[UPDATE] When you get medical confirmation... · 5:46am Sep 20th, 2022
So I've said in my rather sporadic updates that I've been going through a lot, and I believe I've mentioned that the things that have been happening have been rather more draining on the ol' spoons than I otherwise expected.
Well, it's been getting worse and worse, to the point where I either have to nap for a couple hours every day or caffeinate to an unhealthy degree just to stay awake and alert. I had been dismissing this as a, "I'm going through Puberty 2.0, being caretaker to an autistic adult, mom to an autistic kid, creating about 12 new systems for work, being the sole person in charge of all food and financial management for a home, and dealing with living in a desert, well duh I'm tired...and that's not even counting the new relationship I'm working on," so I didn't really think much of it, but I was starting to get the irritating 'gut feeling' that there was something more going on. When my girlfriend (the member of the polycule who lives with me) pointed out in a rather disappointied way, "You always get tired around this time of the day," when she found me taking an impromptu nap when I was trying to play video games, that's when I started getting a little alarmed about my sleep patterns.
I wear a Fitbit, something I originally got for sleep tracking in the first place, but later when I upgraded I got the Sense for its heart monitoring capabilities due to a small cardiac scare that happened after my ex threatened me with some legal proceedings. Turned out it was due to stress, but it was a nice enough watch that I kept wearing it and charged it up when I took a shower. Well, I figured I should check my sleep habits and, sure enough, night after night for weeks, if not months, where I wasn't getting anything resembling enough sleep. Either I'd have nights where I woke up after only a couple of hours of sleep and couldn't get back to sleep, or I'd drift down into the lighter stages of sleep and never get deep sleep, or I'd be "awake," but not conscious enough to remember being awake.
Anyone who's experienced chronic sleep deprivation will know; this is murder on any creative thinking. I'd basically be burning out all my creative energies on a few hours at work, then kinda zombie my way through the rest of the day.
Not fun.
Today I happened to have a doctor's appointment for my HRT, and the doc also happens to be my PCP, so I showed her my sleep logs and she prescribed me a medication meant for helping with sleep nearly before I finished explaining my problem.
Hopefully this new scrip helps me get enough sleep, which will in turn give me plenty of spoons to get back to writing, which I have been frustratingly unable to do for several weeks now. Deviation is up next, followed by a privately commissioned original work, then I'm going to take another stab at "Of Bug Horses and Friendship Lessons" to see if I can't (finally) get that off my plate. Once those are knocked out, this year's holiday special is one I REALLY want to get out the door on time this year.
Felt. Hope your medication ends up working swell for you!
My Love and prayers for you, dear friend.
I know when something similar happened to me my doctor did a sleep study then put me on CPAP, which in my case helped considerably. My heartfelt sympathies to you.
Feel better soon. I despite the shots caught the covid so I am having less fun than usual.
Hoping you'll feel better soon, wishing you the best. 💙
You can also try methamphetamine I'm not even joking it is prescribed for narcolepsy
You take your time, Princess. No amount of updates (no matter how well-written) is worth your health.
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Most drugs are invented for medical purposes, and then relegated to recreation if the side-effects are severe enough.
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good observation.