"It's Pinkie's turn, I have to go now!" I said as a last resort out of desperation to get out of that house.
Maybe it wasn't all the great things I had thought when I first approached it.
"Oh! I guess your time is up then. Thanks for stopping by to visit, Pinkamena!" Fluttershy said in a cheerful voice to me in response to my interruption of her rambling about her animals.
I breathed a sigh of relief.
"I'll see you later, Fluttershy." Weariness was evident in my voice, but she didn't seem to notice it.
"Goodbye!" She waved a hoof and smiled as I opened the front door and closed it behind me.
As soon as the door was closed I sprinted away from the cottage as fast as possible.
'I'm never asking that question again...'
Of course, pretty soon I was breathing hard and had to slow down. For some reason I just couldn't make my body do the extreme things Pinkie could do. We were both in the same body, so how does that even work!?
Rubbing the sweat off my forehead I stopped on the outskirts of town to catch my breath.
When I saw the large clock on the tower at the school, I realized I hadn't been far off. My turn was almost over.
Turning back to town, I scrunched up my nose at the thought of going back through the busy market, even if it would be less populated now that it was the evening.
'I was only going to go back to Sugarcube Corner anyways...'
Biting my lower lip and looking up in thought while I tried to make a decision, I nodded and addressed the pony in my head that had been nice enough to be silent for me during my turn.
'Pinkie, you know what I was thinking about. You wanna take over now?'
'Sure! But you shouldn't be so afraid of other ponies. All my other friends are nice too!'
My head shook and I sighed. 'That's not the problem...'
I went through the now familiar act of swapping control with my counterpart, and right away my straight hair poofed up, and I lost control of anything but my own thoughts.
"Sugarcube Corner, here I come!" Pinkie immediately started her usual method of getting around, bouncing, and I right away got a bit disoriented.
'I will never get used to that as long as I live...'
I kept to myself while she hummed happily and bounced into town.
Of course, now that she was in control, I was assaulted by her very fast thought process.
Now, I'm not sure how other ponies see her, but she's admittedly not as dumb as she lets on. More...naive, and uncaring.
If there was something even slightly negative, she preferred to shift her mind off of that and only think of happy things.
Maybe it just had to do with her being the happy, optimistic side of what we were...supposed to be.
I still couldn't get over that. It was easy to forget. But someone as hyperactive, annoying, and crazy as her was supposed to be the same pony as me?
I couldn't deny it, though, since despite the absurdity it made a lot of sense when I thought about what caused this split in the first place.
"Hi Pinkie Pie!"
An Earth Pony was standing in front of 'us', looking a bit awkward.
"I was just wondering...if the rumours about you were true."
Ah. That was why. Well it's a good thing for me I had given Pinkie control, then. I certainly wouldn't want to have to have talked to any other ponies than my few friends.
Pinkie gasped. "I'm not a chocolate thief, I swear! That was just a story Rainbow Dash made up!" She had genuine worry in her voice.
And being able to hear her thoughts, I could testify to the fact she did miss the point.
"Um...no, that's not what I meant..." Her misassumption seemed to have made things even more awkward.
"I was wondering about...um, the stories about you having another pony in your head."
Pinkie Pie giggled. "Ooooh, that! I didn't know ponies thought they were rumours!" She nodded rapidly. "Yup, yup! Pinkamena is with me everywhere I go!"
"R-Really!? That's so cool!"
Cool? How was it cool? I personally hated it.
"C-Can I see for real?" The question was asked in a timid voice.
And the instant it was asked I heard Pinkie's thoughts on the matter.
'No, Pinkie, don't!'
"Sure!" She grinned and her hair suddenly fell flat.
And I suddenly found myself the one actually there, thrust into a situation I would've given anything to not be in.
"Wow!" The Earth Pony was staring in awe at me, and I crouched down, mane covering my face to make me feel safer.
And then my ears twitched as I heard murmurs about me.
Stares were on me.
They were staring.
Everyone around me.
"I've never heard of any earth ponies that can just make their hair go flat or change personalities just like that! It really is true! So, you're... Pinkamena?"
They were talking about me.
Whispering.
Staring.
I couldn't run, I couldn't get out of this!
I wanted to go back! To the safety of my mind!
I shuddered in anxiety as my heart started beating faster and my breathing became laboured.
They were closing in on me! I was surrounded! There were ponies everywhere!
Judging me!
Staring!
EVERYONE WAS STARING!
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Pinkie Pie's POV
Why was 'Mena panicking? All my friends just wanted to meet her!
Nothing she was thinking about made sense. No ponies were closing in on her! They were just smiling with that same kind of smile Twilight gets when she discovers something!
After only a few seconds I suddenly found myself being the one controlling our body.
Was she really that scared? I thought she just needed to be the center of attention to cure her of her silly fears. After all, she'd realize that there's nothing to be afraid of that way, right?
Well, anyways, I blinked and stood upright again.
"Don't worry about her, she's just shy!" I smiled.
Then I realized my eyes were watery.
