Mar
11th
2022
Fears Reawakened · 4:44am Mar 11th, 2022
An ancient fear has been reawakened. I was happy in my skin, with myself, until... I read someone's story who transitioned and then detransitioned because it broke them.
I don't want that.
I don't want to be afraid that I could be unhappy if I undergo changes to myself, it's terrifying. Am I even trans if that's scary?? Do I desist my fantasies or embrace them as my reality??
I know not who I truly am now, which terrifies me more than anything. This has happened before but I am afraid I might not recover from this fear.
If you have any suggestions on what to do, or have any advice whatsoever, please, it would be more than greatly appreciated.
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Detransitioning is very rare, the US has the highest number at just 5% actually staying detransitioned. For those that usually detransition, it’s usually because their family doesn’t support them, and they usually retransition after they’re free.
Detransitioing, however, is a constant thing that hangs over discussion of transitioning, and it’s one of the reasons a lot of red states ban surgery for minors. It’s alright to be scared of it, I’ve accepted that it could happen at any time, but also, I’m like half socially transitioned and I don’t want to go back.
It’s important to think before getting a surgery, mainly because that’s a permanent thing that can’t really be undone. However, a significant number of trans people never get surgeries, because the general public is either apathetic or supportive enough to respect the pronouns and feelings, especially if you present as whatever gender you’re trying it become (as my romantic partner does with being mspec).
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Exactly.
And it was scary for me too. It is for everyone.