Life Always Goes On · 7:01am Sep 24th, 2020
Life Always Goes On
My life has been pretty difficult. I don't talk about it a lot but I wanted to share some things to encourage people not to give up.
I've been abused at all levels of schools, at my jobs, and I was abused at home until my early twenties. I was kept isolated and I was so severely abused it messed me up for life/ I never learned to interact with people properly.
I was kept fairy isolated until my early twenties so I never developed proper communication skills with others. Since I never learned to look for warning signs in other people, I'm more susceptible to being attacked or used by others.
The aftermath of my abuse is something I struggle with every day. I have bad flashbacks to ways I was abused and it's hard for me to be around other people. But I still try to live my best life despite the things I struggle with.
I was also betrayed by a lot of friends, had people steal my creative works and publish them as their own, and lost ten years of photography, writing, art and other creative works I can never get back when one of my apartments flooded.
I've gone through a good eleven years of one bad disaster happening after another, being in and out of homelessness. Trying to hide from my abuser who has been after us for eleven years.
Having my apartments flood twice. Getting bed bugs. Having to sell everything I owned multiple times just to survive.
My mom got Vikings Disease along the way and my health is really bad now. That's not the worst of what I've been through.
I'm saying this to mention that I understand when people are going through a bad time. Life can be really hard. It's hard for me to keep going at times as well after everything I've been through. However, life always goes on.
I've built up a network of people to talk to when I'm feeling depressed or suicidal including my mom. I continue to work on my creative projects, despite losing them multiple times. I continue to live my best life possible despite everything I've gone through and am still going through in many ways.
If anyone needs someone to talk to, I'm always here. Send me a message any time, it can be as dark as you want. I understand. I've been there.
Just remember that you do have people who care about you and no matter how things seem, focus on the people who care about you and not all of the stuff that is outside of your control.
No matter what happens in your life, you can always pick yourself up and keep moving forward.
Remember the people who support you, God's love for you, and keep focused on goals. Think about the things that make you laugh and the stuff you like doing.
There's always a reason to keep going on.
Bless you, Lyra. *Sending a big virtual hug*
I hope the rest of the year goes smoothly for you.
5362894 Thank you for the kind words my friend. Many hugs to you.
As I said some time ago, it helps me immensely to know that I always have your unending support. So for that, know that you'll always have someone to lean on in me. It's no exaggeration or white-knighting when I say that if I could, I would gladly lend my home to you to help you. Truth be told, I admire your ability to be happy and full of joy despite the shit you've suffered through.
Thanks for the nice blog. This made my day. Life has been really rough for me as well lately, and I’m sorry for what you’ve had to endure. But you’re right, life always does go on.
5362994 Thank you for the kind words my friend. I appreciate them. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to as well. Many hugs to you.
5363033 I'm sorry to hear that you have been going through a hard time. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to send me a message any time. Many hugs to you, my friend.
5363188 Thank you for taking the time to read. I appreciate it my friend. Many hugs to you as well.
You know, this long thread you're sharing has inspired me to share you some things that have been on my chest for 4 years. I'll be happy to share them with you via Message when I'm ready of course.
5363566 I'm glad it could inspire you to talk about some things. Feel free to send me a message any time. I'm always willing to listen. Many hugs to you.
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Same to you as well.
5363594 Aww thank you very much. I appreciate it. :3
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Thanks. How’s Phoenix these days?
5363914 You are welcome. Well it's still hot here but it should cool off a bit soon which is good since the sun makes me sneeze and drains me of energy. I think I'm secretly some kind of vampire.
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Yeah should be soon. I was there in late May/early June this year and I went for a hike up by Scottsdale and it was 115 degrees lol. I still thought it was more pleasant than the humid hot of the East though. Love Arizona.
5363934 I didn't know you live in the Scottsdale area. That's pretty cool. Are you an ASU student? Just curious. A lot of people move down to go to ASU.
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On no I don’t live in Arizona, I was just visiting. I live in the Chicago area, but I’ve been to the Phoenix area numerous times for various reasons. It’s one of my favorite places. It’s a long story but I also have family in Tempe and whatnot.
5363940 Oh neat! How do you like things over in the Chicago area?
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It’s alright, I was born and raised here and have lived here my whole life except for my recent college years, but I’ve been all over the USA (every state except Alaska). I wish I could live in Arizona though, I love it very much lol. Probably my favorite state. We’ve actually talked about this long ago on my old account here haha. I absolutely adore sightseeing and the majestic desert landscape oF Arizona.
There’s nothing quite like the Sonoran desert. I love The saguaros and desert landscape so much, perhaps because it’s about as different from Illinois as can be xD. I can talk all day about why I love Arizona and the western USA in general.
5363965 I've been all over the USA as well and also to Canada. I'd love to travel to other parts of the world one day. I also really love living in Arizona as well. The Sonoran Desert is really beautiful and has all sorts of unique animals and plants.
What people shouldn't do when life gets hard is to give up. When the rain ends, there's a rainbow.
5364321 That's a great quote. I completely agree. When things get hard, there is always a light in the darkness to guide you out.