Weird. I hadn't cried or anything! Maybe there were onions being cut nearby.
"That's so awesome! I gotta go tell everyone!" Just like that, she was gone.
I continued my bouncing and humming towards Sugarcube Corner. I enjoyed making 'Mena smile, but it was hard always being so quiet for her! So I was happy to get to do whatever I wanted to do now.
And that thing I wanted to do was go eat sweets!
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Sighing happily, I snuggled down in my bed and turned the lights off.
"Goodnight, Gummy!" I said with a yawn as I patted the little alligator on his head.
Closing my eyes, I relaxed and let myself drift off to dreamland.
Though I did wonder why I hadn't heard a peep from good ol' 'Mena ever since we were back in the market.
Oh, well. She was a quiet pony, she didn't talk much. She also got into deep thought a lot, so maybe that was just it.
This evening had kind of felt like the time before she had taken control for the first time. Just me, my mind, and happy activities!
Besides, I'd get to talk to her face to face tonight, like we always did.
I just had to fall asleep...
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"Hiya, 'Mena!" I said cheerfully once in the really dark place that I always went to for some reason now when I went to sleep.
I kind of missed my fun dreams, but at least this way me and 'Mena could actually see each other!
"...'Mena?" I looked around, confused. Where was she? Normally she'd be here by now.
My ears twitched and I turned towards a direction I thought I heard sobbing.
"Pinkamena...?"
I walked slowly towards the sound, and I gasped when I saw the other pink pony sitting down and leaning forwards, mane draped down around her, and sobbing. I could even see the tears fall down into the black-ness!
"'Mena!" I ran towards her quickly. Something was wrong! I needed to help cheer her up!
*CLANG*
I slammed straight into the nothing that was in front of me blocking my way.
"H-Huh?" I reached a hoof forwards and I felt something that felt like a wall...made of glass?
But it wasn't there. So it was nothing. But it was also something.
It was a something-nothing.
I pushed against the something-nothing while I heard more sobbing. Pinkamena was facing away from me so she didn't see me.
"'Mena! What's wrong!?" I couldn't get through the something-nothing! And she didn't answer me. Did she not hear me?
I could hear her, so she had to be able to hear me, right?
"'Mena!" I banged on the something-nothing, but it wouldn't move.
She fell onto her face and kept crying, which nearly broke my heart. I couldn't stand to see anyone so sad, especially not one of my best friends!
"Pinkamena!" I yelled worriedly and tried my absolute hardest to get through to her...but it didn't work, and soon I was sitting down, leaned forwards, all sad like she was.
"'Mena...why can't I help you...what's wrong...?"
Poor 'Mena...
And well , Pinkie is still as uncaring as ever I see. (True to the show version then. She tend to be cruel without meaning it...)
Oh , you don't know how much I wanted to punch Pinkie at this point.
This is going to become ugly pretty quickly isn't it ?
5979275 Yeah, the trope is called 'Innocently Insensitive'.
She's caring, just acting on it in the wrong way X3
Depends on your definition of 'ugly'
Oh Pinkie... why can't you rethink some things..?
5979302 Because she doesn't like thinking deeply?
5979307
But she has to be able to think deeply otherwise she couldn't out how to make everypony smile!
5979318 well having a good memory doesn't involve thinking deeply (trust me, I have an insanely good memory and I think deeply a lot, but rarely do I mix the two). Doesn't mean she never thinks deeply, though. It's just, the deeper you think, the more you're gonna be upset usually. You're more prone to bad thoughts that way.
Looks like they will need Twi help after all.
5979413 wait, really? What for? I never thought about Twilight in this equation yet XD
5979416
She offered to cure both of them earlier in this same story.
5979439 oh you mean that. Well I'm not sure what merging them has to do with that...but I guess it is a fact that when ponies in Ponyville have problems they go to Twilight, for...some...reason...? ._______.
5979452 I suggest possibly tossing Nurse Redheart into this equation.
5979647 eh not much of a fan of the not main characters. I'm still getting used to writing anyone other than Pinkie Pie honestly XD
Not gonna deny it'd probably be fitting, but I have other plans with this whole situation already. I'll just be cryptic and say...you're not too far off.
loved i need more but take youre time o have a pancake
5979668 I had a bit of difficulty understanding your comment at first...
5979682 srry i was saying love the story i cant wait for more of its very good
5979690 Oh thanks! Yeah I got that after I read it like twice. It's just you use continuous sentences. Usually it's okay but...
5979713 i know sorry im not typeing on a keyboard
5979741 Ooooh. I can see why you don't want to bother then. I know typing on my tablet is a pain, so I can imagine.
5979744 very very ture but im typeing on a ps vita
5979755 Ah I see. I guess it's pretty much the same thing in terms of typing.
5979765 way harder trust me
5979770 Well you respond very fast for having a hard time typing so I'm impressed :3
5979796 thx it puts up old words ive type before so thats way
5979452
Twilight is still the best option hey have.
