toO MUCH WRITING · 7:52am Nov 7th, 2021
aaaaa I burnt myself out! 
I've been writing thousands of words every night for days now, and it looks like the rush of creativity has come to an unfortunate end. The next chapter is just about done- eight thousand words, not to brag- but it's gonna take a few days to get out; for real this time.
I'm a big dumb idiot, and everybody should point and laugh at me. I bade no heed to the calls of the wise, and did write with overmuch fervor. Now I lay softly upon the hard point of my inadequacy, for I can no longer create as the gods once blessed. 
Well, I can still write weird prose, at least? Okay, it's not like I can't write, but I just feel like everything I'm putting down is just sub-par. It really doesn't help that I'm pretty nervous about this next chapter, since I'm doing a lot of big things with it; added to the fact that the chapter after it is going to be the finale of the big arc we've been on.
I'm about to crest the hill, and I'm finding it difficult to balance while holding answers in one hand and ambiguity in the other. The questions have to be answered of course, but I'm wondering just how much tact I can handle these reveals with? It's a lot at once, and it kind of feels like an overload of light after I've left everybody sitting around in the dark for so long. obligatory pun
It's just really difficult; and I think I should take a bit more time to puzzle these details out. It probably won't take any longer than the tenth or so, so try not to worry too much about me jaunting off forever again. Hopefully, I can eventually look at it all with a clearer head, and make it more of a cohesive experience. You know, rather than a constant one-two of reveals and rants.
So, uh, see you then? I promise to do my best? Have a good day- er, night? 
take your time you dont need to rush were not paying you for your story so do it at your own pase