Random Ramblings CCXC · 1:44am Jul 11th, 2018
IN WHICH I UPDATE
Who's still around? Dunno. Anyone who may still be there, enjoy some Acoustic Laura Brehm!
She recently moved to London to study. I'm happy for her, but sad for me. I wanted to see her play in Colorado. Anyway:
Within the next couple of days, I will be posting the story I wrote as a Fourth Of July gift for the President. It could have gone up earlier, but I wanted to wait until I received a yea or nay on using the perfect piece of art. The answer was yes. Also, I'm lazy.
Yeah, I've been sleeping a lot lately. Like, nearly-cat levels. It can't be my medication -- that happened when I first started it, but that was a year and a half ago. I blame the Southern Summer heat and being otherwise bored. As I'm unemployable, I don't really do much during the day as it's too hot to go to a park. At night, I try to write, but most of the time the drive just isn't there.
Sometimes, however, little sparks of inspiration come that allow bits of story to fall into place. In the case of my in-production Sonata story, it's following the arc that AMDQ did -- filling a plot hole resulted in unexpected development for a tertiary character.
I guess this is just how my brain has always worked. I don't just create a character -- I end up creating entire relationship trees. Even when I was little I did that while playing. Maybe it's because I have no siblings and my parents both worked. I had a lot of time to myself. It took quite a bit of adjusting to get used to sharing a bed with a girl… who would later dump me for reasons both legit and petty.
Technically, I guess I'm what they call an "Incel" (involuntarily celibate). But I haven't really crossed the threshold to hating women. Most of my friends are women because other men intimidate me. So do certain types of women. Anyway, I get the misogyny that comes out of the frustration, but it seems self-defeating. I'm self-defeating enough as it is, thank you.
One of the things I really want to do is rework One Does Not Deny A Lady into the non-Pony story it was originally intended to be when I wrote its treatment ten months ago. I just haven't had the drive to do it, even though I really shouldn't need to rewrite too much of it (buuut I probably will do a lot of rewriting anyway because that's how I roll). However, even if I did that, I'm still terrified to submit the story to my friend at Horror Addicts. I know I'm not good enough to go pro. Just like I wasn't good enough at my cartooning to go pro. I can legally say I'm a published artist because I was paid for my work (even if it was just a student paper and the money was just enough to fill up my gas tank -- still nice to get ANY paycheck at all; I wasn't expecting it the first time it showed up in my campus mailbox)
I have no idea where I was going with any of this. SO, I'ma try and do some more writing.
Peace out!
Hang in there, man.
And keep striving.
Your work is amazing and can totally go pro. You just gotta keep striving.
Goddamn please don't call yourself an incel. Those people are awful to women and society in general. The terms they've made up and use, the absolute ignorance they have about the human body. Their sweeping aside of women's rights. It'd be incredible if it wasn't so frustrating.
I have little contact with women outside the internet and I don't consider myself an incel. I'd hate to ever associate with those dunder heads.
I'm glad you've at least been able to get published in something more professional. I've been published before but it was years ago and I was a really young age.
Good song by the way. Very relaxing.
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I don't like the term either, nor do I like those people. I only recently read about the insanity that goes on in their corner of the internet. But, what else do you call a guy who couldn't save a long-term relationship and lacks the confidence or opportunity to try again? The only way I'm different from those knuckleheads is I can and do talk with women and have zero desire to take their rights away. Hell, I sometimes get mistaken for a girl if someone only sees me from the back.
I'm also technically a hipster despite not identifying as one. I just saw what the popular kids I hated were doing and did the exact opposite. I don't wear a trilby though (I sometimes wear an old baseball cap to avoid sunburn).
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Thank God. Trilbies are fucking awful unless you wear an actual suit and have narrow shoulders and such. I don't know what you should call yourself, but certainly not an incel. The negative connotations alone are enough to make people think twice about having anything to do with you I think.
Though ACTUALLY from what I'm aware the original meaning of the word did not have all the negativity it eventually received. I think it was actually a woman who coined the term, but I don't remember for sure.