5979883 Well, maybe, but we'll see what happens :3
Huh. Well I feel bad saying this but it's nice to know there are others with panic attacks and problems with people then
Me. Yay panic buddies!
5980019 well I'm not as bad as pinkamena is here anymore, but yeah. And a large percentage of people have at least a bit of social anxiety.
5980809 I get twitchy and nervous. The bigger the crowd the worse it is. Except amusement parks for some reason. I don't even ride the rides. Oh and I have problems sleeping at night. I randomly get panic attacks if I try to sleep at night. It feels like someone's touching me all over my body. So I sleep during the day.
5980900 The anxiety parts you explained aren't uncommon, but that second part is a bit odd. Hmm. It's either your situation, or maybe you have a neurological disorder? Just a guess.
I have Bipolar Disorder and Asperger's Syndrome myself, actually.
5980924 You like potatos a lot! Because they are random.
I wish I could return the favour of all your randomness but I'm not good enough ;__;
And don't worry, you'll see what happens soon enough, my updates don't take that long :3
5980941 I slowed down time. Now I have 0.3 weeks.
5980952 no. :)
5980906 I might have aspurger's my mom never really got 100% confirmed. She did get "mentally unstable" , "lose grip on reality" , and ADHD confirmed.
5981120 okay ADHD diagnosed is proper, the other 2 things aren't.
And as for Asperger's well it's really common these days so I wouldn't be surprised.
5981130 well the shrink's words were nicer but that's what it boiled down too.
5981733 oh.
*Explodes with rage at Manic*
You do NOT just throw someone who literally just spent hours talking about social anxieties into a situation where they are the subject of attention. I mean... (I mashed my keyboard a few times in anger, then deleted it because it looked stupid.) This is one of those rare times where I want to beat the everlasting hell out of a happy character.
Oh, and why would anyone, especially a friend of Flutter Shy, think that forcing a friend's fear on them unexpectedly and without their consent is a good idea?
Me mashing the keyboard:
5982736 oookay, that video is a bit disturbing...
Um, it's logical in an illogical way.
See, most fears, such as this one, are irrational fears. So Pinkie is doing what would logically be the answer. Unfortunately, that's not how fears work.
If you're trying to say she's OOC, I do believe you're wrong...
5982827 No, why I'm mad is because she's in OOC. The only part that actually makes me mad about her is her ineptitude in helping around fears and exacerbating them in the worst ways.
Considering Mena is in an unnatural circumstance (D.I.D.), I find it perfectly logical to be paranoid. Especially because of her past experiences of interaction.
In that sense, she is a bit like FlutterShy; she doesn't deal with sudden social anxiety well.
5982846 in OOC? I think you mean In character.
And I see. Yeah.
Although this technically isn't D.I.D, and isn't meant to be...
Oh and I'm basing Pinkamena's social anxieties off of my own.
5982866 Well, In and out cancel out which results in my meaning being she's character.
Uh, okay. I'll go with that.
My main social anxiety comes up with any physical contact, no matter who it is or where. Family or friends. I've given people bruises with my reactions to it. Most of the time I stop short and give them a severe warning, heart still racing and quite pissed. The only time I don't freak out is when I see it coming and I've prepped myself for it. I'm like a scared animal, now that I think of it. Weird.
5982883 Oh. Well I don't like being touched either, part of my asperger's syndrome, I can't stand it. So I know how you feel...just not as extreme.
Oh, so that's what a panic attack is. I had minor social anxiety. VERY minor, but I always thought it was shyness. Good thing I'm not that social. Good luck with the story! I'm still loving it!
5989402 Thanks! I'm glad you like it! ^_^
Yeah I only remember one panic attack (many are a blur or were too long ago).
I remember my heart beating furiously, a cold dread sweeping over me, and then I collapsed and cried my eyes out. Luckily I had a friend on skype who helped me through it.
5989478 You are welcome me fwend!
That sound horrible... Darn it, I have no idea what to say. If I could, I'd try and help you, but you said most of it was in the past. I'm glad you are okay...
5989498 Well I have Bipolar Disorder and Asperger's Syndrome, so it makes sense I'd have those problems.
But yeah, things are better for me now ^_^
5989599 Yay! I'm happy for you! (I feel like an idiot...)
5989605 don't feel that way, it's often people don't know what to say XD
5989616 I myself am not socially anxious anymore(Like I said, I used to be a very minor case), more like socially awkward... I only have one friend, and I don't talk to her that much.
I just don't like people to much. I feel paranoid, and don't trust them.(The Brony community is an exception)
Oh gosh, I'm rambling...
5979307 Just a question but when will there be another upload of this story. I just read it and it was quite a bit like me, I have three personalities and they co-existe but don't change (that's phisically impossible, just from what I know). I have social enxierty but don't have panic attacks and mostly try to avoid as much as possible while being hipper active but have major mood swing from time to time between happy and hyperactive to anger accasionly and to sadness where I don't want to be around anything (much like Pinkamena does) but I think I might stop here because I'm rambling. So when will there be another upload????