Chapter 8: New Rescue Plan
After the two conversations, Sun and Somnambula, along with Princess Twilight, Starswirl, and the Dazzlings enter the
throne room from opposite sides. There Sun and Starswirl are able to talk things out, and are able work things out. Of
course, they still need to discuss on what they need to do about the situation. Soon after, Sun explains to the others
about her relationship with Somnambula and, well… let's just say that everypony, except for the ones who already know is
shocked to hear it.
Rainbow exclaims in excitement, "Somnambula is really your ancestor, Sun?! How cool is this!"
"That's amazing," Princess Twilight says with a smile.
Starlight asks, "How come you never told us about it before?"
"Yeah," Spike adds.
Sun blushes a bit, "Well, I guess I was still having some time taking it all in. And with all that is going on with the Pony of
Shadows, it's kind of hard to find the time."
"At least you're able to tell us now," Applejack says.
"Yes. And you end up with a lovely necklace," Rarity says.
"Well, it's not exactly mine. It originally belongs to Somnambula," Sun says.
"Yeah. But like you said, it was past down from your family," Pinkie says.
"That is true, and I would be happy for you to have it. I still had the fond memories of begin with Hisan and my little Sun
Goddess. But I am happy to see the necklace has been entrusted by a generation of my family," Sonnambula says.
"Thanks," Sun says with a smile.
Sun turns to Starswirl, and says, "Still, sorry for how I acted Starswirl."
"That's alright. I'm the one who should be apologizing. I wasn't being considerate and understanding to your and your
friends feeling," Starswirl says.
He sighs and says, "Listening about you and Princess Twilight have been in Stygian's horseshoes, I'm started to think I
didn't fully think about how Stygian feels."
"Maybe so. But like Princess Twilight said, there's no use of worrying about something that is already done," Sun says.
Human Twilight says, "We all have made mistakes in the past that is hard to fully correct."
"But the best thing we can do is try to do what it takes to making things right in the present," Falling Star says.
"Yeah. We all made mistakes that we need to fix," Starry says.
Starswirl happily chuckles, and says, "I see that you all make mistakes, but still try to fix it whatever you can."
"I just wish there is a way to know why or how Stygian became the Pony of Shadows," Meadowbrook.
"Yeah. And we still don't know why he took the release to begin with," Flash says.
Starswirl and the other pillars feeling a bit distressed and wonder how Stygian became the Pony of Shadows. Princess
Twilight and the others are thinking the same thing.
Just then, Sun calmly says, "I think I know why."
Everybody and everybody look at Sun with confused and surprised expressions on her face.
"What do you mean?" Fluttershy asks.
"While I was in the guestroom, I end up seeing those memories again, and I was able to see everything. I even knew who
the necklace belongs to," Sun explains.
"Really?" Meadowbrook questions.
"Yes. This choker… was actually Stygian's," Sun answers.
"What?!" Princess Twilight, her friends, and Sun's friends exclaim in shock.
Starswirl realizes, "Now I know where I've seen the gemstone before."
"You know the choker belongs to him?" Princess Twilight questions.
"Yes. It was a long time to go. He told me that it was special to him. And he explained how precious it is," Starswirl says.
"How so?" Sunburst asks.
"He told me… that the choker really used to belong to his mother. She gave it to him before she has passed on when he
was a young colt," Starswirl sadly answers.
"Poor Stygian," Sonata sadly replies.
"Yes it was. I remember seeing it when he dropped it and told me the whole story. He truly missed her for the longest
time," Starswirl answers.
"But what about his dad?" Adagio questions.
Starswirl looks away, "That is something I promised not to tell."
"That's okay. I guess it must be personal to him," Starlight says.
"It was," Starswirl says.
Then he ask, "Now about the visions you had. I like to hear on what it is."
"Right," Sun replies.
Then she explains, "Stygian, meet the Dazzlings along time ago, and felt that it was his fault that they came because he
didn't no anything to stop them. He knew that he couldn't stop them on his own, so we went to find legendary heroes for
help. There were a lot of memories that is to be seen. But over time, Stygian not only read about the battles you all faced
with him, but you all bonded with him."
Sun turns to the Dazzlings, "Stygian actually wanted to talk to you three on and wanted to paralyze your powers, but
Starswirl disagrees and thought the Dazzlings won't listen."
