Update August 2020 · 9:38am Aug 20th, 2020
Hey all. I've been having trouble surmounting writer's block given the nature of covid quarantine. I got exposed again this month. I think I'm fine but god is it stressful since my health insurance is predicated on my father's heroin sobriety and the mobile app he's developing (a fitness based social networking site if anyone's curious) getting completed and making sales. If I get sick I am FUCKED. Also my boyfriend's been stressed too, and he has ptsd so it's exacerbating that, and I cannot focus when I know he's struggling. So all I've had the energy to do is watch youtube and twitch. I took up streaming recently but it's been very off and on, more off than on. Plowed my way through Dark Souls and god was it boringly easy and frustratingly broken, and my immense anger and disappointment is negatively impacting me on a massive scale (every boss is poorly designed and way too easy, every area is poorly designed and way too short, and everything I like is massively overshadowed by all of the shitty parts surrounding it). My depression legitimately worsened because I hate the game so much in spite of how much I wanted to love it. And that's preventing my mood from being in a writing state of mind. I'm hoping that it'll pass soon and I can just say "I think it's a bad game" and move on (if only the obnoxious fanboys will LET ME) instead of dwelling on "just a game" because wtf brain literally calm down it's like watching a mediocre movie, or reading an underwhelming book. It's whatever though. I'm fine for now and I still do have plans for my fics. It's just facing massive, massive delays. Brain broken, come back later.
Hey it’s ok just take your time Roma wasent build in a day
Hey how’s everything going on your life right now are you ok?