Fillyswap is cancelled · 11:10pm Dec 29th, 2015
Okay I finally did it. Fillyswap's dead.
Fillyswap was my second story. Hot off the tail of my first story (which was really unexpectedly successful), I thought I'd try a seat-of-your-pants style writing experience, where I only sort-of know what's gonna happen but mostly making it up on the fly.
Some authors are great at that. Me? Not so much. In my mind, chunks of great story material are constantly whirling around and inspiring me, but putting the pieces together is something I find really difficult. I've started more stories than I'll ever finish because of that. The only stories I ever finish are the ones where all the pieces happen to have fallen into place perfectly.
So that's one of the problems with Fillyswap. I don't have all the chunks and I don't have the glue to put them all together.
The other main problem was my OCD, which hit me really hard over the last three years. I'm doing better - much better - now, but that was one reason why I left the story dangling for so long. I always thought that my failure to progress was just due to my anxiety disorder, and that one day I'd be able to come back to it, when I was better. But even after all this time, I've never found myself able to make any headway with it, and I'm fooling myself if I think that it will in the future. So, it's cancelled.
It's always amazed me how much people enjoyed the fic, and I truly appreciate all the comments and praise that people have given me for it (which is a third reason why I left it dangling - I really wanted to finish it for you guys!). But this is how it is.
Thanks,
hawthornbunny
Oh... okay.
I understand.
Can you at least link us what you had written that's un-published?
Just wanted you to know I totally saved that quote. The story could have ended there and I would have had a good laugh.