I want to write

I need to write

I find it hard to write

Why is it so hard to write? It used to be easy before

fuuuuuuuck

what do I do

The truth is, I don't actually believe in love. Maybe I'm too cynical, but I really don't believe anyone is out there for me, I don't believe anyone truly cares about me and wants to make me happy, and I'm pretty sure that I'll die alone at this point... But the truth is, I'd rather not think that way. I want to believe in love and romance again, but I just don't! I write about these ponies that slowly become enamored with one another, and I can't help but wonder if maybe, just maybe, there's

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Something I have been meaning to do for a while now is rewrite the whole story so far. I don't feel I gave it the effort it deserved and I believe a rewrite would do the fic well and I can hopefully portray this story right, because right now I think what I've done is shit.

Rewrites have started, each chapter will be redone and most likely scrapped and started from scratch, I hope to rewrite all chapters before releasing one chapter per week.

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Oh man, I am a true fan of diversity, i love and appreciate that there are different kinds of folks out there, and or understand not everyone has the same opinions, beliefs and or lifestyle as you, but sometimes this is exactly how i feel looking at the world:

Does anyone else ever feel that way or am i just a complete Narcissist?

Okay so, I will write up a mor extensive blog later (it’s 1am for me as of writing this) but the short of it is as follows:

The next chapter of A Captain’s Lament is “Done”

What do I mean by “Done”? Well the bulk of the plot and initial editing is done, I just have to add in a bit more detail and move some bits about that I MIGHT have misplaced in the structuring and then do a final edit.

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New Chapter up! go check it out!

The more I live life, the more anxiety I feel and the further my depressen worsens. I work a job which I'm now unable to do as effectively as I once could due to certain complications that I have only just discovered and am struggling to adjust to living with. It's been easier recently, having had a little experience, but it doesn't make the fact it's never going to go away any less daunting. It's scary, but it's a unique way to live.

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Honestly I've been checked out on Star Wars for a long time: longer than before the new trilogy came around to sour it even further. I mean I technically still write Star Wars, though it's nothing that can be accepted by any ol' fan. For one thing, the Ssi-Ruuk are regularly represented, and another is that they're not presented as their original selves. Still a shame they're so under-utilized in the mythos, only appearing in only two or three books out of the whole EU. What a fine day that

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So I've been working on an operatic song for an upcoming chapter, helping to set a mood while also hinting at future revelations in the story. I feel that it is quite lovely, and I'd like to know what you all think

Here I find you,
Holding you in arms,
Slain and murder,
They have done you wrong,
My mind is telling me to go

Avenging thee
Bitter sweet
How easy be to fall?
My heart is racing, madness raging
The end of life as we know

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As of now, I think the time has come to finally abandon my Fimfiction page. I don't particularly want any involvement in the MLP community any longer and I hold no interest in continuing to be an active member. While my page remains open to everyone, I've logged out permanently and don't think I'll return to it or use it again. No more blogs, no more stories, no related content - it's over.

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