"Guess he was right. After the hardship we've been through a long time ago. The last thing we wanted to do is listen to
somepony," Aria says.
Adagio rolls her eyes, and turns to Sun, "So what happens next?"
"After you three were sent to the other world, Stygian started to think that he wasn't worthy of be with them. He think
that since he didn't have magic and strength, he won't be earning your respect, but you all haven't noticed it. And he was
worried to say anything to you," Sun continues.
Starswirl and the others start to feel a bit guilty about what Sun is saying.
"We had no idea," Mistmane says.
"But still, why did Stygian took the artifacts?" Meadowbrook asks.
Then Flash asks, "Were you able to see why?"
Sun nods her head, "Stygian wanted your respect and friendship so much, that he decided to prove your worth. He
decided to take the artifacts to Ponehenge hoping to make copies of it, and created a spell so not only the copies could be
copy, but only can be activated by his choker. He was hoping that if this worked, he could be a pillar to and stand by your
side in battle. He never wanted your power, but your friendship and your respect. He tried, but the spell apparently
failed."
"I guess, that is when we found him. Assuming that he wanted power and cast him out," Starswirl confirms.
"I'm afraid so," Sun sadly replies.
Meadowbrook sadly sighs, "I feel just awful."
"We let our pride and anger get the better of us," Starswirl says.
"We never thought on how it was making Stygian feel," Somnambula says.
Then Flash says, "We never knew that we made Stygian feel excluded."
"Were you able to see how Stygian became the Shadow?" Rockhoof asks.
"Yes. You must have seen something," Mistmane adds.
Sun looks down, and begins to shed a few tears, "Yes. I did, and it was horrible. Stygian ranway and went to the Hollow
Shades. He was so broken hearted that he had no idea where he ended up. He then fallen a strange temple under the
village calle the Well of Shades. But he didn't care, he continues crying. He was… very hurt that the ponies he believed as
friends turned their back on him."
Sun then wipes the tears from her face. Princess Twilight and Starlight gives Sun for support.
"That is when the shadow came in. He hard Stygian's cry, and offered him a chance to become powerful. Stygian was
reluctant at first and mention to him on what happened. But the shadow said, 'You don't have to worry, I won't abandon
you like they did. Join me, and I will give you power, and help get revenge on those who turned their backs on you.'
Stygian agree and promised to protect the welcoming and the help the shadow promised to give to him. They both touch
each others' hoof. Then the pony traveled into his body, He screamed as the shadow is taking him over. Knowing what is
happening, he was trying to get to you as fast as he can, but lost the choker along the way," Sun says.
After Sun explains, everyone are either stunned, shocked, or on the verge of crying.
"And regretfully, we all know what happened next. The shadow took over him," Starlight says.
"And turned into the Pony of Shadows," Princess Twilight adds.
Starswirl calmly says, "Now I understand why you saw those memories. You've been seeing Stygian's memories, and you
been feeling his emotions."
"That's right. I've been feeling his anger. I've been crying his tears. All of the memories and emotions came from Stygian,
and I saw it all. I saw exactly what he saw. The shadow have been consuming him so much that it took him over. But deep
down… he never want this to happen at all!" Sun says, begins to cry.
Sun then quietly says, "We can't let him be… alone anymore. All the pain he has, it needs to end."
Flash slams his hoof on the table, and announces in a serious tone, "We got to save him!"
"But how? The shadow won't let him go so easily," Starry says.
"And he's still pretty angry with you," Sonata adds.
"I know. We need to find a way to fix this. But we only have the spell that will banish the Pony of Shadows. How are we
going to separate Stygian from the shadow?" Starswirl replies.
Princess Twilight and her friends, along with Sun and her friends are trying to think on what to do with the situation.
Sun wonders, "Maybe… maybe we can use the spell to our advantage?"
"And how do you suppose we do that?" Applejack asks.
"What I'm saying, what if we can use the spell to hold of the shadow. We'll use the five artifacts along with the five
elements to create the portal to limbo and have the shadow trap between it," Sun explains.
