NNN day 5 · 12:30am Nov 6th, 2020

I've been wounded, but I'll march on. One out of four days isn't bad. The key is perseverance, and I won't allow a past failure decide my victory in the future.

It was another day of boredom. 2020 has been simultaneously the most exciting and the most boring year I've ever experienced. On the macrocosm, everything is about as chaotic as we can comprehend, but in our personal lives, we can't do much of anything. With boredom comes temptation, however, so this must be avoided. And the Lord rewards the industrious and charitable.

There may be some of you who, when their brother asks for bread, will give them a stone. Or if they ask for a jelly bean, will give them a black one. Or, when they ask for music, you play your mixtape instead of good music. You get the idea. But the quality of the gifts you give can determine the quality of the gifts the Lord gives you. Are we not all beggars? Do we not all depend on him for everything we have?

I wholeheartedly believe the Lord knows our conditions, and he cares very much. But this is a time to prove ourselves in turbulence, and if the Lord were to take that away, our areas of growth would diminish. Often, the only way to become who we discovered we wanted to be involves trials and tribulation. Being a Christian is comforting, but it is not always comfortable.

That's why I don't complain about my conditions. True, I lament my own sins and my own choices, but I feel extremely blessed to live in this era. The Lord knows my sins better than I do. He knows how best to succor me. He can help me through my trials if I will but call upon him. But so often, I am prideful, and neglect the source of all I have to be thankful for. I wish I could overcome my obstacles. Thankfully, I won't have to do it alone.

With that said, though, I lost NNN again today the moment I saw this.