• Published 11th Jan 2013
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A Love That I Can't Win - super3rainbow1



Fluttershy and her best friends are going on a vacation in order to clear up any stress from the past weeks. During the long train ride, Fluttershy is finding it harder and harder to hide her feelings for Rainbow Dash.

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Arrival

Fluttershy woke up feeling a slight dampness in her pillow. She had woken up in the middle of the night after a bad dream and started crying. She couldn’t fall back asleep for a long time. Finally, she had become exhausted and fell back asleep.

She rubbed her eyes and turned the pillow over. Her eyes were a little red from crying. Fluttershy rolled over so she could get out of her bunk. Rainbow Dash was looking right at her. She almost got surprised from that. Her forelegs twitched a little.

"Hey, Fluttershy," Rainbow Dash said with a curious look on her face.

"Oh.. hi, Rainbow Dash," Fluttershy replied. She tried to avoid eye contact.

A minute of silence passed both ponies. Rainbow Dash scratched the back of her head and let out a nervous giggle. Fluttershy started to feel uncomfortable. It looked like her friend had something on her mind.

"Did you uhh.. sleep well?" Rainbow Dash asked.

Fluttershy darted her eyes around. "Um.. yes. I slept good," she lied.

"Well, I think I must have been really out that night. I haven't gotten such a good night sleep in a while," Rainbow Dash said and chuckled.

She continued to rub the back of her head. "But something just didn't seem right," she said.

"What?" Fluttershy nervously asked. She looked away for a minute.

"I was dreaming about flying through all these obstacles and stuff and then I heard something and got really confused," Rainbow Dash said.

'Oh no! She heard! This isn't good,' Fluttershy thought. "What do you mean?" she asked.

"Well, it sounded like it came from nowhere. I don't know but it really sounded like somepony crying, I guess," Rainbow Dash explained.

"Oh," Fluttershy said and nervously fidgeted.

"I just wanted to make sure that uh.. you weren't crying were you?" she said, turning it into a question.

"Of course not!" Fluttershy said. She gave Rainbow Dash a fake smile.

Rainbow Dash gave her a careful look. "But your eyes are red, Fluttershy," she remarked.

"They are?" Fluttershy asked.

Rainbow Dash climbed out of her bunk and into Fluttershy's. She sat next to her but Fluttershy turned away in shame as she had blushed a little. A hoof rested on her right shoulder.

"I'm not buying this, Fluttershy. Just tell me! I thought we were good friends," Rainbow Dash said.

'I can't say this! How pathetic would it sound if I told her?' Fluttershy thought. She still had been avoiding to look at Rainbow Dash. She needed to make up some believable reason why she had been crying. 'My animal friends! Fluttershy suddenly thought.

She turned her head so she can now see Rainbow Dash in the corner of her eye. "I just.. really started to miss all my animal friends and got worried," she lied.

'Oh please oh please believe it!' She thought in her head.

"Really? That's it?" Rainbow Dash asked with a smile forming her face. "There's no need to be worried. I bet that they are doing just fine!" she said.

'Thank Celestia she believes me!'

Fluttershy faced Rainbow Dash and gave her a small hug. Rainbow Dash blushed a little in embarrassment but returned the sudden hug that was being given. Fluttershy secretly took in the comfort of hugging her crush. After a minute or two Rainbow Dash let go and inched away a bit.

"Okay, hug time is over. You're starting to make me feel too sappy right now," she said.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to," Fluttershy apologized. She had wanted the hug to last longer.

"Why are you always apologizing over nothing?" Rainbow Dash said, covering her face with a hoof.

"I don't want to be rude.. especially to you," Fluttershy replied.

"Come on, that wouldn't be rude. It gets annoying when you are apologizing for stuff like this," Rainbow Dash said and started climbing down.

She looked up at Fluttershy. "I'm getting something to eat, Fluttershy. You really need to stop worrying and just relax. It's not like you actually have something to worry about," Rainbow Dash said and left Fluttershy alone to her thoughts.

Fluttershy sighed and slowly turned to face the window. Hills of pine trees and grasslands went past. The passing scenery captivated her attention. The grasslands looked dark and lush. She felt sad and very lonely. Rainbow Dash had almost started to catch on but she lied. She felt pathetic for hiding her feelings.

"If only you would understand how I felt," Fluttershy muttered to herself.

She rested her head on her hooves and continued to stare out the window. Fluttershy wished she could relax but she really had something to worry about. It used to be easy keeping this little crush secrete. Now, it was really starting to get to her. Ever since she had been living alone in her cottage, it started to build up little by little.

