May
8th
2018
Update · 9:35am May 8th, 2018
Hi there.
First off, apologies for the long wait for an update. Ever since I got promoted I have had to do a lot more 'adulting'. Just about got a handle on it and the 'imposter syndrome' was starting to fade when they go a promote me again! (Seriously? What the heck are 'upstairs' smoking... and can I have some?)
So yeah, my motivation to write has taken a little hit recently while I've been sorting all that out. And if that wasn't enough... I'm right in the middle of buying my first house right now.
So problems, good problems, problems that I have no right to complain about, but still problems.
Hopefully, once everything has settled down, I can get back to writing. Damned if I'm going to leave it unfinished this close to the end.
Well, don't worry too much and get things settled (seriously, get used to the new requirements for your job ) before you try to do too many different things at once, we'll still be here to see how things play out
Well, if you look at it objectively...
Impostor syndrome tends to hit people who are objectively smarter.
So, it looks like your bosses made the right choice! :D
But yes, don't feel stressed by the new responsibilities and try to do everything all at once. That's a good way to burn out, and I am sure your supervisors are expecting you to take a moment to settle in.
To cheer you up, have some XKCD. He has a comic for everything.
https://xkcd.com/1954/
https://www.xkcd.com/451/
Don't forget to read the hover-text.
Being an adult sucks. Hang in there.
It's good to hear you're okay.
I suppose it's better to play the imposter than to be seen as one, there was a time when I had just graduated from college and couldn't convince anyone I was even a high school graduate or that I had ever worked. Which is ironic in my opinion, because I'm fairly certain 'them there' higher educated lawyers that hooked up with David Koresh had to be lower on the street smart scale than I was in the third grade.
Then again, thanks to the Othello effect or Psuedodoxia Epidemica, I get asked the dumbest questions from trolls playing turn the screw. Seemingly, out of nowhere, I'm asked How tall are you during an interview or How much is a Pint? I'm 5' 9" and a teatotaller so I don't drink alchohol, but they'll want to argue with my responses regardless "What color is the sky?" if I say blue "is it blue now?" I wouldn't know (we're indoors appearently), but if I say something to the effect like "The devil wears panties" no one questions whether or not I've looked up the devil's skirt....
Shockingly, I've even convinced people that I learned how to drive from playing video games and gained expertise in visual media (you know the theater that heals mens souls, the politics of lying, and standup philosophy, investigation, marketing, and public relations/interpersonal communication, in addition to other forms of social control, deviance, and welfare) EXCLUSIVELY from watching cartoons. I'm not kidding. At first I thought maybe it was because I was lonely and they were playing along, but then I realized I could tell them I was a secret agent and no one would question it (except maybe an actual agent). Then again, I don't want 'them' (anyone) to send people to my home for being a
PSYCHOspy or double agent.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbuQg6GxGy4
Don't worry about it, life comes first and everyone here understands that. Get to a stable place, and get your head on straight again.
Everyone needs a little time from time to time.
Just a quick post to say thank you for this story.
Hope your doing OK