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Clockwork2003


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  • 1 week
    Mental Health Update: April 19, 2024

    Hello everyone, Noah here.

    First, happy birthday, Mom! You turn 47 today. I wouldn't be where I am today without you. I love you so much.

    My depression is, well its not worse, but it hasn't really improved that much. I've been sporadically posting on X.com and my discord server, but I am trying to get chronic tech dependency under control. My therapist thinks I can do it.

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  • 4 weeks
    Mental Health Update: 3/27/24: Back in the Nick of Time

    Hey, everyone. Noah here.

    I caused a bit of a ruckus three days ago, when I said that I'm leaving fimfiction for good. I just wanted to pop in and let everyone know that I am okay.

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    2 comments · 60 views
  • 5 weeks
    Mental Health Update: 3/24/24: Goodbye Clock?!

    Before anyone freaks out, no, I am not attempting suicide a third time!

    Now that this disclaimer is out of the way, I wanted to let everyone know that my psychiatrist told me to delete each and every one of my socials permanently, if I am to keep my mental health in check.

    Depression and anxiety suck, and being online has made some symptoms worse.

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  • 6 weeks
    Mental Health Update: Pi Day 3/14/24

    Helll everyone, Noah/Clock here.

    My mental health is meh, but the bigger issue is that I had gastro today, and I threw up.

    I'm also going to see a new mental health counsellor next week to help mitigate my depression and tech addiction.

    Glim fic revised chapter 1 will drop tomorrow.

    Take care

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  • 7 weeks
    Mental Health Update March 11, 2024

    Hello everyone, Noah/Clockwork here.

    Sunday went quite well. I went out for coffee with a friend today, and I got to baby-sit my two cousins. 8/10 mental health stability.

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Nov
3rd
2023

Serious Update: Second Suicide Attempt · 1:56am Nov 3rd, 2023

Good evening,

Some of you might already know this, but on Tuesday, I tried to end my own life, for the second time. The first time I tried was six years ago, when I was 14. I took a bunch of sleeping pills, but thankfully not enough to kill me. I spent a good 40 hours in the emergency psychiatric ward until I was discharged earlier this afternoon.

My suicide attempt on Tuesday was a desperate cry for help, and thankfully it was heard.

I got my medication adjusted at the hospital, so hopefully my second attempt will be my last.

Call 988 if you live in the US and need help. It could save your life.

I went 6 years without trying again. Hopefully I won't ever be so desperate in the future. The Israel-Chamas war pushed me over the edge.

I love you all. Stay kind. I'm getting the help I need, and I will be okay.

I'll be okay. I promise.

Clockwork

Comments ( 4 )

Glad you made it through it. Stay safe and well.

Things get rough, but just never forget that even in the darkest hours. Light in life is all around us, stay safe k?

Ever need a talk, just ask.

:applecry: I'm glad that you survived. I'm free if you want to talk to anyone.

glad you're safe. I also had done two suicide attempts and the first attempt, god was the one who got me out. I was in a depression, I thought the world hates me but god convinced me otherwise, he told me it will get better... and it did!!!! The second attempt, my dad stopped me from jumping from a bridge. God wasn't there in this case because he knew that I wouldn't jump

yet again, I'm glad that you're safe

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