Something needed to be done about this. Fluttershy never had the courage to ask a mare out. It would take a lot of confidence and guts to do something like that. To make it worse, if she gets rejected because the mare doesn't like her or just isn't into mares, then it would just be too embarrassing and humiliating for her to handle.

'Would Rainbow Dash care if I asked her out?' She thought. 'Would she be mad at me if she wasn't interested in mares too?' Fluttershy asked herself.

As more endless grasslands passed her sight, she thought about the personality of her best friend. Rainbow Dash was a loyal friend who always tried to keep a good image. She didn't do any really girly things like putting on makeup. She might have been brash sometimes and a little conceded. However, she always had a knack for apologizing later and showing that sappy side that made her a real friend.

"Would it be that hard to ask her? Would there be anything to regret?" she quietly asked herself.

It was only a matter of saying a few words and then waiting for the response. Whether or not she gets to go out with Rainbow Dash didn't seem to matter anymore. Fluttershy just wanted to feel accepted for liking mares at this point.

'But Rainbow Dash is the perfect pony for me,' she argued with herself.

The door swung open and somepony walked inside. Fluttershy was caught off guard and let out a small squeal of terror. She turned around and hoped that it wasn't Rainbow Dash. Rarity stepped in, levitating a paper plate of food.

"Fluttershy?" she said.

"Yes, Rarity?" Fluttershy replied.

"You never came here to get a little something to eat. So, I brought your favorite snack!" Rarity said and lowered the plate of food.

Fluttershy's eyes fixed on the plate. On it was stacks of crackers laced with diced pieces of cheese. Crackers and cheese was one of her favorite little snacks from her fillyhood years. There wasn't much that could beat this simple combination of cracker and cheese. Fluttershy climbed down and licked her lips eagerly.

Rarity laughed. "I knew you were hungry, dear!" she said. She placed the plate on the bunk below with her magic and turned to leave.

"Wait!" Fluttershy called, making the unicorn look back.

"Was there something else that you needed?" Rarity asked.

"Um.. could you stay here and keep me company?" Fluttershy asked.

Rarity smiled at her. "Of course I can, Fluttershy!" she said.

Fluttershy sat on the lower bunk with her plate full of cheese and crackers. Rarity laid on the bunk across from her. She had a curious look on her.

"I should have mentioned this but Rainbow Dash said that you weren't acting yourself," Rarity said.

"She did?" Fluttershy asked. Her plate was already half empty.

"Yes. There wasn't anything wrong was there?"

Fluttershy stopped eating for a minute. 'She knows too?' she thought. 'Would she be able to help me ask Rainbow Dash out?'

"Well, there was this one thing," Fluttershy said.

Rarity sat up. "Yes? What was it?" she asked.

"I need your advice on something personal, Rarity," Fluttershy said and tensed up a little. "How do I um.. ask somepony out?" she quietly asked.

"I can tell you all about that, Fluttershy! Do you know this pony?" Rarity said with a wide smile.

"I know her pretty well but I just can't," Fluttershy said and stopped. "I mean him," she quickly added and blushed a bright pink. "I just can't tell her how I feel.. oh no!" she said with a look of distress on her face.

"Fluttershy! There's no need to feel ashamed for that!" Rarity said and got off the bunk.

"There isn't?" Fluttershy asked.

"Of course not!" Rarity said, standing close to her.

"I almost thought you would be upset by that," she explained.

"Nonsense! I can see now why you like her," Rarity said and gave Fluttershy a wink.

Fluttershy shifted uncomfortably. "You k-know who it is?" she nervously asked.

"Well, it's a little obvious now why you were asking about Rainbow Dash yesterday," Rarity said.

"Oh.. I guess it was. How do I ask her?" Fluttershy inquired.

Rarity sat down beside her on the same bunk. Fluttershy let out a little sigh of relief. Her friends would definitely accept her for who she is. All that was left was telling Rainbow Dash.

"I can't promise you that she will say, 'yes' or that she even has a romantic interest in mares. I can promise that she will accept you for who you are. Either way, it's best that you tell her how you feel. It's never good to keep emotions and feelings bottled up for long," Rarity said.

"But what do I even tell her?" she asked.

Rarity paused for a minute. "Just tell Rainbow Dash about your feelings for her and why you like her," Rarity said. "She'll understand if you tell her why!"

Fluttershy looked at her in the eye and then nodded. Just then, the door burst open and out came none other than Rainbow Dash.

"Hey! Twilight said we are almost at the stop!" she announced.

Rainbow Dash walked over and started to take her bags that she put away. Rarity gave Fluttershy a little wink and walked back to other car. Fluttershy blushed and tried to build her confidence up. This was not going to be easy.

"Hey, Rainbow? There was something that I wanted to tell you," Fluttershy nervously said. She rubbed the back of her head with a hoof.