Princess Twilight gasps with a smile, and explains, "You're right. If we use the artifacts and the elements first before
Starswirl, Sun and I use our magic, we can trap the shadow between here and limbo. The shadow won't be able to attack
as long as our magic cancels it out."
"And that will buy us enough time to separate Stygian from the shadow. But the question is now is how to do it?" Starswirl
adds.
"Princess Twilight and I need to go inside the shadow to find him, and convince him to be his real self again. We will all
need your help to get Stygian out, so we better be ready for it," Sun says.
"You're right. The shadow will put of a fight," Aria says.
"But I'm sure we can do it as long as we're together," Sonata happily replies.
"You can say that again," Pinkie says with glee.
Then Princess Twilight says, "Now that the spell has been finish, it's time that we get the elements, and face the Pony of
Shadows."
Sometime later, everypony and everybody arrive at the Tree of Harmony. Starswirl and the others are astonished to see
how much the tree has grown over a thousand years.
"I am glad to see the tree has grown with our efforts long ago." Somnambula says.
"And now a brand new element has been created as well," Mistmane says.
"Now that we know what needs to be done, the elements are needed. Thanks to the spell of Princess Twilight, and Sun's
idea to use them. We'll be able to save Stygian, and the elements won't be sacrificed," Starswirl says.
Meadowbrook looks at the flower with the chest inside, "That looks lovely. What's inside?"
"We don't know yet. This chest is Sun. The same thing happen to us, and that is how we got the castle," Princess Twilight
answers.
"And I need to find the key to unlock it," Sun adds.
"I'm sure you will when the time comes," Somnambula says.
"Thanks," Sun says with smile on her face.
Starswirl then uses his magic on the elements causing them to glow, and leave the branches and trunk. The five friends
have their element that form the golden brace of the necklace. Princess Twilight's element turns into crown.
Rockhoof looks at it, and asks, "Ummm, how do we use them?"
"Well you… Oh!" Rarity is about to something, but stop in the middle of her sentence.
Then says, "I'm not sure. They simply work to us."
"Think it more than that. They seem to use their magic when we think about our friendship and others," Sun says.
"Sounds good to me," Starry replies.
"The elements are attuned to you. We must be in pairs," Starswirl says.
"That might not be easy because Sun isn't really paired up with someone," Aria says.
"And Sun's element is still on the tree," Sonata adds, pointing to the tree.
Everyone and Everypony look on the tree to see Sun's element is still on the tree.
"That's weird? Why didn't' Sun's element come out?" Spike the dragon asks.
Starswirl bushes his beard as he says, "I suspect this would happen?"
"What do you mean?" Human Twilight asks.
"Well when we planted the seed, there were six crystals meaning six elements. Since Sun is the one along with the
elements have created a new one, I suspect that she is the one to extract it," Starswirl explains.
"So in other words, Sun is the only one to activate her element?" Falling Star asks.
"Precisely," Starswirl answers.
He turns to Sun and says, "You must be the one to cast the spell for your element."
"Um sure," Sun says, looking a it skeptic.
Sun then lights up her horn and cast a spell on her element. Then the gem leaves the tree and lands on Sun's pony head,
turning it into a crown. Just then, the element grows and hits the Dazzlings. Everyone gasp in surprise, especially the three
sisters. Soon the Dazzlings heart gems leaves from their chest, and begin to transform. Adagio so turns into a tiara on her head. Sonata's gem turns into a bracelet and goes on her left right. Aria's gem has turn into a brooch and goes on her jacket. Soon the three gems stop glowing and turn to accessories.
"What just happened?" Rainbow asks.
"Our hearts?" Sonata questions.
"They turned into accessories," Aria says looking at her new brooch.
"It's like last time. Our hearts left our body when their magic is needed," Adagio says.
"I guess your hearts is needed for this one," Fluttershy suggests.
"Seems like it," Human Twilight says.
"It's like your heart gems are your own elements," Falling Star replies.
"Yeah," Pinkie says.
"Now that we're all ready, we better get to the Hollow Shades," Starswirl says.
Then Princess Twilight say, "We have to stop the shadow and save Stygian."
"Let's just hope this will work," Starlight says in concern.
"We won't know until we try," Sun says.
Everypony and everybody leave the cave to confront the Pony of Shadows. They hope they save Stygian and stop the
Pony of Shadows. Either way, they know it's not going to be easy.
