Rant and stuff · 1:01am Dec 30th, 2014
Hate to do this, but I really have nowhere else to go with this and it's weighing heavily on my mind.
What's it all about, Alfie?
Is it worth it? Lately I've been pretty disillusioned with my writing. When I have the free time, I work my ass off to try to write as best I can and provide a story worth reading; one you can lose yourself in, care about the characters, and hopefully remember more than five minutes after you've finished it.
I just...I'm not a fame seeker or anything, but I don't really get much feedback one way or the other, and it's REALLY starting to bother me. I feel like I'm writing into a black hole. Especially since I've spend a large part of the last two years co-writing on a story that practically no one knows I'm working on, and on which I've busted my ass.
So, is it worth it anymore? I'm really tired. I enjoy writing and creating, and seeing characters do stuff that makes me go "Oh WOW!" I can even enjoy re-reading my own stuff (even if it makes me cringe sometimes). But fan fiction seems to be the bastard child of any fandom; all the glitz and attention goes to animation and music, and I'm out here twiddling my...ahem. Lately, I've just considered saying the hell with it and letting other folks put stuff out there and spending my free time perusing their work (and yes, I do leave comments when possible).
I intend to finish my current projects that are still floating around out there, but beyond that...I really don't know, dude.
I figure its always worth writing, given that it is both a creative outlet to you as well as a hobby that you enjoy. You put your heart and soul into your work - like so many unrecognized writers, artists and composers. The unfortunate reality is that feedback is extremely difficult to obtain unless you reach out and poke people for it, or have one of those stories that gains umpteen billion reads. That and people tend to fear giving honest feedback.
So I guess the crux of the matter (as so far as I can see at least) is to hang in there, work on your existing works, and just make up the rest of it as you go along. :)
2687689 Truth, thou speakest. :) I really do enjoy writing, for the simple fact that a lot of times I don't know everything that's gonna happen, or even how things will turn out most of the time; I usually start with an image and run with it. So I'm kinda reading along with everyone else, I just happen to find out first.
I hate poking for feedback for the simple fact I don't wanna be a pain in the ass (despite what some might think). I do agree with your point, however.
I intend to finish everything I've started, and then take a massive break. I have a lot of lines out there, and I think I just need to scale back and focus on one thing at a time.
Thanks for listening to me whine, dude.
Come on, D. I know that what I can say isn't really as good as as Leo, but:
You can only write for yourself. The audience should always be the author. If you enjoy writing, then do it because you enjoy it. If you don't, then stop. I will never hold anything against you, D, cause you're basically my best friend on the internet; but that doesn't mean I want to see you stop writing. There's a certain twinkle in your voice that you get when you have a good idea, or whenever something unexpected happens. I want you to keep that, but if you really need to stop writing, then I can't and wont stop you.
I'll be on skype tomorrow if you want to talk about it.
I can't say much else than what've been said, but, well, for what it's worth; You're good at what you're doing!
A break at some point sounds like a valid idea, though, if you're feeling like this. Don't burn yourself out for us, the readers; write because you want to, not because you 'have' to.
