I'm here · 10:37pm Dec 15th, 2021
So, uh...
It's been a hot minute, huh?
I just want you all to know I'm still here, just... very tired. A lot of factors in my life have come together to really rob me of any time and energy I've had to write. A brief summary:
1. Working in management in retail during the holidays. I don't really think I need to explain that one.
2. Psychological issues. I've been feeling better and more collected than I have in a long time, but seasonal mood disorder is still something that I'm actively dealing with.
3. Family emergency. My sister was in a head-on collision with a drunk driver, and we've all been scrambling to make sure she's alright. Thankfully she wasn't hurt, thanks to a mix of (I believe) divine intervention and thousands of hours of engineers dedicated to the protection of their drivers. I was the only one in our family with any kind of liquid assets, so what little savings I had were volunteered to help. Which leads into...
4. Failing personal goals. Covid resulted in me moving back in with my parents, with the goal of moving back out by the end of 2021, either to return to college or by getting an apartment. It appears neither of those will be happening soon.
5. And, wellll... to be honest... I've put a lot of pressure on myself lately to work on my writing. It's all I think about when I'm at work, and then I hate myself when I don't have the energy to do it when I get home. Even after not updating for almost 2 months, I don't think I've had more than 2 days where I wasn't brainstorming or rewriting plotlines in my head for Multiverse.
The adventurers in the discord server have seen most of this burnout play out in real time, but I want everyone who is here on the site to understand that I have not abandoned or forgotten about you and my projects here. I've just been under a lot of pressure lately, both external and internal... and I feel like a submarine that's dived too deep and collapsed.
I swear I'm not leaving the site or my projects, but I think... I think I need to stop thinking so much for a bit. Give my brain a chance to recuperate. I will try to get back to working on stuff as soon as possible, but there's a good chance that there won't be any more updates for the rest of the year and maybe a little bit beyond.
Thank you all for your patience with me. I need to take care of myself and my family for now, and I hope you all can do the same. If I can think of some low-stress content I could make, I'll do it to try and tide you all over, but I can't promise anything for the moment.
Lots of love,
Pennington
Glad to hear your sister wasn't hurt working as a manager in retail surprised you have time for more than eat work sleep rinse and repeat
Thanks for the update. Take your rest, you've earned it. We're not going to go anywhere, so we'll be here when you get back to it, whenever that ends up being. I wish you good luck in your life and finances.
Told ya we'd be supportive
Your own health is more important than the opinions of others; if you feel you need time off to recuperate and get your affairs in order, you take that time off and Nuts to anyone who says different.
OH MY GOSH TAKE ALL THE TIME YOU NEED YOUR MENTAL AND PHYSICAL HEALTH IS MORE IMPORTANT!!! Holiday wishes to you and yours, thank you for the update! Will keep you in my prayers.
take the time you need! we'll be ready in the new year
We love u too, good luck, recover as soon as possible