Random Ramblings CCCLXXXIV · 9:25am Oct 1st, 2019
IN WHICH I AM EMPTY-HANDED
Good morning or evening or whatever. First, enjoy some Babymetal: Metal-meets-Bollywood.
Are you confused yet? You should be. I am, and I saw it live (not the show in this MV; that was in Japan). Follow me.
First, I want to start off with an apology. You'd think it would be easy to not care and just write a shitpost of a chapter and call it a day, but lately even that basic level of competence hasn't come to me. I know what I want the third chapter of the EQGPS-verse to eventually be, but I'm not sure how I want to get there. I'm sorry.
I'm also sorry for lack of blogposts in September. A lot of that was due to attending several live shows both local and out of town as a sort of present to myself. More importantly, I didn't want to blog anything if I didn't have a piece of story in return. Otherwise, why bother? Y'all two or three follow me because you want horsewords, probably about Sunset. I want to deliver on that for you but I'm having difficulty.
I'll tell ya what. If recreational cannabis was legal in my state (we're working on it and it'll probably be on the ballot next year -- we were the first Southern state to attempt to legalize med-pot, but only succeeded on the 2nd or 3rd try, when Florida did the same), I'd probably be tempted to pop edibles. Though I worry that that might make my already messed up brain worse since one of the side effects of THC is increased paranoia, it might be worth it if it helps me to rediscover the craziness within my brain that I seem to have lost.
Being an adult sucks. Little by little the parts of your mind that made you creative simply fade away. For nearly 20 years now, every time I've gone to look back at most of my old works, especially my high school comics, I'm genuinely amazed that I wrote them, because they're, y'know, good. Even my earlier stories on this site.
Could I write a story like Sunset Shimmer Buys A Burrito today? I honestly don't know. I suppose I'll find out once I start writing the final long-delayed Burritoverse entry where Sunset and Sonata meet again. I'm not sure where I want to go with that one. I may just sit back and let them decide what they want to do. Strong enough characterization allows one to do that, and I think I've given enough of that to those two even outside of canon. It's just a matter of me getting off my proverbial ass to do it. Brain-to-fingers don't work none too good.
It's regrettable that due to my slow pace, no one will ever have the chance to see all the Horse ideas that have been knocking 'round my head for the past six years.
I managed to give y'all a detailed synopsis of the Pinkamena story -- and in the process, actually devised a viable ending for it, so bully for me. I wonder if I should do the same regarding the plans I've had for Apple Bloom for some time. Mystery stories are fucking difficult because everything regarding the main plot has to be water-tight.
Plus, there's Apple Bloom's redemption story, which I completed the first three chapters of some time ago (except for cleanup). That story is designed to set her up as a primary character, showcase her slowly increasing affinity towards Sunset, and also FINALLY give Sunset's backstory that I've had clonking 'round my head. INCLUDING how she knew to steal Twilight's big crown thingy -- fixing a major plot-hole in the first EQG movie. That particular flashback I've written at least half of, but not its frame story or its ending.
Ah, a failed writer's work is never done.
Today is the First of October. This is the day I have to change out my air filters. Also, ten days from now, I'm getting on an airplane for the first time in a decade to fly out to Los Angeles for Babymetal's big arena show at The Forum.
Before I go, I'll probably need to do two things -- get one of those "Enhanced IDs" just in case California or Oklahoma get bitchy about letting me onto the plane. Also… *sigh* replacing my trusty Blackberry-style cellphone I've had for nearly five years and still works fine with a smartphone in order to be able to contact taxi services. My cousin suggests an iPhone. Since I use a Mac laptop already, that's a logical step. I've no intention of buying the most recent model; a couple generations back should suffice. Plus a protector because I'm not that stupid. I can't tell you how many times I've dropped my current phone with no issues. That's not the case with "smart"phones.
At this point, it's nearly 4:30 in the morning here in the Ozarks. I passed out after supper (as usual) but am now getting sleepy again. I should go to the gym, but the spirit is not willing …or sometimes it gets distracted. The road to hell is paved with good intentions.
I swear there ain't no heaven but I pray there ain't no hell.
PS -- Wishing the best for my friends Dusk Melody and Anomalax. Also hoping Holy is okay. Hang in there, y'all.
Peace out!
No worries! I know it's difficult to pump out word vomit. I've had a hard time lately too, therapy's helping.
As for creativity, I feel like I'm becoming MORE creative the older I get because I'm becoming more focused and my old ideas are becoming far more refined. It's like purifying metal. I'm taking away all the chunks that don't belong, and maximizing the ones that I do. And nothing's going to waste. The stuff I take out goes elsewhere. Gets put on the back burner to simmer while I try to figure out where it DOES belong. I got all of The Paths we Carve pretty much planned out, and I'm looking forward to putting the rest of it to paper.
Good luck on the concert! I went to the Puyallup Fair recently and despite my anxieties I had a blast! I can show you some pics of some animals I saw and souvenirs I got if you want. :) There was more there too, like rides, art exhibits, concerts, food, etc, but I mostly took pics of the animals.
I'm off to therapy today as a matter of fact!
Edit: Btw there are different types of edibles. Ones that get you high, ones that relax you, ones that do both, etc.