Rainbow Dash stopped what she was doing. "Oh yeah, I was going to tell you something first," she said.

"What is it?" Fluttershy curiously asked.

"I heard that we aren't all sleeping in one room. There was only single double bed rooms available. So, I thought that I could ask you to share a room with the coolest pony ever," Rainbow Dash explained.

'Do I have to tell her now? Could this wait a little while?' Fluttershy asked herself.

Rainbow Dash was eagerly waiting for her response. "Well, is that a yes?" she asked, tapping her hoof.

"Um.. yes, Rainbow," Fluttershy said after a minute.

"Great! I can't wait to finally stretch out these sore wings!"

Fluttershy pulled out her bags and watched out the window. The ground started to become more flat and dry, with little or none vegetation. She saw something that caught her attention for a minute. There was this little puddle of mud that was bubbling. It passed by so quick that Fluttershy became very curious.

'What is this place that we are even going to? I should have asked.." Fluttershy thought.

She looked past the dry land. All the way in the distance were tall mountains. This seemed like such an odd place already. Finally, the train started to slow down. Fluttershy turned around looked through the window on the other side of the car. The train was inching through a small town. The ground was grassy in this area now.

It was a pretty small town but its streets were paved with a light gray stone. The buildings were made out of long logs. This wasn't anything like Fluttershy has seen before in real life. She only saw a few pictures in a text book from school of buildings that looked like this. A large three story log building stuck out and Fluttershy assumed it was the hotel that they were going to stay at. It did have a lot of windows and looked very rustic. The other buildings looked rustic too.

The train came to a stop. Rainbow Dash rushed to pick up her stuff and bolted to the other car. Fluttershy carefully picked up her bags and walked into the car. Her other friends were excitedly getting off the bus. They each had a look of wonder in their eyes. Rarity was still in the car though. She must have been waiting.

"I get this feeling that you didn't tell her.. did you?" Rarity asked.

Fluttershy sighed and lowered her head. "No, not yet. I'll tell her after we get settled in our rooms," she said.

"You really need to get this over with. Things will be better if you get this off your chest," Rarity said.

They got off the train while Applejack and Rainbow Dash came back to drag their supplies out. Fluttershy, Rarity, and Pinkie Pie followed Twilight and carried their stuff towards the hotel. They got to the double doors of the entrance. It was made out of thick wood that was varnished. They pushed it open and walked through into the lobby.

A hotel receptionist was sitting behind a desk. Around the lobby was beautiful wooden furniture. Everything seemed to be rustic in this place. There was a glass table that was framed with wood. Twilight approached the mare sitting at the desk.

"Hi! My name is Twilight Sparkle and I have three rooms reserved for several days," Twilight said to the receptionist and smiled warmly.

She smiled back. "Yes, you were the only ones so far this Spring to make a reservation. Ponies come here mostly during the Summer and Fall. Your rooms are B14, B13, and B16," She said and pulled out the keys that were hanging on the wall.

"Those are on the second floor, right?" Twilight asked.

"Yes, they are. Go through this hallway and turn right for the stairs," she explained.

"Thank you!" Twilight said and turned to her friends.

Fluttershy was looking around the whole room with the others. Their eyes were filled with curiosity and wonder of this great place. Rainbow Dash and Applejack came in with their bags, a large cooler, and a green duffle bag.

"Hey, do we have our rooms already?" Rainbow Dash asked.

"Yes!" Twilight said and picked up the keys with her mouth.

They followed the receptionist's simple directions. In the hall there was a doorway on the right side that lead to the stairs. Rainbow Dash and Applejack slowly pulled everything up. Fluttershy couldn't help but notice how nice the carpet looked in the hallway. It was a light red and looked nice with the wooden walls. They followed Twilight until they got to the rooms.

"Okay, we have three rooms with a double bed in each one. Who is going to share a room with whom?" Twilight asked them.

"I already asked Fluttershy earlier so we're going to take room fourteen," Rainbow said and nodded.

Applejack looked over at Rarity. "Ah suppose that we could share a room, Rarity," she said.

"As long as you don't snore.. or hog the bed," Rarity replied.

"Ah won't, alright?"

Twilight glanced at Pinkie Pie. "Looks like I'm with you, Pinkie," she said.

"Yes! This place looks amazing, Twilight!" Pinkie Pie said and smiled widely.

Twilight distributed the keys out and unlocked her own room. She dragged the cooler inside with Pinkie Pie. Everypony else went into their rooms. Fluttershy was going to have the perfect moment to tell Rainbow Dash.

