[COMMENTARY] The Valentine's Day Massacre...of my heart · 3:05pm Feb 15th, 2017
One thing about being divorced is some things hit you harder than you expected, even years after the fact.
If you've been reading "Lost Little Wolf" at all, you'll get the idea that I still am very much in love with my wife, even though her status is set to "ex-". I could go into the whys and wherefores, but I'll just point you at the YouTube video I made about it:
The first Valentine's Day post marriage in 2015 I was kinda in limbo. I was still in shock from the sudden split and the divorce papers hadn't yet been filed.
Valentine's Day 2016 I more-or-less exhausted myself. Not necessarily on purpose, I was working as Inventory Control Manager at the time, which meant long hours and lots of physical work. Emotionally satisfying and rewarding, but the end result was I was just too tired to need to deal with Valentine's stuff.
This year I stood in the same room, face to face with my ex-wife, talking about various miscellaneous stuff, going absolutely crazy because she was inventing reasons to keep me there and yet knowing I couldn't even hint at wanting to show her affection because she's still in the Denial stage and would have gone meteoric (waaaaay beyond ballistic). Eventually I just had to say, "I have to go," and walked out.
I got back to my apartment and got ready for bed, pulled out the laptop to start doing more writing for LLW...and just couldn't. Were I writing for two chapters further than I am, it might have been an appropriate writing mood, but I was suffering a sudden crushing bout of depression. I eventually just went to sleep.
So, while I prefer not to give deadlines for my work (I prefer the Bungie approach of "release when it's done" to deadlines), I figured I'd give my audience a brief peek into my life so you can see why the current "new hotness" that's bringing all the Bronies to my yard isn't exactly flying off the presses. 
Writing while stressed doesn't work out a lot of the time, you can do it while you're angry or despressed but if you force writing while you're stressed out you'll often turn out worse work than if you just waited til you calmed down.
I don't know what to say other than sorry you're going through that, man. I've relationships broken before, but I can't quite imagine losing someone like that. I hope the pain lessens for you.
4424337 Agreed.
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Thanks for your support, both of you.
4424935 You're welcome. I try to at least give a little moral support to authors on here that I enjoy.