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kudzuhaiku


She's looking at you. Yes you. And she is judging you with her eyes. There is no escape.

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  • 50 weeks
    It's late

    But my brain isn't quiet. I'm stoned out of my goddamn gourd. Don't worry, it is just my usual regimen of drugs. That's how I spent a lot of my time now. Wasted. Doesn't really help with the pain much, but makes it a bit more tolerable. All of my drugs cost over 5 grand a month. That's what it takes to keep me going. I'm in somewhat better shape because of all of it, and there's a few bright

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  • 61 weeks
    Cyborgification is potentially a-go

    Finally found a doctor that didn't run screaming upon seeing my spine images and xrays. The team is coming together. Met with the neurosurgeon the other day, and he thinks I am an ideal candidate for augmentation. The transition is happening, I think. I still have to pass a psych evaluation and other steps, but I am closer now than ever. First I'll have the trial run; they'll sink electrodes into

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  • 90 weeks
    Today, life changes forever.


    It's been a long, long road to get to this point. A big thank you to everyone who has been with me during this journey.

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  • 91 weeks
    Big changes are happening


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  • 114 weeks
    I suppose it is time for an update

    Been meaning to this, and I've become the King of Pro-Crasty Nation. I kept wanting to report, but there was nothing to report, no good news at all, so I just... didn't. Sorry. Went a bit silent on my end. It just sorta happened.

    I finally got a lawyer willing to take up my case. After that, things started happening.

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Apr
18th
2017

Eigengrau has been released · 4:43pm Apr 18th, 2017

And I don't know if I should be proud of this accomplishment. I'm riding a pretty weird writer's high right now and I don't know what I'm feeling. I wrote a story. No, I wrote a Grecian Tragedy. Well, I wrote something, anyhow, but I don't know if people should read it. There's enough wrong in the world without me adding more.

I feel conflicted. Help.

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Comments ( 6 )

Writing a story of "it's bad but it gets better" isn't adding more wrong to the world.

4500787 It's not so much that as a complete change in comparison to the other stories of the Weedverse.

I, too, am conflicted after reading it. There will be much inner conflict. Some will turn to the Dark Side. Others will embrace the Light. But keep in mind this. Everyone, and I mean everyone will at some point need to eat something sooner or later. I might have a bowl of cereal. Or leftover lasagna.

Who knows?

I feel conflicted. Help.

I hear that writing can be therapeutic for writers. Perhaps you should explore your emotions using a creative outlet.

Like for instance another chapter maybe? :twilightsheepish:

This is so bad (in the evil sense) it's good. I feel Dim is a budding Elric of Melniboné.

I thought the first chapter was compelling. It wasn't particularly sexy, it wasn't ridiculously grim, and yet it was- the storytelling felt odd, but right. When Dim was apathetic, so was I, and when he was emotional, I was there with him. The whole thing feels very insulated and isolated, but there's always the knowledge that something else lies outside the tower. I want to see the outside world through Dim's eyes, and I want to see how the Weedverse reacts to someone who has done so much evil (though he thought/thinks it was right) and yet might have the potential to be redeemed. He's been indoctrinated into the Dark way of life, but he seems to have inklings that things aren't right, and I feel there's hope for him. I could see his story ending here, but I'd rather see Dim progress.

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