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Chapter 8: New Rescue Plan
After the two conversations, Sun and Somnambula, along with Princess Twilight, Starswirl, and the Dazzlings enter the throne room from opposite sides. There Sun and Starswirl are able to talk things out, and are able work things out. Of course, they still need to discuss on what they need to do about the situation. Soon after, Sun explains to the others about her relationship with Somnambula and, well… let's just say that everypony, except for the ones who already know is shocked to hear it.
Rainbow exclaims in excitement, "Somnambula is really your ancestor, Sun?! How cool is this!"
"That's amazing." Princess Twilight says with a smile.
Starlight asks, "How come you never told us about it before?"
"Yeah." Spike adds.
Sun blushes a bit, "Well, I guess I was still having some time taking it all in. And with all that is going on with the Pony of Shadows, it's kind of hard to find the time."
"At least you're able to tell us now." Applejack says.
"Yes. And you end up with a lovely necklace." Rarity says.
"Well, it's not exactly mine. It originally belongs to Somnambula." Sun says.
"Yeah. But like you said, it was past down from your family." Pinkie says.
"That is true, and I would be happy for you to have it. I still had the fond memories of begin with Hisan and my little Sun Goddess. But I am happy to see the necklace has been entrusted by a generation of my family." Sonnambula says.
"Thanks." Sun says with a smile.
Sun turns to Starswirl, and says, "Still, sorry for how I acted Starswirl."
"That's alright. I'm the one who should be apologizing. I wasn't being considerate and understanding to your and your friends feeling." Starswirl says.
He sighs and says, "Listening about you and Princess Twilight have been in Stygian's horseshoes, I'm started to think I didn't fully think about how Stygian feels."
"Maybe so. But like Princess Twilight said, there's no use of worrying about something that is already done." Sun says.
Human Twilight says, "We all have made mistakes in the past that is hard to fully correct."
"But the best thing we can do is try to do what it takes to making things right in the present." Falling Star says.
"Yeah. We all made mistakes that we need to fix." Starry says.
Starswirl happily chuckles, and says, "I see that you all make mistakes, but still try to fix it whatever you can."
"I just wish there is a way to know why or how Stygian became the Pony of Shadows." Meadowbrook.
"Yeah. And we still don't know why he took the release to begin with." Flash says.
Starswirl and the other pillars feeling a bit distressed and wonder how Stygian became the Pony of Shadows. Princess Twilight and the others are thinking the same thing.
Just then, Sun calmly says, "I think I know why."
Everybody and everybody look at Sun with confused and surprised expressions on her face.
"What do you mean?" Fluttershy asks.
"While I was in the guestroom, I end up seeing those memories again, and I was able to see everything. I even knew who the necklace belongs to." Sun explains.
"Really?" Meadowbrook questions.
"Yes. This choker… was actually Stygian's." Sun answers.
"What?!" Princess Twilight, her friends, and Sun's friends exclaim in shock.
Starswirl realizes, "Now I know where I've seen the gemstone before."
"You know the choker belongs to him?" Princess Twilight questions.
"Yes. It was a long time to go. He told me that it was special to him. And he explained how precious it is." Starswirl says.
"How so?" Sunburst asks.
"He told me… that the choker really used to belong to his mother. She gave it to him before she has passed on when he was a young colt." Starswirl sadly answers.
"Poor Stygian." Sonata sadly replies.
"Yes it was. I remember seeing it when he dropped it and told me the whole story. He truly missed her for the longest time." Starswirl answers.
"But what about his dad?" Adagio questions.
Starswirl looks away, "That is something I promised not to tell."
"That's okay. I guess it must be personal to him." Starlight says.
"It was." Starswirl says.
Then he ask, "Now about the visions you had. I like to hear on what it is."
"Right,." Sun replies.
Then she explains, "Stygian, meet the Dazzlings along time ago, and felt that it was his fault that they came because he didn't no anything to stop them. He knew that he couldn't stop them on his own, so we went to find legendary heroes for help. There were a lot of memories that is to be seen. But over time, Stygian not only read about the battles you all faced with him, but you all bonded with him."
Sun turns to the Dazzlings, "Stygian actually wanted to talk to you three on and wanted to paralyze your powers, but Starswirl disagrees and thought the Dazzlings won't listen."
