Pretence Hiatus · 6:13pm Jul 28th, 2019
Hello folks.
You've probably noticed that there haven't been any new chapters for a while. I'd like to say I have some sort of reason for it like life-altering things or other somesuch, but the truth is that my drive to write has reached an all time low. At least for this story.
I've spent the last month or so contemplating if I really wanna finish it, and had a few moments where I considered cancelling it, and just uploading a final chapter that described, in short, what I had planned for the rest of the story, so at the very least you guys wouldn't be left hanging completely without answers. It was... tempting to do that. It would have meant that I could move on, do other things that I wanted to do, focus on new and exciting things.
But I kept coming back to two things: The reason I started this story, and a promise I made once. I started this story because I had a story to tell. A story I was really excited about, and my most ambitious one to date, even though that doesn't seem like much. It was partially a challenge to myself, to see how far I could push myself, and later became something where I was excited to share certain bits with you. A few twists, some revelations, and just really fun and exciting scenes that I had in mind and wanted to share with the world. I still want to share those, but I don't have much drive to write it at this point in time.
And the second part, the promise to those of you who've been so patient with me and followed me in the 5 years since I began, was that I would finish this story if even if I had to break my voice using speech-to-text devices. I don't want to break that promise.
For those two reasons, I've decided to put Pretence on hiatus. I don't know how long I'll be gone, or when I'll be back. But I'm doing this to give myself some time to breathe, so I can stop feeling guilty about not writing. My hope is that I can spend some time just relaxing, and maybe planning. If I can make an outline for the rest of the story, write it before I write it so to speak, it should be that much easier for me to push through the wall ahead of me.
I hope you'll all be patient with me for a little longer.
- Kapuchu
P.S
Two things.
1 - I have a chapter sitting that's not been edited, but I was wondering if you guys wanted me to upload it anyway? I can comb through it on my own, but I'm not making any promises about how good I am at self-editing.
2 - I've started at a physiotherapist, and my wrists are better than they have been in years. So my ability to write is there, more than it was before the first big hiatus, before I started screwing up any and all upload schedule I pretended to have. So there's that 
better to pause and take your time rather than rush things through, enjoy the time off