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Blue Cultist


“The soul becomes dyed with the colour of its thoughts.” -Marcus Aurelius, Meditations

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  • 4 weeks
    Got my hard drive fixed

    And all my data's been restored. It even costed less than I was originally quoted. Still pricey but I got my data back, and backed up on 3 different USB drives.

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    5 comments · 91 views
  • 5 weeks
    Proof I'm not dead

    So I'm aware I've been dead quiet lately, and I felt the need to touch base. So here's a peek at the next song in the upcoming chapter without any context. My way of giving you something. Its no where near finished, but progress is being made.

    7 comments · 65 views
  • 11 weeks
    Harddive died

    Last year when I had my little vacation I noticed my laptop having signs of its approaching death, so I ordered a cheap external hard drive. It was a panic purchase, I am very uneducated on computers aside from their general use, and copied all my data. I since used it as the main storage space to keep microsoft's prying eyes out of my affairs (its the spirit of the thing rather than having

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  • 16 weeks
    Another Update

    So I felt the need to touch base with you all again.

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    4 comments · 187 views
  • 22 weeks
    Yup Shingles

    noticed it yesterday night. My eyeliid aching and red, and I got the start of a rash around my left down to my checkbone. I ran out today for a refill on my huge-ass anti viral pills.

    I mean, I got these before I started having any holes in my vision, but I hate that I'm back to stinging, burning eye pain.

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Jan
30th
2022

Uncle passing · 6:36am Jan 30th, 2022

He's on his last leg.

For the past two years he's been in and out of the hospital, his blood sugar spiking up and down, his heart is failing and now the doctors don't think they can restart his heart if he flatlines again.

I got to see him today. he's about half the weight I know him having. I'm trying to stay strong but I'm not handling it as well as I should. I lost my aunt last year, now this. I'm just typing this out to try and vent a bit. I'm afraid to go back and visit him more and making it harder for me to let him go.

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Comments ( 5 )

Its hard to see someone towards the end, but try not to think of it as you seeing them go. Think of it as them seeing you on te way out.

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thanks man. means a lot that I can share this kind of stuff here.

Similar to Syroc, it would be nice to spend as much time with your uncle as you can, sometimes thats all that matters the most in moments like these.

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You might not get a lot of people commenting/saying much about it, but remember that there's a whole lotta people out there who see it and at least think "aw jeez, why do bad things happen to people I like?".

Lost my mom back in 2015 I still wish I could have seen her one last time, best of luck to you and your family

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