Leaving Tracks: The Slog · 6:22pm Mar 16th, 2022
Oh my gosh writing is hard y'all
So like, I've written a lot yeah? Over a million words of fanfiction here, in just a few years. But man, writing is hard. And I think with the Adderall I actually could do it, but... I don't??? It's frustrating.
So this is a bit of a forced update, because I wanted to give regular updates, but I haven't done shit. I had a visit from the wonderful bats in January and we wrote together quite a bit, but I haven't written much since then. I did write a little something that's worth talking about though...
So I was driving and listening to Conor Oberst's song Milk Thistle on repeat for Luke half an hour as you do, and I was crying, as I do, and thinking that it sounded so much like something my Fluttershy would write if she ever did a solo folk album. The lyrics made me think of her relationship with redacted, but I hadn't gotten to that yet, and on my current plan of ending the series early, that would never even come up. And... I regretted that. I regretted it a lot.
See, when I decided to end WWB early, it was very hard. But I never regretted that decision. It was the right decision, and I never questioned that. But now... I'm just not sure. I know I don't want to do what I originally was building towards, but can I really accept never seeing Morning grow up? This whole thing was meant to be her story, I just took my god damn time getting to it, and now she's barely making herself a character before I decide to ax things. That's not okay. I'm not okay with that. And what about Fluttershy? My favorite character has so much left to do, she much healing and growing I had planned for her. Not to mention all the little things, like SciTwi's magic, or Applejack's upcoming revelations, kids being born, ships finally sailing.
I botched this series a lot, but you know, I still love it. It was just, god, I've gotta tell y'all what I planned some day, because it was not good stuff. I'll figure out how much I want to salvage first before I say anything though.
So that's my big announcement of the day, I think I'm unretiring WWB before it every actually hit that retirement point. And I've already written a little thing for it over on my Patreon, which is just full of spoilers, because I missed writing Shy. Don't subscribe for that though, it's short and you'll be bummed that you spent the money on that little thing. Just saying, like, the juices are flowing.
I just wish I could do something with it. I have a few stories in mind to tell, but mostly I really do want to work on The Wide World, my original fantasy novel. I have another meeting with bats in a few weeks, that should spark some writing, and I go up on my dosage of Adderall tomorrow, so that may help as well.
Mostly I've been busy with working a fucking ton. And when I'm not working, I've been playing a lot of games and having my life as I know it change dramatically and in ways I never expected and oh god y'all there's just so much going on it never stops aaaaaaaaa
*Ahem*
Right, games. I'm thinking of picking up streaming, specifically doing weekly streams of the Resident Evil games. That's my current special interest, and streaming seems like it might be fun? Idk, it'll probably go nowhere, but I'm thinking of doing it. I picked out a streamer name and everything: ScaredyBunn, because I'm a little bitch when it comes to scary games. So y'all can see me freak out when a zombie grabs me lmao
Anyway yeah that's what's going on. Not much of an update, but I suppose knowing WWB might be continuing for quite a while after all might be good news to some folks. I'll let y'all know if and when I start streaming, but for now, I'm gonna hop my rabbity ass into bed. Later, y'all!
Well, whatever of WWB you end up writing, I will likely enjoy it here. I don't really watch many streamers, but I might stop by if the stars align. Haven't played much of Resident Evil, but 4 and 5 are fun.
You know I am down for ANYTHING WWB even if it is just like the tiniest scraps. I’m like some victorian kid on the street begging for crumbs and I’d be happy with anything you put out, not even just WWB related. I still have yet to read the Patreon thing tho so hmm something something causing my own starvation.
Also Bun streaming RE?! I’d love to check that out!!!
streaming is fun, but hard :O
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With streaming, no worries if that's not your thing. I'll update here if I decide to do it, we'll see.
As one of my most consistent readers, I do value your support
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Lol you really should check it out. I don't think anyone should sub for that little thing alone, but you're subbed already, so might as well??? And good to know you're interested in the Resi stream! I'll keep you posted on the goings on there
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I'm don't aim to beat super successful streamer, at least. If my streams end up just being me and some friends hanging out, that's good with me
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yeah, that's a super attainable goal :D
Gee, imagine not being able to write much after writing a ton hanging out with me, wouldn't know anything about that, I certainly haven't been suffering unable to write much of anything since hanging out with you and writing a ton, nope, not at all.
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I've been in a somewhat similar situation with ending my stories later this year with my version of an eqg ending mainly as I just feel like its time to end it and that this fall I'll be starting a new change irl in regards to college. But glad to know your doing well my friend, even though I was just talking to you earlier on your discord server.
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Oh well if that's the case then I guess there's no need to write together again, if you're writing just fine without me...
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Yeah, sometimes it's just time to move on. I hope whatever you do with your series it turns it well
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I do too, hell my eqg finale is gonna be a collab with 2 good friends of mine on fimfiction.
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It was all a lie, please write with me in April, I beg of you.
You know I'm eager to read any of your stuff. But WWB has a special place in my heart.
I need to start it from the beginning, honestly. Been looking for something to read lately, after all.
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Hmm, I suppose I can squeeze you in then. But only because you're cute
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You're in a for a really long read if you start it from the beginning lol
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It sounds like you already know what you want to salvage. Personally, I say you with the idea of drafting something that can do that as a back burner project to reflect the new variety in what you write.
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Well, I know some of what I want to salvage. I also know some stuff that's getting scrapped. But I haven't really decided on everything, so I still need to ruminate on it some more.
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That sounds like a plan!