Concerning future chapters of all my incomplete stories!

Hey all! I uh want to start that from the beginning of making my stories I started from the bottom, (still am I know) but I used to make button mash stories, very cringe I know.

I uh, wasn't a very good writer (still not) but I still had people enjoy those stories for some weird reason and I just, it meant a lot to me, I wanted to make something noteworthy for you all y'know? I see these amazing stories with such great plots, detailed characters, emotions, real high-top tier stuff that I could never make. It inspired me regardless though, to create stories I envisioned that I had kept so long dormant.

I uh, mlp has meant so much to me, started as a more of mockery of it because I thought 'it might get me to laugh at it' we can all see how that worked out, ha.

My point is, I started from the very bottom and when I got that first feature on princess Celestia being foalnapped I legitimately was so happy. It meant so much to me to see people enjoy a story I MADE, ME. The guy that is just socially awkward that used to see this as an embarrassment of a hobby.

I really didn't expect me to get to that level, I know I know, not that big of a deal to you all but to me? It was like seeing a piece of my art being hung to the refrigerator, I actually never experienced that BUT, it was amazing. It felt like I had a chance y'know? Like it wasn't just me making dumb stories, people were actually liking it. I was moved really, which motivated me to get out of that shell I had and make something.

...Which brings me to the now

I uh, I want to complete these stories, I really do! I have such big plans for them all! But, that may not happen... ever.

I've been dealing with a lot in my personal life and... I just, I don't know If I'll make it.

I don't know if I won't one day just wake up and chug all my pills and just die silently in my sheets. I know I know, dark turn, but I'm being real here.

I'll try to work on chapters rn but, possibly someday near, I might just.. snap? y'know? I might just let myself sink into death and let myself just drift away.

Death is scary to me but I'm finding it a bit more comforting than living this life out.

I'll try to make stuff, I really like making these chapters and I'm thankful to all of you that actually took a glance or even read my stories.

It means more than you could ever know. Maybe I'm just speaking to the endless abyss of the internet but, this place has always felt like home to me, every story I ever read has felt like a push forward. Maybe I shouldn't Idolize these stories so much or let them affect me as much but they do anyway.

Maybe I'm just crazy but anyone actually reading this, even if it's just one person, it means the world to me.

Thank you all so much...

I'm sorry I'm dumping all this onto all of you, I'm just.. alone right now. This show, this website has connected to me so much.

It's stupid I know but, it has helped me out so much, writer and irl wise.

Thank you all for accepting who I am and was and gave me a chance.

-Chaos Eclipse

PS. Did you know I actually always spelled chaos like choas? It seems to always get me and I like that, choatic energy just in this one word I can never get right. Idk, I always found it funny.

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