WAT · 3:10pm Jul 27th, 2012
Do you see this pony? 
No. You don't. She's not a pony. She is a Goddamned Eldritch force of nature, a fucking being of the world before sanity was invented. Pinkie Pie is like some sort of daemon, only pinky and fluffy.
"I also don't want to kill things. I'm kinda an anti-daemon."
Like an angel?
"Oh, heck no! They're so boring and mean and scary, almost as much as demons! No no, I'm just saying, I am, but I'm not. But I'm not not, and I am too."
Dear God in Heaven, why does that make sense to me?
"You know why."
I'm afraid. I'm so very afraid. And giddy. I can feel her amusement, her laughs are like bubbles of energy drifting up my spine, only to pop along my shoulders and in my skull, making me jittery.
"I'm pretty sure that's the caffeine making you jittery."
How about a few moments ago when YOU PUT DISCORD INTO A JAR?
"He's only a little bit in a jar."
WHY DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?
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Okay, alright. Enough existential angst about whether or not I'm truly insane or just indulging myself, because right now? I'm not too sure anymore... Thank you God, for generic Xanax.
Speaking of which, had a bit of non-pony related mental issues. No, Pinkie was not the cause. If anything, she did try to help, and did help. It's why I haven't gone to a full pshrink yet, because so far she's been a big help and relief. But seriously, it's been hard to write as I've had some terrible anxiety attacks lately, hence the Xanax from my GP. However, I've been getting more inspired lately, both for ASMD and Falling Stars. I'm thinking of finishing the former, though, before updating the latter, so I can stop feeling like I'm splitting my attention too much.
So long story short: I'm not right in the head. At all. But I'm a wee bit better and still writing. Sorry I haven't delivered so far, because I really hate it when I do this whole "I want to write- OOH SHINY STORY!" Thing. Then I read all the other cool fanfics and I feel inadequate because GORRAMIT they make it look so easy and have such good ideas and why do I suuuucckk?!
....So yeah. Just... Need some time.
And sleep.
And some alcohol to help me forget about the mental image of a C'thulu-esque Pinkie Pie shoving Discord into a jar.
Wat.
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TL;DR: I achieved a sideways level of consciousness perpendicular to reality.
If you understood that, join the club. A few more and we can get T-shirts made.
Don't worry, you're not alone. I'm crazy as well.
Downside: Author is crazy.
Upside: Most of the best writers and artists of all time were beyond batshit crazy.
Conclusion: More awesome stories
Dont push yourself over the edge take time when needed, and as for felling inadequate you gotta do to get better and so far falling star is a great storie, just keep at it and take critisism when it is given...in a good and helpful manerOh and hers a pinkie to stalk you.''''
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Rokas...
I just want you to know... that if you are ever institutionalized against your will... you have fans that will break you out. Then throw you a party.
253325 Again, I will say the precious, most unused words, one should never say to an author.
Wat.
253352 As long as they give him a computer, I'm fine with him being... Institutionalized.
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Hey now... if you follow the author, you better damn well be ready to bail him out of these kinds of situations.
Sanity is for the weak!
253369 ....Hmmm... I shall get my arsenal ready! prepare the Machine guns! Ready the Howitzers! Load the Rocket Launchers! Mwhahahahahahah!
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You got an excellent setup there. All I can manage to scrap together is a marginally effective fighting force of honey badgers.
253486 Together, We shall do everything in our power for good! Hahahahah! I wonder if anyone here has some tanks...
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Tanks? What the hell do we need tanks for?! Rokas has the Dark Horse!
... But that begs the question, would he even need us then?
253495 Well, seeing as the author might have a... shall we say, high chance of insanity, they might put him in a high security hospital, with daemons and Satan as the warden.... We could be the distraction, taking the normal guards out, while he faced Satan to free our benefactor!
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Hmmm, well then. I am with you!
Of course, I'll be right behind you.
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That was an adorable exchange.
255516Indeed. I am amused.
The Pink One Laughs With You.
Always.