been sabotaging myself again

Well, there are a million different ways i'm doing that, but the fact that I haven't read any fanfiction since I started writing my own is kind of especially egregious.

So I'm gonna do that. Read. I'm gonna go read some stuff, hopefully good stuff; thereby increasing my ability to write and hopefully helping to correct some of my issues.

I've just got this really big problem with details, you know? I want to put all'a the details in every scene. But, as I'm sure the people who read my story are aware, that tends to drag horribly and be terrible to read. I just can't detail every head turn and hoof raise and come up with new ways to say 'he/she said' every time a character opens their mouth. Sure, it looks way better to say something like 'Her tone was so soft, but it held such a deep undercurrent of strength that sent frosty chills racing desperately to escape down my spine', but having to think of something like that for every little bit of dialogue can be super draining over and over again.

Sure, that's good writing, but I think it might be healthy for my productivity to just... let some things go, sometimes. I'm holding myself to my highest possible standards every time I write, and that mentality just makes it so hard to want to write anymore. The next chapter is only about halfway finished, because every time a difficult scene comes up: I retreat into thinking that I should tackle it when I'm at my best. Unfortunately, I don't really feel at my best until I've started writing. I need to throw myself into the activity to stand any chance, but the problem obviously just feeds back into itself with not wanting to start until I'm somehow already warmed up.

I don't really know what this blog is anymore. Originally, It was supposed to be one of my stupid little blogs with two sentences and a joke I put out occasionally to let people know I'm alive; but then it sort of morphed into another session of 'Jinx talking about his problems with writing' that I seem to be so fond of.

Egh. I think I need to wrap this up before it gets too punchy and weird; or, at least, any more than it already is. Bottom line: I'm going to try to better myself for once because I'm obsessed with scripting a live action play over the course of eight thousand words every month. That's it, I'm done. No more to say, besides a hearty thanks for the positive feedback on the latest chapter that was admittedly super kickass and some of my best work.

And... scene. oh whoops it's one am haha

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I recommend reading other fics with necromancy ponies for inspiration there a few good ones