In memory · 7:11pm Aug 26th, 2016
August has not been a good month for me, despite the fact I turned 25 on the 1st.
In the span of this month, I have lost a friend from middleschool to his own hand, and I have lost my grandfather this morning (August 26th).
The hardest has been my grandfather, for though my friend was a horrible shock I had not spoken to him in ages. My grandfather, though? I spoke to him (Through a door mind you, which I highly regret now) on Wendsday. He had been sick for ages now, his heart was failing, his kidneys were failing... he was dying. We thought, we hoped to have a few more weeks, prayed that we'd get a few months, of his witty humor and his practical mind. A few more days to hear his stories (Though his voice was very weak and it was hard for him to talk) so that a part of his life, his memories, could live on through us.
That changed earlier today, at 4am.
I won't go into details, but we lost him at 4:10, and all I can remember is my brother coming into my room and telling me we had to leave. We had to leave now and get over to Grandma's house, because Grandpa was dead. There are few words in this world that truly, deeply, shock me anymore, but those words made my heart stop and my blood to turn to ice. I knew we were going to lose him, but to do so this soon? With hardly any warning? It's painful, and I've found words have completley fled me when I try to describe what has happened to my family today.
Nothing can truly prepare you for it, really. I've written a great deal of heart wrenching things over the past year, but now I seem to find myself in one of those stories, and it's no fun.
Anyway, I just needed to get this all out, I've been crying off an on all day. So, I think I am going to just post this, then go snuggle one of my dogs and just let the world pass me by for a bit. I'll be late on CiF's next chapter because of this, in fact I'd stopped writing altogether when we got the "He has a month to live" verdict a few weeks back.
Anyway, stay safe everyone, and I'll see you all later.
~Sylvian
Sorry to hear that, bro
*hugs*