State of the Story Clockwork Precision · 11:06am Jul 29th, 2022
Hello everyone!
I thought it'd be a good idea to write a post explaining a few things in regards to the delays with the story.
But, first, I would to thank everyone that's stuck with me, cheered me on, checked on me, and given me words of encouragement along the way. Despite everything that's been going on, the community has been instrumental in helping me get through it. Whether you know it or not. I haven't had a whole lot of positive things going on. But knowing that you care has been a a bright light that's helped me keep going. So, to all of you, a very deep heart felt Thank You!
So as most already know, I've been having one problem after another crop up. Some of you are more aware of the depths of hell that I've been facing more than others. And on top of this I'd had to deal with MYSELF having to deal with this. For the most part, I was weathering the incessant storms pretty well. But something changed in the beginning of January 2021. I won't get into the specifics here, because that'd be a novel in and of itself, but in short I lost access to some pretty significant things that were helping me get through the nonsense. If I were to use an analogy, I was a duck that suddenly couldn't produce enough oil to bead off the water. So it weighed me down.
This started a very unfortunate spiral. I kept dealing with one blow after another, but didn't have the resources to recover from it. Even mentally. Which made me increasingly frustrated at the situation, and myself, for not being as productive as I felt I should be. Which increased my frustration. Which lowered my productivity and ability to recover. Which increased my frustration. Which lowered... you see where I'm going with this? That's basically the spiral I've been dealing with since the beginning of last year.
How it affects the story is that every time I'd try to work on the story, either something would come up, or I just COULDN'T. Like even when I was able to and had time I'd sit staring at the screen for some unknown length of time and just not able to do anything. It's not writers block. I had the ideas. I even had a lot already written that just needed editing. I just couldn't get ANYTHING done.
So THAT is why the story was never put on "Hiatus" status. Because, in truth, I was actively working on it as much as I could. I just had nothing to show for it. I didn't take a break from it. And since things have somewhat slowed down, I've been able to make more progress. That said, I have NO idea what the release schedule is going to be. The short answer is "as quickly as I get chapters ready". But I'm hoping to get at least once a month and working towards once a week releases.
As always, if you have any questions, concerns, or comments, just fire away and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.
~~~{Quillsy}~~~
friend as we have talked before i know how things are .
take your time all the time you need.
even if you do not put out a chapter just a simple hay i am around will make all of your followers happy.
and remember if you want to just relax and game a bit i do have the servers for us all to play on.
and with luck i can get our shared friend to do a update on them soon lol ..
in short you do you and what you need to be happy.
I know the feeling of trepidation of starting a new project and how daunting it can be in my art work at random moments, it's called performance anxiety, and keep it in mind that it's completely irrational sense of fear and it's completely normal for a person to have and most importantly can be over coned with with just jump into it without thinking about and after a little bit of persistence it eventually goes away after an hour of work or so, and if you do it often enough it eventually fades away. Just remember every one can make mistakes and most mistakes can be eventually be fixed later. And most importantly of all most people won't even notice the mistakes...
I could say taking daily walks or doing regular exercises can also help overcome the anxiety.