"Guess he was right. After the hardship we've been through a long time ago. The last thing we wanted to do is listen to somepony." Aria says.
Adagio rolled her eyes, and turns to Sun, "So what happens next?"
"After you three were sent to the other world, Stygian started to think that he wasn't worthy of be with them. He think that since he didn't have magic and strength, he won't be earning your respect, but you all haven't noticed it. And he was worried to say anything to you." Sun continues.
Starswirl and the others start to feel a bit guilty about what Sun is saying.
"We had no idea." Mistmane says.
"But still, why did Stygian took the artifacts?" Meadowbrook asks.
Then Flash asks, "Were you able to see why?"
Sun nods her head, "Stygian wanted your respect and friendship so much, that he decided to prove your worth. He decided to take the artifacts to Ponehenge hoping to make copies of it, and created a spell so not only the copies could be copy, but only can be activated by his choker. He was hoping that if this worked, he could be a pillar to and stand by your side in battle. He never wanted your power, but your friendship and your respect. He tried, but the spell apparently failed."
"I guess, that is when we found him. Assuming that he wanted power and cast him out." Starswirl confirms.
"I'm afraid so." Sun sadly replies.
Meadowbrook sadly sighs, "I feel just awful."
"We let our pride and anger get the better of us." Starswirl says.
"We never thought on how it was making Stygian feel." Somnambula says.
Then Flash says, "We never knew that we made Stygian feel excluded."
"Were you able to see how Stygian became the Shadow?" Rockhoof asks.
"Yes. You must have seen something." Mistmane adds.
Sun looks down, and begins to shed a few tears, "Yes. I did, and it was horrible. Stygian ranway and went to the Hollow Shades. He was so broken hearted that he had no idea where he ended up. He then fallen a strange temple under the village called the Well of Shades. But he didn't care, he continues crying. He was… very hurt that the ponies he believed as friends turned their back on him."
Sun then wipes the tears from her face. Princess Twilight and Starlight gives Sun for support.
"That is when the shadow came in. He hard Stygian's cry, and offered him a chance to become powerful. Stygian was reluctant at first and mention to him on what happened. But the shadow said, 'You don't have to worry, I won't abandon you like they did. Join me, and I will give you power, and help get revenge on those who turned their backs on you.' Stygian agree and promised to protect the welcoming and the help the shadow promised to give to him. They both touch each others' hoof. Then the pony traveled into his body, He screamed as the shadow is taking him over. Knowing what is happening, he was trying to get to you as fast as he can, but lost the choker along the way." Sun says.
After Sun explains, everyone are either stunned, shocked, or on the verge of crying.
"And regretfully, we all know what happened next. The shadow took over him." Starlight says.
"And turned into the Pony of Shadows." Princess Twilight adds.
Starswirl calmly says, "Now I understand why you saw those memories. You've been seeing Stygian's memories, and you been feeling his emotions."
"That's right. I've been feeling his anger. I've been crying his tears. All of the memories and emotions came from Stygian, and I saw it all. I saw exactly what he saw. The shadow have been consuming him so much that it took him over. But deep down… he never want this to happen at all!" Sun says, begins to cry.
Sun then quietly says, "We can't let him be… alone anymore. All the pain he has, it needs to end."
Flash slams his hoof on the table, and announces in a serious tone, "We got to save him!"
"But how? The shadow won't let him go so easily." Starry says.
"And he's still pretty angry with you." Sonata adds.
"I know. We need to find a way to fix this. But we only have the spell that will banish the Pony of Shadows. How are we going to separate Stygian from the shadow?" Starswirl replies.
Princess Twilight and her friends, along with Sun and her friends are trying to think on what to do with the situation.
Sun wonders, "Maybe… maybe we can use the spell to our advantage?"
"And how do you suppose we do that?" Applejack asks.
"What I'm saying, what if we can use the spell to hold of the shadow. We'll use the five artifacts along with the five elements to create the portal to limbo and have the shadow trap between it," Sun explains.
Princess Twilight gasps with a smile, and explains, "You're right. If we use the artifacts and the elements first before Starswirl, Sun and I use our magic, we can trap the shadow between here and limbo. The shadow won't be able to attack as long as our magic cancels it out."
