering from dizziness in my brain that left me continually afraid I was going to have a seizure.

I also slept for hours. It was nice to be able to sleep without being all jittery and focused and rushing on meth.

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As peomised, I am making a blog everyday, partially as a writing exercise, partially as a psychological exercise in plunging my hands into the boiling morass of feelings that comprises my mind (that I had previously done my hardest to ignore), and partially as a token of good faith and loyalty to the people who assisted me in a very dark hour. I feel like I owe it to you all to at least stop running away from how I truly feel, and engage in the exceedingly painful process of actually

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I literally just woke up. You cannot imagine how frightened and difficult it is for me to write this. I am utterly ashamed and embarrassed of what happened to me, which, I notice, added greatly to my internalized self-hatred.

Writing this is difficult.

There are two problems:

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I capped off a totally awesome month-long mental breakdown by almost fucking killing myself on New Year's eve and narrowly failing due to my own ineptitude.

I am such a tremendously dumb bitch I couldn't even manage any permanent damage aside from difficulty breathing and a nosebleed.

I don't really want to talk about it. I've been spending three days at a stretch not sleeping from time to time. I don't understand anything more.

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I'm back from my hiatus. I apologize to everyone who might have been worried in my absence. Please rest assured that everything I am supposed to be working on is being taken of.

Here's a funny picture for the people who can't stand me:

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Here is the mission.

My old Work Computer, on which I do most of my developing, website managerial tasks, and other things related to my employment, was showing its age.

So I pulled some of its guts out. I left the HDD, disk drives, FDD, and other things inside, because those are irrelevant.

Here are its guts. Note the old NVidia GPU and the old Athlon 64.

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You can really perceive my personal signature OC's roguish, overconfident, moll-like nature in this headshot.

Hmmmmmm...I'm making her sound like a zebrafied Rainbow Dash, that's awkward...