525,600 Minutes · 7:00pm Jan 23rd, 2013
To those who got the reference and are now incapable of not singing the RENT soundtrack, I am truly sorry. But it's been a year to the day since I joined this site, apparently, and it feels like I've accomplished a lot... but also incredibly little.
I'm not going to make this dramatic since part of that "incredibly little" I accomplished was amassing an incredibly little number of people who know I exist, much less care, but I did want to say thanks to those who do. Don't get me wrong, I don't particularly want any sort of fame for what I do, because I fear the day I wake up and groan about "having" to write, or "having" to edit. If it becomes just a job, then it loses all its joy.
But, my pointless emotions aside, our editors group is expanding at a rate I'd hardly expected, due in no small part to some generous publicity by Shadowflash, probably the classiest person on the planet. If we continue expanding like this, there may come a time when we need to acquire a third editor to supplement our own efforts. This prospect excites me as much as it terrifies me, and I'm definitely glad that the tiny little community we tried to build didn't flop and descend into oblivion like I'd feared.
It's a bit late to be making New Year's Resolutions, I know, but I've decided that I'm going to stop hurling all my effort at a hopeless pipe dream and branch out a bit. I'll still try to write Unlikely Story when I have time - I put way too much work into the planning phases to just let it die - but after the better part of a year spent spinning my wheels without ever finding an ounce of traction, I'm going to try and write some smaller things. I've got one idea already, but even its initial premise is still rough at this point. Beyond that, I'm going to try and write a few other shorter things, too, because I do miss the art of writing my own stories greatly and every day I wake up and realize I've still not accomplished anything, it hurts.
I know, I've been taking a bit of a turn for the depressed side of things as of late, but once I get done beating myself up and actually produce something... I'm hoping I'll be able to turn my pathetic excuse of a life as a brony around and actually contribute something to this community I love so deeply.
Also, [Blank] turned one year old today, as far as this site goes. I actually wrote it at a painfully slow pace fraught with setbacks (sound familiar?) which finished up around November, 2011. "Fix up the ending" has been on my to-do list since the day I uploaded it here, and maybe I'll actually get around to that, too. Who knows. This isn't the first time I've constructed grand plans for the future, and it wouldn't be the first time I failed miserably.
But, despite all the stuff I'd wish had gone differently, I am content. It wasn't too long ago I hid in a darkened room and wrote stuff I never shared with anyone, but now I actually do feel like I've contributed to something. Editing's a lot of fun, I'm working with people I respect and love greatly, and I actually do see a path forward that doesn't involve decades of work for something that's destined to fail anyway. Thanks to those who have provided moral support.
Here's hoping 2013 is a great and productive year for everyone.
*sigh* I feel the same sometimes, "Am I going faster than before? Am I going fast enough? I don't really know what I'm doing, but it'll pay off eventually." Well... uh, I guess I wish you all well in the future (sorry, I'm no good at these personal emotion things)
I know how that is, Ally. I had my fifteen minutes of fame and then dropped of the face of the internet for about four months. I still enjoy our editing group though. Happy FIMMFiction birthday my friend.
Maybe I can get Molestia to give you a visit...
743339 Me either. I only made it because I felt obligated to once I saw the calendar. Thanks for the support, friend.