Figuring Things Out · 3:31am Feb 16th, 2023
Hallo, everyone. I thought it might be a good idea to keep you all in the know as to where the writingses of Azure the Slow are. To get it out of the way, no, I'm not stopping or going on break again. Though, I guess I technically am on a break? Just not the same kind of break. Anyway, let me explain.
I've talked about this a little bit before, but it came to a head when I was writing the final scene in chapter 14. The first draft was... lackluster to say the least, and this particular scene needs to be the opposite. I think I tried to subconsciously convince myself that it was fine because I got back from a big break and some big life changes and I was merely being overly critical. So I revised it, but, again, it still wasn't right. Then I realized, I'm not writing the same way I used to and I can't seem to get back into that mindset.
In the earlier chapters of Unending Love, I wrote in what I liked to call an "emotive" way. I liked to try to put myself in my character's horseshoes and feel what I thought they would feel. Such a method seemed to help me write more natural actions and dialogue. However, in the last several months, I haven't been able to get into that headspace. In fact, I don't think I've been able to get there since chapter 10 or maybe even chapter 9. So, I'm not taking a break, per se, but I am actively trying to get this... block figured out. And when I say actively, it's actually one of the things I'm working on with my therapist.
So, while I could push through this not-quite writer's block and write whatever ends up coming out, I don't think it would be right. It wouldn't be fair to you, it wouldn't be fair to me, and it definitely wouldn't be fair to our beloved characters. I'm going to continue making efforts towards the chapters while I figure this out, but I'm not going to publish until I think each chapter is worthy of the quality I know is there somewhere.
As always, thank you much for your patience. We'll get there some day. I promise.
You know you have my patience. At least you let us know. Keep polishing that crazy diamond.
Do whatever you need to do. I hope things go well for you.
I’m still grateful for what you’ve written so far so I can’t complain if you hon on a break. Do what you gotta do.
Uh, that's probably because your story has way more characters to interact with now. At least I think that would make it harder to keep the story/writing in the head(s) of the main characters when there are so many minor characters to talk to, and those minor characters talking amongst themselves.
I mean; Unchanging Love was mostly just two characters interacting with each other, and Unending Love started the same way, but the 'cast' has expanded since then so I wouldn't expect the story's pacing to stay the same.
Don't worry about it too much.
(I hope any of that made sense.)
thanks for the update!
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Thank you very much! I appreciate you all sticking through despite all the delays.
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It does make sense and that could certainly be a part of it! There are some other aspects in my life that are candidates as well, which a therapist is quite helpful with uncovering! Thank you for the votes of confidence and the consistent messages after every chapter.
Dedication to quality above all is to be commended.
Has your therapist read any of your story? Just curious.