crazy venting. · 8:59am Feb 7th, 2017
I like to write stories, yet at the same time it drives me crazy. Especially when other people actually like what I write.
It's a bit of a contradiction. Because I write to, hopefully, entertain people. And it feels good when it does. But at the same time it's terrifying. Because if people like it, then they will expect you to keep a certain standard in your work. Which is hard to maintain for an amateur like myself.
Then you start to agonize over whether or not people will like the next chapter of your story and your head starts to fill with anxiety and doom scenarios of angry mobs and pitchforks because you ended up ruining it. Which makes you afraid to take risks with your tale, so you play it safe and churn out samey chapters. And then the joy is gone because you feel like you're writing mediocre trash. But people love it and that feels good. So you keep doing it anyways and it all becomes a big vicious emotional circle. You see where I'm going with this? Its enough to make a person cuckoo o’ clock.
So is this a fear of criticism? I guess that’s part of it. I don't mind that at all so long as people give me some good constructive feedback on what to work on. But there's always the risk of people just writing: This shit sucks! Die in a fire! Rarw! Flaming Buttmonkeys! Because this IS the internet after all. And anonymity has a way of turning decent folks into complete gobshites.
You’d think I’d be used to it by now. After all when you upload a picture you run the same risks right? Well… yes and no. To me, uploading a picture and having it judged is easy. Because drawing it comes easy to me by comparison. I’m at a level there where I’m confident in, and comfortable with my skills. So if people hate the everliving shite out of it I can shrug it off. But writing is HARD. Like really freaking hard. It has a lot of ‘rules’ compared to drawing, which is pretty much a do whatever the flying fairy farts you want kind of deal. I don’t have the same level of competence or confidence as I do with my drawings. And so when people tear into a story it hits a lot harder because of the greater amount of effort invested in it.
And yah, im pretty happy with my drawing skills. because...
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Now if only I could draw ponies that way. 
So is there a point to this whole rant? No, not really. It’s just something I needed to put into words. Vent some of that craziness and clear my head so I can get back to writing. Thanks for indulging me.
Don't know if it'll work for you, but maybe do some mindless writing?
I don't know if you did this but a way to get better at drawing is to have a goal in mind and scribble till your satisfied, writing is kind of the same.
You just keep going at it until you either say "this is good and fun, send it out." Or "screw it, I'm sick of this chapter, send it out."
Half the reason stories are good is because they are visceral, roll with that inspiration, nothing is or should be set in stone, this is fanfiction it meant to entertain YOU first and foremost, if we enjoy it also, it's a bonus.
Bro. All i can say is just let your creativity break the fuck out like the god damn hulk when someone steals his lunch out from under him. You do you bro. I stick with evergreen heart because it had a feel that not many stories have. I see a lot of similar stories but i haven't seen a story quite like yours with how you set it up. No matter what happens you always got me in your corner. (Also thought rated ARH for pirates was fing funny)
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Hey y'all, thanks for the comments, and for sticking with me. Take it all with a healthy helping of salt though, because I tend to rant and ramble from time to time
call it a form of stress relief. I guess part of that comes from me being a bit of a perfectionist, so i tend to secondguess myself a lot untill i hit that point where i'm like, buck it, and just do whatever. or maybe i'm just slightly crazy 
anyways, thanks for the kind words. I'll get back to work now 
4413006 everyones a little crazy
it makes life more fun!!!
also no prob bro. 