College and stray thoughts · 8:18pm Oct 4th, 2022
College started today, and I can already tell this year is going to be hard. I'm not sure how much I'll be able to do here, but... there is another issue, to be honest...
I... don't know if there is much reason for me to come here anymore... it's just that... I've lost all motivation to work on my projects more, at least for now (thank goodness they're all more or less complete!), and most of my friends are either very inactive or rarely communicating with me on here. And I know, I know - that is just as well my fault. And it is, of course it is! I'm... someone for whom it is very hard to talk to people, you know? I always fear I will make them dislike me with what I say, one way or another. So... at the end of the day, I just end up not doing it. That happens even with friends. Other than that...? Well, I rarely read fics anymore, and it's hard to pinpoint the reason why. I just... happen not to. So... I just come here, reload the page to check if someone messaged me, which is rarely the case, and close the site again. I'm just not sure if there is much point in that.
I won't go away. I still have at least one dear friend with whom I only have contact through FimFiction. I'll be checking the site several times a day, like usually, so if anyone stumbling upon this wishes to get in contact, please do! I'm available, and you'd actually make my day if you did. 
But yes, I guess I'm... mostly trying to explain my inactivity. If that makes sense. Oh well...
-Lily, going dark for a while, until she figures things out again and fixes them
Completely understandable. I think a lot of us on this site are having similar issues where now Covid's pretty much not an issue, normal life is taking over again and we don't have the spare time.
We all understand take your time and enjoy your break. Give use a update on your school once and a while. I myself am dealing with some crap at home and no longer have regular internet access. I am hoping for your success with your school work.
5690341
Yes, that is true, sadly. This is the one, singular aspect I kind of miss about those times, haha... though for obvious reasons, I would not want them to ever return overall. It was a... bleak time.
5690381
I will, I will... thanks for understanding. I hope you get to fix whatever's happening there.
5691031
I will try. Enjoy college life and don't take to many classes at once.