"And that will buy us enough time to separate Stygian from the shadow. But the question is now is how to do it?" Starswirl adds.
"Princess Twilight and I need to go inside the shadow to find him, and convince him to be his real self again. We will all need your help to get Stygian out, so we better be ready for it." Sun says.
"You're right. The shadow will put of a fight." Aria says.
"But I'm sure we can do it as long as we're together." Sonata happily replies.
"You can say that again." Pinkie says with glee.
Then Princess Twilight says, "Now that the spell has been finish, it's time that we get the elements, and face the Pony of Shadows."
Sometime later, everypony and everybody arrive at the Tree of Harmony. Starswirl and the others are astonished to see how much the tree has grown over a thousand years.
"I am glad to see the tree has grown with our efforts long ago." Somnambula says.
"And now a brand new element has been created as well." Mistmane says.
"Now that we know what needs to be done, the elements are needed. Thanks to the spell of Princess Twilight, and Sun's idea to use them. We'll be able to save Stygian, and the elements won't be sacrificed." Starswirl says.
Meadowbrook looks at the flower with the chest inside, "That looks lovely. What's inside?"
"We don't know yet. This chest is Sun. The same thing happen to us, and that is how we got the castle," Princess Twilight answers.
"And I need to find the key to unlock it." Sun adds.
"I'm sure you will when the time comes." Somnambula says.
"Thanks." Sun says with smile on her face.
Starswirl then uses his magic on the elements causing them to glow, and leave the branches and trunk. The five friends have their element that form the golden brace of the necklace. Princess Twilight's element turns into crown.
Rockhoof looks at it, and asks, "Ummm, how do we use them?"
"Well, you… Oh!" Rarity is about to something, but stop in the middle of her sentence.
Then says, "I'm not sure. They simply work to us."
"Think it more than that. They seem to use their magic when we think about our friendship and others." Sun says.
"Sounds good to me." Starry replies.
"The elements are attuned to you. We must be in pairs." Starswirl says.
"That might not be easy because Sun isn't really paired up with someone." Aria says.
"And Sun's element is still on the tree." Sonata adds, pointing to the tree.
Everyone and Everypony look on the tree to see Sun's element is still on the tree.
"That's weird? Why didn't' Sun's element come out?" Spike the dragon asks.
Starswirl brushes his beard as he says, "I suspect this would happen?"
"What do you mean?" Human Twilight asks.
"Well, when we planted the seed, there were six crystals meaning six elements. Since Sun is the one along with the elements have created a new one, I suspect that she is the one to extract it." Starswirl explains.
"So in other words, Sun is the only one to activate her element?" Falling Star asks.
"Precisely." Starswirl answers.
He turns to Sun and says, "You must be the one to cast the spell for your element."
"Um, sure." Sun says, looking a it skeptic.
Sun then lights up her horn and cast a spell on her element. Then the gem leaves the tree and lands on Sun's pony head, turning it into a crown. Just then, the element grows and hits the Dazzlings. Everyone gasp in surprise, especially the three sisters. Soon the Dazzlings heart gems leaves from their chest, and begin to transform. Adagio so turns into a tiara on her head. Sonata's gem turns into a bracelet and goes on her left right. Aria's gem has turn into a brooch and goes on her jacket. Soon the three gems stop glowing and turn to accessories.
"What just happened?" Rainbow asks.
"Our hearts?" Sonata questions.
"They turned into accessories." Aria says looking at her new brooch.
"It's like last time. Our hearts left our body when their magic is needed." Adagio says.
"I guess your hearts is needed for this one." Fluttershy suggests.
"Seems like it." Human Twilight says.
"It's like your heart gems are your own elements." Falling Star replies.
"Yeah." Pinkie says.
"Now that we're all ready, we better get to the Hollow Shades." Starswirl says.
Then Princess Twilight say, "We have to stop the shadow and save Stygian."
"Let's just hope this will work." Starlight says in concern.
"We won't know until we try." Sun says.
Everypony and everybody leave the cave to confront the Pony of Shadows. They hope they save Stygian and stop the Pony of Shadows. Either way, they know it's not going to be easy.
Oh no please please continue this 🙏😭