I am sorry! · 7:35am Apr 20th, 2020
I am sorry that I haven't been able to be online recently but it's really difficult to explain why I haven't written chapters for my stories and I suppose that I owe you guys an answer. The reason I haven't been writing is because I am not in a good mental state right now and to be honest I don't think I ever was. I always used writing as a tool to relax with but recently I have seen my life be crushed before my eyes more times then I can count and I am incredibly scared. I have tried to do everything I can but with the start of the covid 19 pandemic. My life is no longer in my control as of right now and when this thing blows over. I will have major problems finding a job and well I don't know what to do. The college I was trying to get into won't take me and I honestly have started to lose hope. I have started to play video games as a way to relax and writing is also another way. The reason I have not resulted to writing is because I know that my quality of writing will suffer and I refuse to give you guys something that isn't up to my usual quality. I have also been dealing with epilepsy problems and have been trying to work on my relationship issues with my fiance. My life is falling apart and there's nothing that I can do. I am really scared because I honestly don't know if I can keep fighting and keep going. I feel like all my friends are leaving me or just using me. I honestly don't know what to do. The best I can say is that I don't know what to do. I am trying hard but my life is taking a really bad turn and I honestly don't know who I can trust anymore. I just want to forget about all of this. I have trusted that I was born for a reason but I can't see one. I honestly don't see anyone that I have changed the lives of by being in there life. I am just pathetic and weak willed right now and I honestly don't think you guys want to see the quality of my stories begin to slip so this is the real reason I have not written any new chapters in a long time. I wish you all to be safe in this lockdown and if you read up till this point then thank you for caring enough to read through all the blog.
My friend you have nothing to apologize for. Your wellbeing is what matters. Please, focus on mending yourself. We are here to help however we can
In all seriousness, do you want me to pray for you?
there's no need to worry yourself you have more important things to think about. and you need to look after yourself, I can honestly say I've been where you are and ( it was over far less) then what your dealing with right now. I'll be praying for you, and you take your time I'll be here when you return.
You have nothing to apologize for. Look after yourself, these are troubling times for everyone, but even more so for you. Take your time, I promise we'll still be here when you return. I'll pray for you.