Well this is a rant from earlier

I'm feeling a little less down than before, but this is all I've ranted over:

Alright so first off, I'm sick with stress, my immune system is making me tured if I'm not eating a lot, I'm trying to keep a level head, my dad is on breathing tubes because he can barely breathe without them and we thunk he might have covid so I can't leave my house for the next few days, I was supposed to be at a planning meeting tonight but I can't go and I'm hecking mad at everything and I hate it!

I wish I could leave the house, I wish I could do stuff, I've gone almost a whole year without seeing my friends or anyone and it's starting to get to me and now I'm here ranting about my issues here where I'm most likely only going to get sympathetic answers and "It'll get better eventually" 's and...
Agh

Sometimes I wish I had the power to change life around me for my own betterment but it's mostly my fault everything happening and I'm hating myself for it though I never intentionally did any of it

It all just happened

And now I'm here

Grovelling for help I kniw I can't get because I've gotta pick myself up and power through it but truth is, I don't have any more power to gi through it

I hate being helpless, I hate feeling like there's nothing left for me

I know there's something out there for me but

I can't see it and if I can't see it then what's the deal with working toward it

I'm a car running on low oil

And there's not a gas station for miles

...why

keep in mind I don't enjoy doing much of anything now, and singing or listening to music is distracting and won't fix anything

Comments

[Angel Midnight]

I'm not going to bother with the "it'll get better eventually" 's because I have been where you are. I hate being helpless, and last time I was like that, I didn't even have Fimfiction. Will a virtual hug do for now? *Headbutts screen* Shoot. I thought it would suck me into Equestria, but never mind. Hang in there, and do as much ranting as you like. You'll think more clearly after.

[hamster wizard]

I get how you feel, this whole pandemic has really been driving me up the wall too. Sometimes when you're in a rut the only way out is to just start doing things, which is really hard when you don't want to do anything. I'm not sure if this helps but I'm rooting for you.

I hope things get better soon, and if you're feeling depressed then make sure you get some help okay?

[HiddenEntity]

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I'll try.