She walked into her room to see that Rainbow Dash was already plopped on the bed. The room was beautifully decorated. A dresser stood out against the wall across from the framed bed. On the wall above the dresser, was a pretty picture of the grassy fields. The bathroom was very simple. There was a small shower inside along with a toilet. Outside of it, against the wall, was the sink with a mirror above. The wooden floor was varnished a dark brown coat.

Fluttershy couldn't believe how nice it looked. She set her stuff down and unpacked. She left the top drawers of the dresser empty for Rainbow Dash. She pulled her pillow and blanket out from her duffle bag. Fluttershy preferred to have her own blanket and pillow for sleeping. It was starting to get dark outside. She sat on the bed and nudged Rainbow Dash with a hoof.

'Now is your chance!' Fluttershy thought to herself. She tried to put on a confident face.

"Huh? What is it, Flutters?" She asked in a nonchalant voice.

The way that she called her 'Flutters' made Fluttershy's heart skip a beat. She had to tell Rainbow Dash now. She needed to get this off her chest.

"You know how we have been friends for all this time?" Fluttershy asked.

"Yeah?"

"Well.. ever since we had met, I had liked you for your loyalty and support. You never let me down and had always tried to protect me," Fluttershy said and then paused. "I always had felt like you were the only one who cared for me before we moved into Ponyville."

Rainbow Dash was sitting up, her eyes focused on Fluttershy with curiosity. "What are you trying to tell me, Fluttershy? I didn't know you appreciated me that much," Rainbow Dash said.

"All these years I started to have.. um feelings.. and lately I had a.. on you," Fluttershy quietly said. She was hiding her face under her mane now.

"What? What do you mean? You had what?" Rainbow Dash asked.

"I had a crush!" Fluttershy quickly said and turned away.

Rainbow Dash sat confused, trying to piece everything together. She even was looking back on the past to try to make sense of what was going on. Fluttershy started to softly cry into her mane.

"You have a crush.. on me?" Rainbow Dash asked, scratching the back of her head.

Fluttershy whimpered. "Yes," she replied.

"I..I never knew you felt that way, Fluttershy. I didn't even know that.. you liked mares," Rainbow Dash nervously said.

"It's okay, Rainbow Dash.. I thought you were.. into mares too," Fluttershy said and snuffled.

Rainbow Dash sat next to Fluttershy on the edge of the bed. She put a hoof on her shoulder. "I gotta admit.. I.. also am into mares but.. I never felt this way about you, Fluttershy," Rainbow Dash explained.

"What do you mean? You don't like me?" Fluttershy sniffled. More tears came down.

"I.. don't like you.. like that.. Fluttershy. I always had thought of you as a good friend. I never had any romantic feelings like Rarity calls them. I'm really sorry!" Rainbow Dash said.

Fluttershy started crying and shook her head. Rainbow Dash couldn't feel anymore guilty. She hugged the timid pegasus and tried to calm her down.

"Please, Fluttershy, don't cry! I really am sorry! Stop crying!" she said.

Fluttershy had a tight grip on Rainbow Dash. She couldn't help but feel sad that her crush didn't feel the same way. Admitting her feelings didn't feel like a relief. She cried more into Rainbow Dash's mane.

"Fluttershy, please.. don't cry about this! I'm so sorry!" Rainbow Dash said with tears forming.

They stayed like this for a long time. Soon, they both were feeling tired and had a little redness forming in their eyes. Fluttershy stopped crying and was only shaking a little.

"Look, Fluttershy. I'm sorry that I don't feel the same way but I can't go out with you," Rainbow Dash said.

"Why?" she quietly replied in sorrow.

"I don't have any romantic feelings for you right now. It wouldn't be right if I was dating you and I couldn't return the affection. That would just hurt you so much.. but I have come up with an idea," Rainbow Dash said.

"Fluttershy lifted her head up. "What?" she said, still sniffling.

"I will spend the rest of the vacation with you, the whole time. But.. just as friends. I don't know if I'll start having feelings for you but it's worth a shot. Even if this doesn't work out.. I still wanna be best pals with you," Rainbow Dash explained.

Fluttershy let go and Rainbow Dash inched away a bit. 'Would this even be worth it? Would she even develop special feelings for me?' she asked herself.

"Do you mean it?" she asked.

"Yes, I don't want to lose you as a friend, Fluttershy!" Rainbow Dash said.

"Okay, Rainbow Dash," Fluttershy said.

"Okay, pal. Let's go to sleep and we'll figure this out in the morning.. but uh.. no cuddling up against me. Sorry, we aren't going out until I know for sure I like you.. that way," Rainbow Dash said in a soft voice.

Fluttershy nodded and climbed into bed under her blanket. Rainbow Dash turned off the lights and went under the hotel blankets. They both slept looking away from each other. Fluttershy drifted into another bad dream.