Maybe I jumped the gun too quickly. Was my reaction too harsh? · 5:57am Oct 26th, 2016
So, to most who read it I'm sure you think I might have jumped the gun too quickly on quiting fanfiction so suddenly, cause I sure do feel that way. I actually had a hard time hitting cancel on everything like I did, and when I left to go to work it was bothering me all through the 1 hour I was there. Eventually I was told to take the week off cause my manger thought something was wrong with me cause I was way out of it for that one hour. Honestly my last blog was just a mental venting that I felt I needed and I also regret doing that now.
I'm a very emotional person and I tend to just do things on a whim. When i feel a strong surge of emotion like when I logged in today, and saw a series of comments on Firekeeper I thought today someone liked it, only to find out when the person stopped commenting. It is just a repeating process where someone reads Firekeeper and stops on discordia and that's the red flag letting me know this is going to be quiet a ride for my mental health. I never kid when I say the comments are what keeps me going, but it works both ways. Firekeeper is a perfect example of how a single "misuse" of a character can make or break a story on this site.
I don't know if its just me or what but I can''t stand that the only comments I get are from the same story and the same exact chapter. every. single. time. Am I going overboard and being to demanding of my readers? Am I being to harsh and not seeing the greener grass across the road? Should I keep writing? I mean I hardly get any useful or good comments these days, and Firekeeper is all but dead to me because of chapter discordia, but should I stop everything just because noone liked this one story except for a small few?
Is it even possible to recover from this sudden decision?
Someone throw me a bone please, cause i don't know what to do with myself at this point. I want to write I really do, but is it all worth it when all I get is one story that gets so many of my comments and it's all on how people want to stop reading because of it?
Mate what I think would be best is to
1. Rewrite or remove the Chapter if you feel it us what is killing the stpry in a sense
or
2. Just chuck it on hiatus for a bit and work on another story if you want and then come back to it when you have a clearer head
Is it possible to recover? Certainly,
Just
cross outthe last day and carry on like nothing happened.Basically, take a Mulligan.
Ehrm, hi. Me again. Not sure if you want to hear that from me, but you definitvley have talent in writing and just because I and many more were unable to follow your Fire Keeper story properly does not mean you should kill it. Because for every one of us not being able to appreciate your horsewords, there are at least two who do.
Just look at Diana. You managed to create a antagonist I hated with a burning passion just from the chapter she made her first appearance. Her actions, righteus in her own eyes, are despicable in the eyes of most readers, she in convinced she is the only hope for the world and she does not pull any punches to get to her goals. That makes her authentic, gives her life so to say and elevates her from most cookie cutter antagonists. To be able to create such a character is rare and something most writers need a long time and expierience to do it right.
The way you delve into the character of the Fire Keeper is amazing too. It would have been all to easy to portray her as a broken, subservient being that just "is" because reasons. But you made her develop, you gave her a beleivable emotional palette and made her a main character able to win the hearts of your readers with flying colors.
As for the whole Discord "fiasco". I admit that I too am a writer who thrives on the comments to my stories, so I should have forseen the possible negative impact of my words and followed my mothers creed of "If you don´t have something nice to say, it can be better to keep your trap shut". I dare to say I know the feeling of "having missued a character" or "inserted one I should not have" too deep in my story. It happens and it can break your will as an writer but I honestly believe that you are not at fault here. If someone yells in your face "But X is Y and can not be Z because reasons", just point out that THIS is YOUR headcannon and you will use it as you see fit. There is allways the option to go read something else for those who dislike your ideas.
It is certainly possible to come back from the funk. Just put the story in hiatus for a while, do something else or nothing at all. Fire Keeper is a good story, even if I am not able to properly enjoy it and I am more than certain it deserves a second chance.
A last piece of my mind, if you would. It is something I learned long ago and it helps me today still. You are doing all this writing first and formost for yourself, and only yourself. You do not need to bend yourself over backwards to please a crowd. If someone, like myself, is not able to appreciate your work, just nod politley, smile and tell us to go read something else. You have fans who love your stories and even just one truly dedicated fan is worth more than a hundret philistines who fail to see the beauty of your work.
That said, I apologize if I sounded hypocritical at some point and hope your story Fire Keeper will once again rise from the ashes. It deserves it.
Yours,
a premature and apologetic Schrödingers Katze
I'm gonna say you are not alone. When I first got on this site, I was given so many comments about every single little thing, its stupid. This site is very very very cruel. I've wanted to quit a ton of times and mainly with my two best stories due to comments. In the end, its your choice. I say no and keep going because you won't improve otherwise. At least, that's my opinion.
4271810 Funny you should say that cause I technically did have it on hiatus, it just happened that everything I decided to work on it this happened. Coincidence? Maybe, but I think after reading what people had to say about my... reaction, I think you and all of them are right. I should keep going. I don't know why I let this bother me so much. I've lost readers before in my first two Trixie fics, but that never stopped me before and I was too upset to realize that some people actually do read Firekeeper past that chapter... as the comments section showed after I canceled it.
I never really thought about how the characters were received before. I don't know if it's flattery or what not but what you said about Diana and Loreane (Firekeeper name cause I got tired of writing like that) that's wt I wish I had more of. Constructive criticism. Now if only I could find the little things I could improve, aside from grammar and Discord, but hey I'm just glad you read the story at all. I just wish I hadn't been caught on a bad day was all. I should really know better than to do that. But after mulling it over I do understand why people reacted that way to the story, I just wish it didn't happen so often. I read everything else you wrote and I accept your apology though it's not really your fault. Depending on the order you read my responses if at all, I can understand why you won't want to, I don't blame you for my reaction it was just you caught me on a bad day and I overreacted. So for that I'm sorry.
Funny that sounds like my friend Texus. My good German friend. He's always backed me up no matter what happens.
Also friends?
PS I accidentally corrected your comment out of habit. Sorry.
Guess there's a little twilight in all of us.
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There is a bit of purple CDO horse in all of us, indeed.^^
That little bit is something my homeroom teacher told me back in school. Geeze, do I own that woman a lot.
Ya, I know the feeling and you know what? I´d like to be friends. That makes one more German friend for you my dear Zalla.
Auf die Freundschaft, hoch die Tassen. [To friendship, let´s drink.] Damnit, why is there no Drink emoticon?
4272178 No drinking emote cause rate E - no drinking zone.
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What is so wrong with a mug of good old apple cider? Geeze, it would even fit with the whole MlP theme.^^
4271776 best advice I'e heard in a long time.
Sorry for the late reply. glad to hear from you even if it was just me being a CDO emotional wreck.