Do you ever? · 8:41am Jul 13th, 2016
Have you ever just felt like a failure? Like you've exhausted all options? I do. I do constantly.
Nothing feels good anymore. Small victories just don't help me through the day anymore. It's just all one big bitter taste.
I've tried fighting my mental illness for as long as I can remember, and it's winning without much of a fight these days.
The more I try and better myself, the worse I feel when I fail. I'm getting to the point I can't leave the house for more than a few hours, and even then I'm a wreck inside with a painted on face to make people think I'm not losing my shit.
I can't even bring myself to talk to friends and family or leave my room on the worst days. I don't know how much longer I can suffer like this.
If anyone has ever had these sort of problems and can tell me how to get out of this hole, I'd appreciate it. Just don't suggest medication. I've tried everything. I can't even use sleep meds anymore. My tolerances are so high I'd need a lethal dose to feel any changes. I spent so long on so many pills I lost massive chunks of my memory. Professional help is likewise undoable, as I've literally no money since I can't stay away from the house long enough to work.
You need someone to share you emotions with, someone you can count on. Don't be as stupid as me, find someone and try to talk to him about your feelings and his as well. Make yourself think about all the good stuff not the bad stuff. Or find yourself a psychologist like me. It helps at least a little bit and you will not look weird because of it, if you worry about that. Just don't try to kill yourself like me okay? Don't.
I know exactly how you feel. I've been "managing" my depression for going on five years now, and I still don't have the answer to the question that's been bothering me for years, "how do I beat this?". I dropped out of college, and I've been unemployed for almost three years now because of it. Fortunately I have managed to find a thing or two that has helped me feel a little bit better.
First, do as BeatenLover says; find a sympathetic person, you don't even necessarily have to talk to them about your depression, as long as they are willing to spend time with you and support you. For me it was my older brother, but it could be anyone that you trust.
Second, if at any point you feel motivated to do something constructive, regardless of how silly it seems, do it. I went jogging once in the middle of the night in February because I got the itch to move around. It sounds stupid but it works.
That's really all I got. If I could be of more help I would be, but this is the best I can do.
Hi, well i cannot say i share the same problems you have, the worst i have is a sub-type 1 ADHD. But even if i cant understand what you are going through i know its not something to brush off or laugh at. I may not be able to give helpful insight and i dont know you...but i know your work, i know that you made me happy with your Mac x Spike series when i had a car accident and my little 3 years old cousin had to be hospitalized, i was at my home and decided to browse through fimfiction....and i found the series, they...well they gave me back my smile (dont get me wrong my little loveable tyke of a cousin was at the hospital and i was still going a little crazy), they helped me to look at the future, i was relieved when the doctors said he was going to recover. What i want to say is, no matter how dark and deep the hole you may be in is, you will always have people around you to try and help you, just look at me i dont know you of anything, I'm from spain and im trying to help you because....well, you need all the help you can get, be it from your family, friends or fans, people who like...no, who love your work and get to know you through it.
If you ever need anyone to talk to, i will always be willing to listen after all sometimes getting something out of your chest helps a lot, "that" i know from experience or seek a close friend with similar problems or a psychologist. Please never think that you are nothing or never will achive anything...and please, here i'm begging you, never try to kill yourself, you will hurt everyone you know or that knows you or your work. Try to remember all the good things you have done and dont think about the bad stuff...it must be difficult...but its better to live a full life, even with problems, that ending it sooner and dying alone
Do something you can express your self, but not something that is very difficult.( because fail more doesn't help ether.)
From what i have read from what some others have said, talking about how you feel helps more than you think.
If you can't find anyone you can talk to me. i have no life or job so i can be open for a talk very often.
And for the first sentence, try doodling, not drawing that can be hard, just make what ever you feel like making (even if it is just a bunch of dicks.)
lastly make sure you have something to keep yourself busy or else the problem will come back.
this is all i can give you.
sereous on the talking thing tho, you need to talk to me, send me a message.
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4088372 I'm really touched you guys cared enough to try and help. It means a lot to me. I've just been having a rough time as of late. I feel a bit better today, yesterday I just hadn't been able to sleep and your mind tends to go places when you're laying alone in the dark. Hopefully, I'll be able to get some rest tonight. Again, thank you. I needed to hear that somebody cared.
Your not alone there, there are people like us who care about you ,people who love you.When ever your down you have people on this site to talk and im sure many other places. Basically what I'm trying to say express your emotions ,there are people out there who will help you if you would be willing to talk, like now you have 6 people trying to help you. Tell us your thoughts on this site or on others, because you will always have friends,after all friendship is magic
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I hope for you as well. I pretty much sleep only 2 hours a day, 'cause my life is rough on me. I gave up my hope, but i never gave up life, doesn't mean i didn't try to. The thing is: I know how you feel right now and i know you will get through it.
Truly a blessing to have such fans that care for you... I've been in the same hole once and I've had friends that shared similar fates. All that has been said is the best advice ever.. Find you special place that makes you sore high wether it be in your beautiful tales or doing other productive activitys.. I wish you peace