Stressed but trying my best

Apologies in advance for the venting nature of this blog.

I haven't been well, with Mum still recovering from surgery, and me worrying about the quality of my writing for the hundredth time, things have been a bit out of whack. I have attempted to write a Hollow Knight fanfic that doesn't cross over with anything, but the lack of feedback has only soured my overall mood and stressed me out further.

You ever think you're improving, then think everything you write is shit because you have no idea if it's actually good? That's me with Of Soul and Flame, I want to finish it, I want to write the sequel that actually follow the events of Hollow Knight, but motivation has been lacking.

I've been writing since I was seventeen for fuck's sake, I'm twenty-eight. You'd think I'd be over this insecurity by now.

I'm still burnt out when it comes to my Henry Stickmin fics, might be a while before I get the drive to go back to working on them.

Onto the main point of this blog, Kindler.

I haven't been able to really sit down and write, to just ignore the world and go nuts on Microsoft Word (hello NZ spelling, how I've missed you), so even the process of writing Kindler stressed me out somewhat. I do have notes down for the sequel, more like a rough outline, as well some world building notes for later.

For now I'm planning this little series fic by fic, one story at a time, because I don't have the energy for a multi-chapter fic, and shorter stories will allow me to focus more certain parts of the world. Each fic will star either Grimm or Hearth, so there's a common element to them.

I hope I can reach the point where they end up in Hallownest...

I have no fucking clue how this will all turn out, but I adore Hollow Knight and since Of Soul and Flame isn't doing as well as I hoped (I'm not expecting it get super famous, but a few regular readers that at least comment would be fucking nice...Just to know I'm writing something people give a shit about), I may as well focus on other ideas in the (vain) hope of not stressing over the damn thing.

So yeah stressed, bitter, and overall just having a bad week. I am happy with the AU I've started to establish and hope to actually be able to write the next fic soon, provided I have the time and energy.