Must Currently Be Holding Breath in Anticipation · 4:00am Mar 22nd, 2015
Holy crap. It's been over a year since Dark Spectrum came out, and yet here I am, still without a sequel. I'm sorry, guys, I really am. I beat myself up (figuratively) over it every time I think about it. I've just been having a very hard time figuring out exactly what details to include. I had plans for two more stories before I even released the first one, but my ideas started to shift a bit after release. People started talking about what they wanted to see, and it made me start to reevaluate my ideas. I had no idea what to write anymore, and I couldn't decide for the longest time. I need to just dump all my notes and start over, just picking a path and running with it, for better or worse. The first story was a risk in the first place, I knew that going in. I'm revamping my notes right now (for the third time). I just hope I can get it finished because...
More generally, I'm still mostly in the throes of writer's block and depression. I finished up one short fic, which should be released soon, but it's very hard for me to get anything done, these days. I'm gonna try, though. It's been way too long since I got anything done on Dark Spectrum II, but I'm gonna try.
Have a nice day. Boots, out.
My first vote. Stop. Have a cup of tea, get some hugs, pet a dog, whatever makes you happy. Don't beat yourself up for not feeling like writing. Inspiration can be hard to come by. Sure, more ponywords from you is great, but if you're making yourself miserable to write them? I don't want em. Have the enjoyment to me of fanfic is that the authors are as passionate as the readers. Everyone has fun.
I'd be more eloquent but I'm sorta super sick.
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Oh, I'm miserable anyway, partly because I have such a hard time writing anything, anymore. Writing has been one of my favorite things to do for a long time. Thing is, though, I wasn't always like this. There was a period where I was at the very least fairly content, and I wrote quite a bit. I had the drive, I had the passion, I had the power. I wrote a fair few stories. But what I didn't write was the sequel to what has always been my most popular story. It's been responsible for maybe a third of my followers over the last two years, and most importantly, it was a project I really liked and really wanted to continue. I just spent my time writing other stuff instead, and I always kinda felt I was letting some people down, including myself. You're right, though, of course. I shouldn't dwell on it, or feel bad. They're only stories, after all. Just disappointed in myself, is all.
I'll just write what I can, when I can. I can only prioritize so much, and mostly have to just go with what ideas currently excite me. Gotta follow the passion when I have it. I know I'm in the throes of burnout, and that I should step away, but I just don't feel like doing anything, these days. I'll get through it, though. I've survived a lot of things, and this will be no exception. Thanks.